I fell in love
And out of love with you
When truthfulness expired between us.

Sometimes I dive in the ocean I'm unable to swim,
Too deep and three hundred and sixty degree freezing,
A trauma on its own right?

Well, I drown while wearing my smiling face,
with no one to pull me up,
but a pen and a piece of a paper.

The execution take place without our Will,
Yes! No! Steadfast or not,
The Angel shows no compassion.

You board the train already geared to take off,
With no alert who will be getting off from here,
You or the passenger next to you!

Incriminating of oneself to criminal prosecution,
Into a place where its dark and cold as highways of California
Hands on my back bound to bottom in chains,
With no where to hide

A long walk to freedom,
As I drag my feet to the right,
And look up in the sky with my eyes closed
Finally, I could see a tiny cloud to liberation of Sunday morning blues.

No embrace,
No affection,
Just a titanic building called a house,
With no warmth of your nature

Just so you know,
You took our home with you!

Debts get written off,
whenever a debtor become insolvent
And I wonder why it can't be the same procedure,
for the agony shrouded deep within
It has been long overdue.

I kept missing you each moment,
And I scribbled you a text
It came back in the twilight,
Not delivered!

With fists on air ready to fight,
I came into this world
Separated with a home I only knew,
I let out a soft moan then fell asleep
With a touch of her hand,
I gazed into the world full of uncertainty
And I was attached,
attached to a home that isn't my home
Creating rooms where hatch are forever terminal

I wish we do not have to follow the pattern,
But humans were created to love and be loved,
Love which comes with greater agony
I believe when creation took place,
"Forever" should have form part,
Then we would be together for a lifetime

Yet it begins with one,
Then two becoming one,
And swivel into a family
"Till we meet again in heaven"
Then again, On my own
With my universe turned upside down!

Out of all highways,
I driven on with no destination,
And finally finding one within your heart,
Took my eyes of the steering wheel.

"I love you,
I love you too"
Yet the season came to an end,
Once they realised they were not meant to be

I tell you, sometimes love is never enough.

Your heart stopped beating out of
chest,
When you starred right through my
eyes,
And fail to notice you were racing
against the clock.

I idolise it here
And despise it here,

We rekindled our love,
Under the stars,
Looking at the moon
Yet part of me died in here.

I never prayed for you,
I prayed for my soul

For I longed for peace,
I desired love

To see butterflies,
In someone's eyes

As mine sparkle like,
a midnight twilight

I prayed for a brotherly love,
I never experienced

Something to challenge me,
To see a better reflection of me

I never prayed for you,
Yet God gave me you.

How vulnerable we were
That night,
we made love
And shed tears
Then broke each others hearts

I saw her face
On a broken mirror
Clothed with a smile
Yet fragmented as the reflection

Two hearts,
meant to beat as one
But yours beat for her
and someone else
Yet you say love isn't suppose to hurt

Thought she got this in the luggage,
Stuffed through each pocket,
And secreted miles away
Yet she opened her eyes,
And found everything unpacked

I took the photo album out today
Of what we call our frozen memories,
I hold dear to my heart
How I wish I got to hold you forever,
not just these pieces of papers in my hand

Sometimes I hide behind my smile
Sometimes I find a corner and just let it rain
Yet you taught me that every that I misses you,
I must look up in the sky
But there is a tear everytime that I blink
And sometimes I go insane,
neither lose myself when the emotions weighs up

I realized I'm not strong enough when I miss you,
Oh I'm engraved forever...

I'm still feeling blue
When I reminisce your smile,
so bright as though the ray of sunlight
yet mine turns cold and lovely
as frost on a windowpane.

I get blue,
When I reminisce your lineaments,
so innocent, the angel you were
And I close my eyes, nearer you are
yet you are so far away.

When she hold on in a breaking moment
Through emotions no one would understand,
It is Him

When she lays down under the tears of heaven
That ushers tears on her eyes
To the glimpse of heaven,
It is Him

When she think she is healing
Then in between breaks down
Yet never gives up,
It is Him

That uphold her hand
Capture her heart
And never let go,
It is God

Once upon a time
She found a companion
Who permitted her to sail
Within the pool of his heart,
Became the beats on his lips
Forever and a lifetime
Yet he made her parade
On fractured glasses
As she pick the share of her scars

Of what once was called love,
The enigmatic intimacy
sparkling as diamonds
Ocean blue as violets,
Look, it doesn't look red as Roses anymore

Flashback sails within the galaxy
As clouds journeys within the sky
Grief has taken over the dance
And happy feet seem to find no rhythm
In the end all withered, like flowers it did

A beautiful Spring Monday
with lilies dancing in the sun
with the melodies of the bees chanting
like happy feets in the musical concert

The butterflies roaming around
wearing their colourful clothing
which they cannot see
yet the world can

It looks overwhelming,
you should see the view

Its the feeling you feel
Not spoken in so many words
Or in a language precisely understood
Just one word, maybe this and that
But it is unexplainable, as love is
Definitely causing a scar, of holding on
In hope and in faith,
Yet a new day is not so new anymore

Would it make sense
How the emotions waves subdues
And desert me giggling through raindrops?

Today, just today
It feels blazing
More dazzling
Clouds so crystal
And yellow in colour

Waves so still
Streams evaporating
Just flows of recollections,
beautiful reminiscences
Of forever and a lifetime

You vowed lifetime
Yet you gave half of the time

You strategized our alleviation
Within the face of the universe
If I could stroll the heaven with you
Yet you vanished, all alone
And captured half of my heart

Split second on the clock
Ticking and ticking soundlessly
To forecast we are running against time
Maybe I would have mastered to let go

But look, the enemy of mankind,
Like a rushing mighty wind came
And grab you within a blink of an eye
And left my heart bleeding
Oh let this God see through this pain,
That I feel entitled to ask "why"
As He effectuated a cryptic pierce within thine heart,
Yet you are stronger up there than you could ever be in here

Worthless and rejected
As your servant Joseph
Yet you carried me through

Discouraged and weary
As your beloved David
Yet you held me close

While the world convinced me
I wasn't meant to be loved
Unconditional love you showed me

I came with nothing
As empty as the sky
Dispirited like a sheep without a shepherd
Yet I became your everything, Daddy!!

Put off the flames
Close the door behind my back
Yet love came like a rushing mighty wind

Labored of immorality to immorality
By the blood sanctified
Apparelled with righteousness
Now gaze on the price,

Jesus Christ

Migration of stars and the moon
Dancing around in circle like lovers do
Doesn't look titillating without you

Lying there helpless
Heart beating against the clock
Drowning on the pool of his blood

A lighter in their hands
Burning sensation within them
Blink of an eye, already inhaling smoke
Its flame, flame and flame after flame

Laboratory, hospitals in flames
Coffins in the middle of the roads
Corpses decomposing in houses
"Brown is brainless" they say

I close my ears
To the sound of each trigger
As I say a silent prayer
"God, preservation of life"

Smell peace for the last time
As white swivel to red
Then red to ashes
Back to before 1994, I long to see freedom

Because our nation is burning

Maybe I believed too much in their intimacy
That I unlearned to indoctrinate this brittle heart
Pros and cons of disappointment
Now it all feels like hallucinations
That can never swivel into authenticity
Maybe I just believed much in the tale
Yet they took it as a play
Still I feel broken

Many years ago
On this very day
God allowed you
To share your loudest cry
Turning into a contagious smile

A visionary
A lover
A mother
Who even lost one of her breed
I call you a general with scars

Here I am
With the pen in my palm
Strolling smoothly like a silk cloth
Yet I thought the ink would be dry
But how will it dry on a special day,
When the poet only release what is buried deep inside?

Poetry is a song
Full of mellifluous verses
Written within the galaxy

Once you start rendering
It keeps flowing
As though the sky is pouring
Leaving you mesmerized
As if the ink can be stoppable

When my day is done
The heart stop beating
I breath the last breath
Close my eyes for the last time
And the sound of my voice is no more,

Don't shed a tear,
If you've never done
in my breaking moments

Don't come for night vigil,
If you've never came for a visit
in my most trying times

Don't put flowers on my tomb,
If you've never let me smell
the fragrance of the lilies
in my happiest times

Love me now
Hug me now
Wipe off tears
From my teary eyes
At this moment
Before my day is done

If you parade with your pains,
What would be the significant of smile?
If you parade with each drop of tear,
How are you ought to feel the rain drops?
If you wander with the visibility of your bruises,
What will make the dance circle not be painted red?
If you only hold broken crayons,
How is the rainbow ought to be coloured then?

Yes, you are broken,
Yet not destroyed

Was once nonexistent
No companion, no home
Just wandering around
Like a bee trapped on a can
Until the man of my calibre
Came along and occupied this heart
And love found home

Every word said
Just felt unsaid
Wounds appearing healed
Unnoticeable kept bleeding
Like a drop of water on a loose tap

Only the smell of an ink
With the turn of each page
Wet with each tear,
Understood the procedure
Of her words becoming a prescription

Put on her shield
Raise the double-edged sword
Placed within the palm of her hand
Just like Moses she will lead

Clothed with piety
Take on the sling, put on stones
Mouth full of praises
Like David she will subdue

A warrior of exactitude
Rising against the Amorite
Full of dispute
To authenticate

Possessing like Joshua
Dominating like Judah
And birthing new creation like Mary
For she is of Jesus Nation

I asked him the other day
"Do you love me?"
He placed my hand in his beating heart
Whispered on my ears with his calming voice
Opened my eyes to read between the lines
And made me taste the liquid from his well
Until butterflies were chanting on our heads
And he said "That is love"

Yes, life is worth more than dollars
A piece of diamond treasured
A sweet aroma through bunch of lillies
Even a kiss in the sunset in the middle of nowhere

Death, Life,
Still beyond human control
But I'd choose none today
Yet I choose "thank you"