I'm still mad.
I wanted you to call me your son.
I was hoping you would finally come around.
I thought I would be the son you always wanted.
Instead, you call me your daughter when I'm not that anymore.
How can you not see how much you have hurt me?
Why can't I be good enough to be loved for being myself?
You said you love all your children, But does that include me?

I know what she said.
I could see it in her eyes, and I know she meant it.
Trust me.
I won't hurt you.
I will never leave.
I've been through it all before.
I lost my love to a dark battle,
I never them the same Again.
I saw the blood in there eyes,
When they looked at me.
The thought of Betrayal hits me every day.
I wonder would it be better if I never came back?

Kids are told crying brings shame to the family.
Ever since that day, I hold my breath when walking to make sure no one hears me.
Afraid someone will see me and tell me I was a mistake.
I see the world through a different lens than others.
Growing up, I saw the people I love to treat others like trash.
Thinking one day someone will treat me the same.
When I hear conflict, I run the other way hoping I won't get

He was my first love,
My first heartbreak.
The only person who could hurt me worse than my self.
He also loved me more than anyone else could.
He was the voice of reason but also brutal.
I gave him everything to be thrown out with nothing.
The worlds I love you forever replay in my head when sitting alone at night.
How could someone love you that much and regret meeting the next??

I'm falling more each day, wishing I would stop.
I know love comes with battles,
That leaves scars Instead of kisses.
I grow up dreading love knowing how it can break someone.
I never want to heart fall in love because that turns into hate.
Should I put back up my walls before it's too late?

Stop this, please!
I can't keep falling for you,
You're the poison apple that tastes too good to be bad for me.
please leave me like the rest,
I'm not used to people staying this long