Memories of blade hit me today
The sharp words my dad told to a child age of 8
Make your trust small
Make your circles small
Keep your walls up
Choose wisely who you let in
They left, they both left
The person I loved left me broken, I wish I can repair
The person I let in
The person I got close to left
Left me in rivers of tears
I asked today
Why? I don’t get it
Why must they all leave ?
Why can’t they stay?
I asked her why did they all have to leave?
I told her this is why I kept my circle small for 18 years
I lost both
One left me empty and hurt
The other left me sad in tears
I told her this is why I kept my walls up for 18 years
As I did I realized I can’t keep her
She will leave me as well
I told her this is why I don’t let myself love
In the end I realized I can’t keep those I love