Holding on
To the last breath within her
Wanting second chance to life
But it is just not enough
To keep her heart beating

Forcing eyes to stay open
While slowly closing in
Trying to move herself side to side
While slowly shutting down
Getting tired of holding on

Angels at the bed side
Singing "well done, well done"
Time to say goodbye
Tears dropping one last time
As the father called his daughter home
It is not fair but His will

This morning he gave me the longest hug of them all
Looked me in the eyes with his shining blue eyes
Tears escaping before he could utter these three words
"I love you" while handing me this box
Beautifully wrapped a million times with colour of love

You should have seen me overwhelmed
Kissing his cheeks with the box in my hands
Smile widely spread eagerly rushing to see what is inside
Could it be chocolate, a card, a teddy bear maybe
I kept on guessing while my hands kept digging

There was nothing huge inside but a piece of a paper
I looked confused while going through it
But the paper read "My heart couldn't fit
On that box, that's where I carry you with me each day.
Be my valentine once more and let me love you for eternity"

I miss her
The one who used to smile
Blush over tiny things over and over again
And chuckle over the sound of her laughter

I miss her
The one who used to own happiness
Roaming around the colourful butterflies
Until she could feel butterflies in her tummy

I miss her
Young girl full of impossible dreams
That kept her day dreaming throughout the day
Whereas they were just fairytale that kept her faith

I miss her
Who didn't think of tomorrow
Just taking the day as it came
Allowing herself to breath

I miss me
Not this one full of endless thoughts
Which are drying up her bones
Who carry the universe on her shoulders

We all have days
Full of smiles
Where we stare through the rising of the sun
And lazing around through the warmth of the sunset
As we dance through the movement of the blue moon
And count the stars as they appear

We all have days
Full of uncertainty
Where the sun no longer shines through our windows
And we just stare through the walls full of darkness
Wishing if those walls could talk just once
And listen to the dance of thunders within thy heart