That I choose to remember you
Despite the way you hurt me
Does not mean anything
But to appreciate how you taught me to heal

I choose to remember you
Not by how you left me
But by how you taught me to never abandon myself

I choose to remember you,
Not by how you broke me
But by how you taught me to rebuild myself

I choose to remember you
Not by how you dimmed my light  
But by how you helped me to shine

I choose to remember you
Not by how you kept me trapped in a place of comfort
But by how you empowered me to leave my comfort zone

I choose to remember you

Not by how you left me feeling weak
But by how you taught me what it means to be strong

I will always remember you
And Not by how you tried to control me
But by how you taught me to be free and trust myself.

I choose to appreciate you
Not by who you told me who I was or what you called me
But by how you taught me to define myself and trust myself

And above all
I choose to remember you
Not by how you were unable to love me
But by how you taught me
To love myself.

I DESERVE BETTER 🙏

Holding on to it for years
Thinking life will seize if i release
But it turned out that it's the most peaceful step one needs to take.

If I can turn back the hands of clock,
I would have make it straight
And live a day as it comes
Making life so tough
When life itself is so fragile

The moon in the sky
Shinning through the window
Shinning her rays in my eyes
Telling me to see the light in the darkness of the night

The rays of the moon is so high
Forcing me to see light reflection of her power
That in my dark experience
The light reflection is enough
To make me realize that
I deserve it all

No matter how dark it is
The Bright lights of the moon
Is enough for my dreams to come through.
And this gives me the peace I ever seek.

What I want
May not be what the Universe planned
What I expected may not come now
But the will surely come
When the time is right

Trusting the process
Standing with what I truly want
Making it known
To the Universe everyday
Thanking Him everytime

When you never think of it
When you've forgotten it all
When you think it's okay
Then the answer will surface
Then you will be fulfilled

It's the way the Universe works.
It's a sign that you've passed the test
It's your rewards for trusting the process
It's the affirmation of your total trust in the Universe.

You called again, I picked again
You promised to stay, but you left unnoticed
I cried again.,for you left again.
Sun turns yellow, All for gain?

Try try again? No never again.
There’s no blame. Just a lesson
Of being a better me.

Get back up ,Try it again
With another name.Ignite a new flame

***** out again,Not a cake
Flame of soul, Someone’s trouble cold
Walking away unnoticed,once glimpse of waywardness noticed

There it goes,Another’s mended soul.
Broken for show
Of a fool I think I was
Thinkin they are in control
Not fully grown
Invisible heart necklace,
But healed and strong

Most painful part,To many hearts
You’ll remember one,One that laughed
Into your eyes.
One that makes you feel like a goddess
That supported your dreams
But turned to be the runner

But they looked back,And shattered it
The soul slithered, Away to hide his fear
No more playing, Had it’s fill

Maybe it’s time,I finally grow
To explore the world without you
Then you’ll know,you'll then understand
Who laughed last, wins the best game

Who got played, And could’ve lasted
But now alone? They are there
But you're alone, Am I sorry?
For it's what you called for yourself.

Well of course,But lessons are there
They surely are.
Who can glow? The healed heart
Well it is,I did implore
To save you,To protect you

I now know, All I got
Was illusion.Was just a dream
Trying to convince myself
But I have gotten it right now
I only have me.

And my peace stands.
For I chose me, myself and I
And I give me a pat on the back
For lessons gotten write.

I cried again.
You promised to be better
You came again
And swallowed your promises

You left again.
Sun went down
All for gain?
With a lot of broken promises

Try try again?
No never again.
There’s no blame.
Same of the same.
For I see you're not even happy
Where you choose

So I will get back up
Try it again
With another name.
Ignite a new flame
Open my heart

***** out again
Not a cake
Flame of soul
Someone’s trouble cold

There it goes
Another’s mended soul.
Broken for show
Of a fool I think I am
Thinking they are in control
Not fully grown
Invisible heart necklace

Most painful part
To many hearts
You’ll remember one
One that laughed
Into your eyes.

But they looked back
And shattered it
The soul slithered
Away to hide
No more playing
Had it’s fill

Maybe it’s time
I finally grow
Then you’ll know
Oh you'll know
Who laughed last
The best game

Who got played
And could’ve lasted
But now alone?
They are there
But you're alone
Am I sorry?

Well of course
But lessons are
they surely are
Who can glow
Who is true?
Well it is
I did implore
To save you
To protect you
I cry not

But you’re unsure
Made you name
Without your consent
I am sorry
There’s no try again.

I now know
All I got
Was illusion
Was just a dream
Trying to convince myself
But I have gotten it right now
I only have me.

Good relationships don't just happen,
They take time, patience
And two people who truly wants to be together.
True love doesn't mean being inseparable, and no flaws.
It just means being separated, accepting each other's flaws,love keeps bonding and nothing changes.

You are the sun that always shine on me every morning
You are the moon I gaze on every evening
My body keeps mentioning your name
And my heart beats for only you.
You are the source of my joy, The center of my world
And the whole of my heart.
If I did anything right in my life, it was because I gave my heart to you and you keep it.

Forever is a long time but I wouldn't mind spending it by your side.
Through the best and worst time.
My heart will always remember our beautiful memories.
Not a night goes by without you being in my dreams.
You are the man my soul yearn for
You're my wildest imaginations,
You're my fantasy!

Even though you are far away, you are close to me as my breath.
You bring happiness to my life.
I want you, all of you, your success, your flaws, your mistakes, your imperfections.
I pray you overcome your fears
And wear your confidence which fall in love with them.
But despite it all,
I want you and only you,
Every other thing is a mirage!

You're my forever Go-To

GOODBYE...A BLESSINGS IN DISGUISE

So happy to say goodbye
For I see it pays at the end
No denying
How I wish we are one.
But I have seen a better and loving days .And they have passed

I look forward to see better
For I have to let go of you
And hope for a better day
I thought it'll be so painful
But now I see better

When I look Back,
I feel i was in a cage or prison of love
I couldn't open up to another person
I couldn't allow love to reign
I became a snob
I became a bully and I couldn't even try another soul

My heart is broken into pieces
Waiting for you to mend it
Hoping the bright sun will shine one day
Gradually, hope becomes delay
Year after year, you feel like a fiction that never true

But when I thought our chance had passed,
You saved the best for a minute
Then you reverse the best
You ghosted me for years
You pretend you never care
And I feel it here you're dying for me.

But whenever I say goodbye,
You rushed to hold me back.
But this time around,
I mean my good bye
It's for the good of all

The last you came over
You left a part of you with me
I had your feelings
I ate so much that I got so worried
And my worrisome was proved right

I was carrying the fruit of our love
I was happy but sad at the same time
For I don't know how you'll react
I don't know what you could say
I was so down of insecurities and fear of tomorrow

What will you say?
How will you react?
No one knows
So I looked up to the sky
And dialogue with the Universe
To do the best for me

And then I felt the pain in my below belly and back
I was scared at the same time I was hoping it goes down,And before I know it
The pain takes away My happiness
Though fearful but it's still my joy
But I lost it for good 👍

Now I am free of you
Don't want to look back
Don't want to keep being a loser
Look into my eyes
You will see how tired I am
Where I think my dreams are blurred

Now I close my eyes
For the last time
I hope I will wake up
In a space and time
Where everything is not broken

Don't want to look back
At what I have left behind
I want to move through the cloud
And fly like angels
And taste sweet serenity
Experience sweet love adventurously

A shadow of our love
My memory will be
Heart will continue to look for you
But I know,my good bye
Will worth it now.
For everyone will be better now
For I will be free and happy
Any make life a better place to live.
What a sweet goodbye!

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