Being judged for what you want hurts,
but when I told you, you could only look proud.
Only then I cried.

Why can I only know if I can trust you when it’s to late?

People are seeking happiness like it's a drugs,
searching for lovers like they are dealers.

I was proud at myself, but it wasn't enough.
I wanted my family to be proud, but I wasn't enough.

I am scared to admit
that I am scared that you can’t do what nobody ever could do
Why would you?

I can play pretend and close my ears
But that hasn’t an effect when the words echo in my head

To te words whispered in my ears by others
Please disappear
Cause I do love you, but I will always say it with fear