They say it's better to lose so you know what to do next time
Ok fine
What if you lost yourself in chaos & the exit you can't find
The person in the mirror seems to have fallen behind
I think I lost its blueprint, I lost its main design
I feel I'm constantly battling on the frontline
Life's wars, hanging on by a lifeline
life's buffet, on me it hungrily dine
I don't see the goal line, I cant see, I'm blind
Is there light in this world, does the moonshine
blinded I'm constantly stepping on land mines
With the voices in my head I'm entwined
telling me I'm not worth any shine
I have no spine, my existence asinine  
leave me alone, I don't want to die
I need to find the light, I need its guidelines
I'm being consumed, fighting, but still in decline
Will it ever change, will my mind ever revive
Until then, skating, I'll stay on the grind

Raging fever murky rivers clouds my inner thoughts.
Fogged by lovers lies who's kisses taste of loss
Past midnight my mind sinks to depths of remorse
Guilt ridden rippled through tortured time in discord
Wretched rain rips through hope with tears as it pours
Broken dreams with silent screams crashes as it falls
Memoire's soiled in reverie my memories curtain calls
Lost within the silent night living through every flaw

I'm mystified by your alluring mystique
Mysterious & mischievous motif
Allurance that's magnetically deep
Intrigued because you intrigue
At times time get lost in Déjà vu, it sleeps
Leaps, my heart jump every time you speak
Eloquent in elegance a elegant feat
Featured features fearless & elite
A walking dream poetry supreme
Treat with a candied heartbeat
A beat that's upbeat & sugary sweet
Leave, I will lay down in defeat
Invite the reaper, get my soul reaped
You the air I need to breathe
Undying love daily to you I bequeath
Uncaged winged words have me soaring free
You gave me the belief to believe I'm more than negativity
Negative thoughts boxed and caged within my minds disease
With you I leave the key, knowing you will never leave me to bleed
Never leave me wounded bleeding, in your eyes guaranteed

Walking unseen stalker eye see the darker side of this a grey life in shatters
Our minds engaged and battered
Corporations selling their addictive drugs legally for profit
Sell the antidote to the same addicts they create, how is this legit? We should be disgusted
Governments hands are tied as they just walking  puppets
Control by the lawmakers and breakers it's truly tragic
The world lost it, we conquered by being devided and split
They get away with ******, police unfit designed to keep the masses confined to a system only they permit
The system is rigged, we already in cages, it's easier not to admit
I wish I could ignore the squeeze it's choking, Boa, it's starting to constrict
Making it harder to breathe when all I can see the constant pain they inflict
This world is past sick, they profit off lives and tears ******* us dry like ticks
While capturing our focus on a screens with *******, off we get picked
Prescribed addictive drugs on false positives so money they can extract
In fact, we are cash cows caught in a stacked net, we can't escape or fight back
The only time it ends when they bled us dry and let us go to wait for death
While they live large until their dying breath
Our morals gone, we have nothing left.

Life has been cruel to me, it couldn't get through to me
Continually calling my name calling constantly out to me, what does it want from me, what does it want from me
I'm living by my rules, It's making it hard to breathe for me
Leave me alone, let me break free from this mortuary.
Freedom an illusion forged by forgery, embedded in history
Forget me, I don't want conform to be part of this chaos and greed
The cancer of sceptic filth deep in to our society seeped.
It reeks, the stench of decay of innocent  souls reaped, horrendously embedded in the earth deep
When it's quiet and earth survived it's days riot, if you listen closely she sadly weeps
There will never be peace, segregation the key.
Split a world with hate, through a little screen.
Robbing our life while we complacent and they unseen

It was a sunny day, your smile on my mind I was on my way
Ring in my hand today is the day
Always felt this way, from the moment our lips touched It was meant to be
From the moment our souls touched I was meant to stay
Both envision it see, the moment our love touched we were meant to break free
Together forever on a oceanic breeze, exploring the wonder our love evergreen
A heavenly scene, I see paradise in your eyes,  our river of passion runs infinite deep.
Skin real silken soft like satin when we embrace and feel
Every instant our tongues collide it's living a dream
Heaven I'm seeing, perfection I'm living, infinite giving as to nirvana I'm driven
Your voice equivalent to angels singing, If loving you make me a sinner, every second I'll be sinning
Our red line of fate not cotton a ribbon
Cinders in our hearts fire it's omitting
Sizzling and spitting imprinting our love on one another as we kissing
This the day I willingly give in to thanks, you my thanks-giving
My only wish granted, Gods present

It was a day in November, that sad journey a walk to remember
Through tear stained eyes, worst day of my life if I measured
You were priceless, flowing river of a lost kings treasure
Immeasurable, you made me want to be better
In this world of pain , you are my only pleasure
Through storms we weathered, separable never

Your deceit, left me feverish, running a fever
Withdrawal from your love left my heart with a seizure
Broken a bleeder, bleeding for your love I crave every instant

My attempt to put up resistance futile as you I could never resist
Even though we distant I still crave your essence
I know you not here but I still feel your presence
In Perfect memories we still together under pretense

Our love that's now severed
Bleeds from the seams death where it's headed
Our red thread of fate beheaded
Our love lust dejected like it was your initial endeavor

Whatever!

The black scar on my heart, how you will always be remembered
played with my heart, I hope my saddened tears you savored
Wolf in sheep clothing, you were never my shepherd

I break free from terror
I will no longer be tethered

I will love you forever