My heart shiver,
It shatters pieces of glasses that I cannot glue together. The petals on the red rose falls one by one for every battle I fight
Puddle of blood splashed as the petals fall
Sergeant said “ battle field is not always on a battle field but also within yourself”
So I shed another tear
Will I win this battle?
Will my tears be wasted
My heart beats for you
I fight the battle
My heart tells me they are wrong so I’d say something I know I shouldn’t
So I fight my battle will this battle ever end?
Can I save the last petal from falling off?
My heart shatters to stop time
To catch the last petal
The last feeling
The last emotion
To save the sacrifice I have to make
Do I have to fight every battle? Will I win?
As every sunset and every sunrise I fight a battle I wish to the moon that I don’t have to
I fight a battle to keep myself from slipping through my fingers
I fight to keep myself from being complacent
I fight on a battle field that I hope to win
So my last pedal won’t fall
So I bleed to save others blood from shedding
So I am disciplined
So I am a soldier on a battle field without a tear wasted
So I am iron soldier that walks across the field to win this battle against myself
Against the world and for my country to fight a battle that never ends.

What can I say? What can I do ? Am I ignorant? Or am I confident? Am i a snitch or am I doing the right thing ? Am I telling the truth or am I being rude? I stand by and watch them do things they know that’s wrong.
My count abilities are more than the stars I can count. Thought I wish they were as pretty as the night stars though my wishful thinking’s are like dust in the wind.
Master say perception is reality. Though how can you assume And not ask? How is his heart so selfish to judge not knowing? How is his heart so selfish to disappoint and not make them proud.
I look up to those who lead for guidance though how can I when master can’t separate from right to wrong?
It was said “ to be a leader you must be to follow” how am I to follow thee when thee can’t follow? How is the sea an ocean without water? How is the beach there without the shore and sands?
What can I do?  Will you judge me? Hate me? And criticize me for questioning those who disappoint? Am i ignorant? Or is their work a waste?

The love I have for you words cannot define.
The thing I do for you no one could ever imagine.
If I had to give up the world to save you I’d do it without a thought.
If stoping time means you not growing old then I’ll find a way.
If stoping the rain from falling means no down falls in your life than I’ll do it.
If I have to wipe out everything in this world to let you stand tall, to let you prosper than I’ll do it.
No one can imagine my selfishness for you.

I’d hold my breath, I bit my lips, I stayed strong, I didn’t shed a tear, I didn’t break,
You beat me with the power you stood in
The words you said kills my kindness
The lies you told made my hatred
The love one you took from me killed my blooming buds
Though I stayed strong and I wiped my sadness like an umbrella protecting rain from my shoulders
I stayed strong, how long I hold until you broke me,
My tears flooded the city of my kindness
My hatred killed my love
My sadness shattered me into pieces that I can’t count
I picked myself up but my finger tips bleeded
The lies you told to take my love
To take my life
To break me in pieces
To **** my dreams
To take what I worked for in life
You took without a thought
Without a care
Without a blink
The lie you told that made me break
That made me a monster
The monster that started the games you played
The game you thought you won
A game you should have never started
But you didn’t care of what you’ve done. You didn’t care

What am I doing? Why do I feel this way? Bolts of 24 runs in my vain, though bolts of emotions rush 100 bolts.
Where my heart burns in black coal, the volt of feelings rush in my vains
Strength of electrical emotions that I cannot control
Flashes of lightening bolts that run beneath my feat to catch his eyes, to catch those puddles of honey eyes that I lust for.
My heart rushes in a measure of electrical energy that I cannot measure.
Though 2kw generator generates 60 hertz, the blood that pumps in my heart generates 200 hertz
What is this feeling? What can be done to stop my heart from generating for you?
How do I stop my lips wanting to stick to yours like a magnet? Why do I lust for you?

Across the forest of dreams my desperate eyes catch a glimmer of light
A glimpse of sun that beams against a path of sweet music that plays my smile
A road I have never seen before
A path I have never felt beneath my feat
The time beneath my feet flys across the forest of dreams to catch my lustful wishes
Ever road touched beneath my feat noise evaporates into singing of birds
Moisture of rain drip of instrument into splash of puddles
Tree leaves rattle of joy
Sunshine cracks through kissing trees
A road I’ve never walk
The weight of my barren shoulders that slides off like a drop of rain on a leaf
Though the roads is cement my feet felt of grass beneath my feet
Though my heart heavy of pain, the weight evaporates into moist of happiness
A road so mysterious but so beautiful that I’ve never pictured within my eyes
A road so painful though filled with happiness tears walks across my cheek
Road of peace I wish I could walk
Road of silence that I wish wasn’t just a dream
A never ending of happiness I wish I felt underneath my feet
A road I wish for to wipe my pain though it was never there
But reality is so cruel against my wishes

I know what I said
I know what you said
Though I wish I didn’t hear your words that hurt like a 1000 bee sting in my chest
My heart hit the dirt that I can’t clean even with waters of the sea. I hate and I hate and hate the words he spoke
I hate and hate the tongues he used to scream in my ear
I wish it was word of lyrics to my ear but they were nothing but pain
“Didn’t mean a thing”
How?
Why?
Was the things I told not mean a thing? Was the world I wanted to give not enough? Was the heart I gave you nothing but a moment of being complacent?
“Only a moment of feeling that’s not worth the wild” “ not worth the time” how can my tongue not repeat when it hurts so much! Told a lie, pushed him away with the  wind of the south
Build the burlón wall to keep my heart from beating
Broke the Golden Gate Bridge to keep a sea of distance
I know what I said
Swallowed my own words
To keep you from knowing the truth
I called him brother to make my heart a living hell
Build a dungeon to keep my thought in
Lit a fire beneath my feet to burn myself
I know what I said
Duty comes first but my cold, selfish, evil heart speaks the truth I wish to drown at the bottom of the Atlantic Ocean
The selfish heart I stabbed beyond the lives of this cruel world kept healing
I know what you said
Though how am I to heal that pain?
Why can’t I let you go? Why did I let you in or did you come uninvited? How do I keep hating you?

I woke up
I see metal bars that burned with hell flames
Built 10 by 10 around me
I grabbed to break free that gave my heart a 1st degree burn
The seller got smaller as I struggle to ease the pain
As I struggle the flames burned hotter
My heart burned to ashes
That left me empty cold in pain
Ever beat my burned heart made the jail I was in got tighter
The jail my heart, emotions, and love say in got colder and lonely
Then flash of cold wind of pain hit me awake to realize that it was done by me
Jail of flames that burned my heart was made by me
As I make others happy
As I be selfless to put smiles on others face
As I take my happiness to give to others
As I sacrifice everything to save others
I am lonely
I am cold
I am in pain
I am trapped
I am imprisoned
“ they say sacrifices should be made for freedom”
But only did o realized The meaning of that sentence
Meaning to give others freedom you have to sacrifice yours
Though I wish I could set my heart free and make myself happy. Though I wish to break the jail I sit in to be free. But freedom is never free

Is it even an option?
Even if i am scared..... is it even and option?
You said I toss you like a second piece
Though my heart opens like a book
My heart picked you up like a shiny trophy
My heart bleeds when your face don’t smile
I set my priority of you in the sky
Even a million ladders can’t reach
When you say sweet words my heart trips and tumbles like dominos that got pushed
I stare at the lips that smiles
The smile that’s carves in my Brian like tattoos  
The smile that makes my heart dance in the rain
I stop my heart from bleeding like trying to stop the sun from setting
I tie my shoe so I don’t trip and fall for you
Though my heart unites the shoe lace I knotted like I didn’t
I’m like a poor child who eats carrots because it’s not an option
My brain says no but my heart opens to you like an open book
I walk away but my heart puts me on my knees
I get up but my heart roots me like a tree rooted to the dirt for centuries
Is it even and option?