Trying to put my
Head to rest
Words bubbling inside
A volcano of sorts
Ready to burst
Leaving only ashes behind

I try so hard
To make Life meaningful
Perhaps the  meaning
Is Life

In that unsettling mood
Thoughts keep spinning
Round and round
Scattered thoughts
Lost thoughts
Though it's not
Tuesday
Think I'll have me
Some
Moody
Blues

With all of my flaws
I carry around each day
Who's  the real turkey

Turnin round to celebrate
The breeze circlin through
My walking shirt
All.around spinnin
Flirting with the breeze
Though in public
really don't  care
They're moving in cars
I'm left on ground
They will pass me by
Without a thought
And if so its okay
I'm praisin God
For this moment in time
You can think
I'm just crazy
But I'm crazy in love
With Life
And I'm just
Letting God know

Unmask
So I can see
Your eyes in
Fullness of
Their beauty
So I can
Hear your words
Without guessing
Smell fully
Warm smells
Of Autumn
And taste deeply
Earthy food
Hear your laughter
Listen to your snort
Oh to breathe
Fresh air again
And to hear
Your voice
Not mumbling
From the heart

Need a song to sing
Just don't know the melody
Humming in my heart

Dreamt I had no teeth
Woke up startled
Bit down making sure
They were there
Yes they were
None had fallen out
Or disappeared
Got me to thinkin
What if it were true
Who could I talk to
Could God hear my Prayers
How could I shout
Out for joy
Or scream and holler
And even whisper
Wow what about food
Crunchy chicken mashed potatoes
Homemade cookies or pie
Even homemade soup
A salad and fruit
Ran downstairs for hot tea
And marmalade toast
Had to get a pen
To write out a poem
And then say oh look
It's a covid nightmare

First day of virtual.
Wonder how it went
Everyone is in a class
Of their own
Teachers parents students
God give everyone a hug
For the coming year
As Tiny Tim put it
God bless us
One and all

What am I
To you
A China doll
Easily broken
Licorice to twist
And twist
A piece of trash
To just toss
A storm ahead
A lighthouse dim
What am I to you
A broken record
Playing over
And over
Again
A pillow to toss
A turkey to stuff
Tell me what
Am i to you
If i really meant
Something to you
Would it really
Even matter

One for the road
Of sleepy time
Where time
Stands still
No movement
Made
Cept the beating
Of one's heart
Up and down
No sounds are
Heard
Perhaps the zzzzzs
Getting louder
As we sleep
Peacefulness adorns
The face
And horrid thoughts
Try to disappear
Let the body
Relax and
Lay still
Dream peacefully
Tomorrow you'll
Be here again

Sitting

I pictureone less chair
Today
For someone who lost
A friend  family  member
To covid
Though that place
Can never be filled
May. Memories of
Gentle love
Warm your
Saddened hearts
And may their light
Burn brightly
In your
Broken heart
No it doesn't
Make any sense
And it never will
But angels will
Now fly above and
Within you
To lighten your step
Hang on as you
Soar among.
Heaven's own

Big leaves small leaves
Even the babiest
Of leaves
Lay crumpled on
The ground
Reminding me it's
Time for change
Throughout and within
Leaves scattered
All around
Like thoughts
Within my soul
Full of decay
Needing to die

One crumpled paper
After another
Balled into the trash
How many words
Have been wasted
And how many trees
Cut down
Would it be easier
To build a fire
And set the words
Aflame
Or let the words
Disintegrate into the
Night air
Or not begin
At all

Oh to soar
Freely in the sky
Not holding back
Or carrying a load
Just free
Not worrying what
Others might think
Feeling the breeze
Enjoying life
Begging for more

Night is drawing
To a close
Still can't let go
Of thoughts so
Deep
Making me explode
Within
Trying not to let
Anything surface
Let sleeping dogs
Lay

He ate His Last Supper
With His motley  crew
The Host a Shepard
Led to slaughter
Bread from a body
Baked with love
Wine from blood
To be out poured
They all shared this
In Holy Union
What one day would
Be Holy Communion
After supper the Heavenly Host
Would wash their tired
Stenchy worn feet
All for a kiss of Death
A blatant denial
The meal was over
They really weren't finished
To the garden he went
To continue to pray
As tears and blood
Flowed steadily to
Hallowed ground
His friends sleeping
Peacefully unknowing
What was ahead
Were they drunk
With the bitter taste of
Friendship on their lips
Or afraid to get up
On their fresh smelling feet
Let it be done in agony said
Snoring blocked out
What His friends
Should hear
But that didn't stop
A most brutal
Innocent death
Death became life
So we could live
Now and Forever
Amen I say Amen

Watching football wants
Me to see a game
We don't have a team.
Anymore
Have to remember
What I saw
With my brother
And be cherish the
Memories
Yes I'm ready for
Some football

I should have
Loved more
Thanked more
Read more
Danced more
Laughed more
Cried more
Helped more
Prayed more
Explored more
Touched more
Listened more
Sang more
Now that I know
What I should have
Let me start
Over again

Sometimes you can't  say
What you are feeling
Your thoughts.go
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Into the abyss
That's when paper
And pen
Are handy
Perhaps a hot cup
Of tea
To take off
The chill
.

I need me a woman cave
To hide in
With no entrance
Except for me
A place to hoard
My stuff
My insignificant stuff
Pile by pile
Season by season
Should be thrown away pile
Not ready to let go

I did it again
I'll do it again
Didn't title my poem
My words are rushing
Round my head
Have to get
Them down
How easily I
Forget
And ill probably
Do it again

Early September
Look around and you will see
Changes all around

Oh sun and moon
How far from
Me you are
But you my
Friends
Are my constant
Source of delight
You warm me up
When I am cold
And light my
Way at night
Your colors change
As do my moods
Even when I leave
You always return
Perhaps waiting for
Me
Too bad you are
So far away
To grasp you
But then you
Might disappear
Into the waiting
Sky

Funny how silly
Little things bother you
Like whether an
E is put in your name
Or your first and middle name
Never spelt out
Do people actually
Read what you
Write for your
Documents  
Maybe it sounds silly
But my name
Was spelt that way
For a special reason
And that I hold dearly

The day draws to an end
Of aworking day
Time to put skeletons
To rest
And awaken to the beauty
Of what is to come
Cicadas keeping tune to
Croaking frogs near-by
Darkness is nearing
Stars will soon appear
The moon is a wink away
Time for evening  Prayer
A comfy pillow a clear mind
And sweet dreams to
Start all over

It's pretty bad
After waiting on line
For a response
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I don't  understand
Let me connect your

Overnight case given
To me
And i don't
Even travel
Where have you
Been.
Traces of perfume
Or sweet smelling
Talc
Still linger on
Perhaps with memories
Pleasant or sad
Maybe a combination
Of both
Sun can't take the
Smell.away
Perhaps the smell
Is meant to stay
For reminders of
What may come

Unwanted skirts
Unwanted lives
Tossed and thrown
To one another
Until both are permanently
Terminated in the hands of fate
Each finally reach their destiny
Of struggling no more
At the hands of others
Only to lie dormant
After fighting so peacefully
To be free

Up in the air
Up on the roof
Up and at em
"Going up?"
7 Up
Up at the crack
Of dawn
Up per hand
One Up
Some words have a
Way of repeating
Themselves
We have a way
Of repeating .ourselves
Question is
Are you
Up to it

Started down below
Way down below among thorns
But chose to go up

Gazing at the sky
On a starry summer night
My thoughts turn to.you
Who made the Heavens

use to sit by a radiator
Early in the morn
Hours past that
I was unaware
Armed with my Bible
My notebook for poetry
Or thoughts that would occur
A peaceful time
Perhaps two or three
When souls are sleeping
And my heart is aching
For words to read and share
My radiator has since
Disappeared into new hands
Hope they find the magic
of warming your back
And cleansing your soul
I have

Perhaps we start
Poetry at an
Early age
With the rhythmic
Sound of
Ma ma
Da da
And continue
Throughout our
Childhood
Use your words
Perhaps that was
One of the
Best Things
Said to us

Vincent my Vincent
Where did you
Gogh
Are you hiding
Among the Sunflowers
This Starry Night
How sad to love
So deeply
Till your ear
Couldn't hear the
Sounds of pain
What brilliant flashes
Of color you
Painted on canvas
Desperately crying out
How lonely a life
So much a struggle
Wrestling with
Your art
While down the
Narrow road
A poet  painstakingly
Pieces their
Words of hope
Together

Sitting i wait
For an answer
The time is
Drawing nigh
Thoughts dizzying
My already
Overworked mind
Tossing over and over
Like my clothes
In the dryer
Do I have
An answer
Maybe I never should
Have anxiously
Awaited
When the answer
Was here
All along

Sky coal black
Moon shining bright
Quiet hour has come
Amidst the stillness
Stars brilliantly sparkle
As I cry out
To the universe
Waiting for an
Answer
I tip toe away

In winter
I  wait for
The morning sun
In spring
I wait for
A bloom or two
In summer
I wait for
The song Of birds
In fall
I wait for
Leaves to crunch in
Perhaps I should
Wait for
What surrounds me
Right now

Awaken your thoughts
Get out your paper and pen
A new day is here

Dream walkers
Sleep walkers
Even in the park
Walkers
Let me thinkers
Hurry on Homer's
Explorers all around
God thinkers
Step in timers
Not a care in
The world walkers
Walkers all around
Which one are you

Blue heron on
Icy lake
Walking on thin water
Passerby says
Made me think
How often I
Walk on thin water
The difference
The heron
Stayed for a few moments
And gracefully
Flew away
I on the other hand
Walk on thin ice
And fall in
With baggage
I carry

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Round and round we go
Now twice you have passed  by me
Oh am I that slow

I wanted to
Be like you
Until I saw
What you were
Really like

Coke was your drink
To chase the demons
Cure the blues
Stop a reaction
Sip
      .by
.           . Sip
Gulp
          by
                 Gulp
Whatever the occasion
Now that you are gone
Let's take a sip
And bow our heads

Was anxious to write
Tripped over my very words
There's nothing to show

Feverishly i write
In the moon
Of night
Word upon word
Pile upon pile
Of wasted
Crumpled words
I ask you to critique them
You thought they
Were
Words of love
Meant only
For you
When all it was
Was a poem

Had a poem written
All set to go in my head
Than it disappeared

was it really worth
The lack of sleep
Wrinkled sheets
Sunk in pillow
Puffy eyes
Chills from early morn
Dried out pen
Hansel and Gretels'
Leftover crumbs
Leading to a
Paper trail of verse
Perhaps the answer
Lies in a candy coated
House
Inviting one in
Or a stove inside
Ready to burn
Words that make
No sense to
The unheeding world

Thoughts were of you
Then I forgot who
You were
I tried to remember
Who of who
Made me.laugh
Made me cry
And made me want
To dance and sing
Who picked up
The pieces.of
A broken mess
Or helped me with
My math as I struggled
Was it you
Tell me
It was long ago
I think it was
My heart is aching
And I want to say
Thank you
But tell me please
Tell me
Was it
You