Opened my eyes
To awake within my dreams
Where I walk the line
Between chaos and peace

I look to the sky
To sigh in relief
At the sweet somber scene

Almost too intoxicating
One deep breath
Fills my fantasy's
With hues of gray, gold,
And green

The entrancing sky's

The soul behind your beautiful eyes

And my favorite color
To catch me by surprise

He had his tongue in my mouth
I was new to this and went along with it
He layed me down
I thought about my classmate in the front seat
He moved his hands up too high
I didn’t want to cause any drama
He put his hands under my shirt
I silently tried to push them away
He was stronger than me
I kept pushing his hands away
He felt me up anyways
I faked like I didn’t mind, while I smiled, tried to gently push him away,
He stopped and said “please”
I was silent
At one point he also tried to put his hand down my jeans
I pushed back harder than I’d done the first time.
The classmate in the front took a video
I looked like I was enjoying myself
I wasn’t
My friends saw it
I felt sick
People got mad at me for denying that I enjoyed it
I wanted to cry
My best friend didn’t believe me when I told him I was violated
I remembered when he said he’d protect me

Why didn’t you say no?
I was in shock
Why didn’t you get out of the car?
He was on top of me
He said “please” why didn’t you say No?
I was scared of making him mad.
Why didn’t you tell anyone?
I didn’t want them to know
Why didn’t you press charges?
I just wanted the whole thing to go away
Why did you pretend you were enjoying it if you weren’t?
I was scared, in shock, I wasn’t thinking clearly, maybe I thought it was safer than him doing it by force.

Why can’-
I don’t need to answer your questions
I was violated
I don’t care if you agree or not
Please
Stop making me relive it

Your inner self is your truer friend
you need to communicate with him,

express, ask, seek, wish, pray
and
the desire

the wish

the prayer

will be answered,
as long as, you'll remains tolerant,
kind, loving, high in ideals and unselfish,

if so you have an harmonious partnership