HOPE - Hello Poetry

HOPE Jul 2020

How do I dream
in this land of no hope
where dreams are becoming more invalid
and has reached a stalemate?

Allow my mind to be blank
and dream of no dreams
on this demoralized land of ours
that keeps our dreams hanging within the space

How do I keep on dreaming
on the land that shutters my dreams
and turn a blind eye on the reality of my dreams?

How do I keep on dreaming
while my dreams keep flashing out
to not making it to scratch
resulting to unanswered dreams
just like bunch of unanswered prayers?

I dream of no dream
as they only hit dead end

HOPE Jul 2020

I LOVE YOU

Barefoot on the grass,
with our eyes lifted up in the sky
In the evening dawn full of stars
stars which can only be counted
through each heartbeat we take
because they say heart don't lie
I love you

If these three words
don't have a sentimental value
still will be alright
as what I feel in the inside
hold no valuable explanation
just unexplainable sensation
of this tiny self longing more of you
I love you

HOPE Jul 2020

SO DID YOU...

When you closed your eyes,
And took the last breath

Not frightened of the journey awaiting you,
Yet steady to spread your wings to the heavenly realms,
Where your wounds would be erased forever

Your wings were ready baby,
What about my heart,
Ripped apart to million pieces?

I thought it's another prank,
Until you walked in in mama's room in a little coffin,
So heavy yet so little,

Sleeping so peacefully as if I could just tickle you until you smiled,
like you always did,
Yet you betrayed me,
How bittersweet...

I stood there so still,
Yet tears weren't so still
As I took a long glance of what seemed to be the shortest,
I got to see you for the last time, remember?

Yet my feet of strength failed me,
As I trembled down to the ground,
As if I could hear God whisper a miracle,
Yet nothing, but a betrayal

Ashes to ashes,
dust to dust,
Your spirit back to the Father,
Your body to the ground,
to be feasted by these worms

Just like flower withers,
So did you....

HOPE Jul 2020

LIFE HAS NO GUARANTEE

Fell head over heel in love,
I'm telling you I did
Gave him my heart,
as well as my being,
I dedicated all to him
Talking about the oxygen I breath,
he was that kind of oxygen that gave me life
Let go of my dreams,
to accommodate something which was never mine

Talking about life with no guarantee,
he left me within a blink of an eye
"I've found someone else" he said
I smiled with so much heartache,
as if I can hear him say he's bluffing,
He bended to kiss my forehead,
as if its not the last time I smell this cologne,
I introduced him to and say
"I wish you the best"
He left me with nothing,
while I gave him everything
Talking about life with no guarantee

HOPE Jul 2020

DEPRESSION

Fell head over heels,
never with the accent of a human being,
but she was smitten with her passion
Her passion was her heart,
as long as her heart keep pumping with so much passion,
so was her precious passion towards life

I'm not a story teller,
but given an opportunity I'll tell you a tale
Depression got better of her
and frustration dined at the palm of her hands
The desire of escaping these traumatic experience was there,
but she was trapped for her dear life
Like river Jordan flowing with powers,
so was her tears that never ran dry
And at that moment the rope became her solution,
to eliminate the pain she felt on the inside
Because the visible smile of the invisible brokenness,
could not be patched

She wanted to live I'm telling you,
but she was tired of holding on
Depression took it all away from her,
with no mercy,
and her soul and her mind betrayed her as well

HOPE Jul 2020

UNTITLED

As an introvert
kind of a person,
I say less
and write more
Because words come to me
and demand to be written

HOPE Jul 2020

I FAILED ON MY OWN

I tried
to live on my own
cause I thought
I didn't need anybody,
on my own I could manage
I thought I didn't need grace
as well as mercy,
believing they are things of the ancient times
Incriminating myself at this moment,
self sufficient, no success
Till I went as I am before the creater and said,
any moment as desired,
as a vessel, use me
as an offering, myself, I offer,
as you desire, I am here
I'll avail myself as your sacrifice,
because in you I found a hiding place
Candidate of your mercy,
is who I am
Beneficiary of your grace,
is what I got awarded with