Confusion
About who I am
Today
Sometimes
I feel male
And
Sometimes
Female
How do I know
Who
I really
Am

What does it mean
To fall flat on our face
And not know what life is about
What if your spirit
Was calling your name
And all you could do was pout
What if needs and expectations
Were guiding your life
And you didn’t even know they exist
What if purpose and value
Were lost for a while
And never showed up on your list
Life is about finding out
Who you are and what’s your path
Faith and religion only go so far
They warn you to be careful and do what you must
Because actions could be your bar
You want to feel good and you want to smile
You want to find purpose and goal
You want to reach who you are and will be
You want to feel healed and feel whole
It starts from your wanting
And moves into the now
What you will create
You’ll find as your Tao
Reach inward and find
Your true self at core
Know God and your self
And you will be more
We all fight for freedom
For wisdom we search
To find who we are
Is our research
Go in and be silent
And listen with peace
Your understanding of life
Will surely increase

What is sadness
But the tearing from asunder
The thought of who we are
Into what we have become
The recognition that
We have facades upon facades
Of who we wish we were
Instead of
Who we are
We fight so hard to become
Only to find out
That we are not
Who we would like to be
And will never be
Because
The truth is that
We cannot be
That which is not
That which is beyond us
The truth lies
In finding out
Who we are not
And then discovering
That
We always were

Did you know that life is like
The flitting by of birds
With each encounter life slips by
And we run out of words
So grab on tight and don’t let go
Make each encounter count
Live each breathe to its fullest
And gather your amount
Of Karma, there is good and bad
For each we must abide
The good brings good, the bad brings bad
We balance on each side
Until we reach a point from where
We finally understand
That living life in purity
Should really be our brand
Think out each thought before you speak
Let thought be pure with love
Let encounters be true and meaningful
And come from up above
The character from which you live
Is who you will become
Let each day each breathe bring true love
And show where you come from

What is it
That creates hatred
In the hearts
Of humans
What is it
That makes one want to
Go out and ****
Another human being
How can we ever
Reach the hearts
And minds
Of those
Who have lost
Their compassion
And humanity

Why do I
Listen to other people
When my heart tells me differently

Why do I think
That others know better
Than I do

Why is my belief in myself
So tainted with unreliable
And indifference

When will I
Start owning
That
I am
OK

It’s really time to write a poem I should give it a try
For writing poems gives me a chance to really explain why
We need to share our inner thoughts we need to understand why
Our words can bring forth wisdom and our words can make us cry
Our wisdom place knows oh so much if only we can share
The things we’ve learnt the things we know give others if we care
We aren’t here to sit around we really should ask why
We aren’t alone on this planet Earth so we should really try
To reach out to others , to hold their hand, to give a little sigh
Put others before our own true self and not just pass them by
For all we know is just a part of an ever greater whole
We need to know why we are here, we need to play our role
We may think we are small and weak and not a player in the game
We may think we are different or we may think we’re the same
Whatever the course we should always remember that we’re not here alone
We’re part of an ever greater whole our talents we should own
Whatever part we play whatever we’re meant to do
Is a part of the whole life game to our own selves we’ll be true
Just find out what you’re good at, what you love to do, where you show strength
Keep at it with a follow through it’s important to go the length
For we have come with good and bad, we need to find what brought us here
The part we play the reason why will one day become clear

This world in which we live
Is in a horrible mess
People don’t talk
And people don’t care
We wear our anger
Like a badge of pride
We keep ourselves hidden
In a place inside
When will love prevail
So that we can see
A world that is shiny
And new and free
And instead we keep ourselves
Hidden way inside
We’re afraid to speak
We’re afraid to cry
I watch all this
With a tear and a sigh
For until we talk
We may as well die

I hold onto that
Which was before
People who cared
And people who were more
Than a blank slate
Without emotions
People who hide
And have lost their devotion
I am hurt at the core
To see empty faces
People who lie
And have lost their graces
Will it ever come back
Has our innocence been lost
Will we hide and cringe
Will we ever defrost
Will we ever remember
How it used to be
When people felt
And would not flee
We need to learn now
How to live authentically
To show our true selves
And to finally be free
Please wake up now
Before it’s too late
Our future is not lost
We can still change our fate
By opening our eyes
Our ears, and our hearts
By pulling together
All of our parts
Walking proud and *****
As the people we are
Human beings with hearts
With our soul as the star

Winter is coming
The autumn leaves sit on the ground
And the frost of the morning
Shines in the light of day
Cool against my skin
I feel the winter wind
Nipping at my nose
And cooling my fingers
Until the numbing pain
Makes me reach for gloves of warmth
And dreams of
Summer

Winter
A time of contemplation
And rest
Under the deep, soft snow
Of life
That keeps us from
The Spring
Of our
Awakening

Awake early
Sitting at the table
With tea in hand
And thinking
Thinking can be a very
Dangerous sport
Because it causes the persona
To question
All that it is
And to feel and experience things
That are not real
I wonder, in my dazed state
What is real
And what  isn’t
And it is so hard
For me to know
The difference.
So
I sit at the table
With tea in hand
And wonder

The words come forward
Like a never ending stream
Of flowing
Water jewels
That take on the hue
Of sparkling gems
That want to find a home
In the pupils
Of my mind

I want to say something
And words
Cannot express
What I am feeling
Now
I wish
I could understand
All that exists
Inside of me
And
I
Can’t

I never quite know
What to write in a poem
I look into my heart
And search words
To find meaning
To life's distractions
Never quite knowing
What I will find
When
I’m finished

Words are powerful
And
Hurting words
Judging words
Cutting words
Power over words
Can stab the heart
Pouring life expression
And the belief in oneself
Onto the ground
If we want to be there for others
And truly hear them
We need to let go
Of our beliefs
And
Open our hearts
To be truly
Allowing
And loving
And caring
Compassionately
Then
And only then
Can we say
We
Love

I never know
Which way
My words
Are going to carry me
Will they speak of the present
Or of the past
Or of the
In-betweens
Of life

Afar access adieu abode
Dictionaries have some of those
Apace argosy arrant asunder
These are words from those down under
Dictionaries have words we’ve never seen
If you want to learn you must be keen
Shade shore slumber slay
These are words with which we play Sylvan tarry temerarious tenebrous These words are certainly clearly arduous
I think of beget behold beseech With all of these words I want to screech
Where do words come from and why do we use
We listen to sounds and we listen to clues
And try to understand what words are about
Which ones hold meaning which ones hold clout
Yet when the day is done we can look back and say
There were many new words that we used today

Today
I decided to write a poem
To put words together
In such a way
As to express
My innermost feelings

And I lost the words
And my thoughts drifted
And my computer keys stuck
And nothing came forward

So
Perhaps tomorrow
I will write a poem
To express my life
And for today
Perhaps
I’ll just go
Outside
To play

You are everything
My life, my breath, my whole self
Only you can be

Have you ever played a game
That hooked you in
And took you away
From life’s living
And
Have you ever
Listened to a boring talk
Thinking you owed it to your friend
To be faithful
And
Have you ever done something you wished you hadn’t
And thought you had
No choice

Well, guess what

You’re human

I wondered, curiously
Who you are
And found out
That you are
My heart stealer

Lying in bed
I can not sleep
I’m not feeling sleepy
From my head to my feet
My thoughts are racing
I can’t keep up
I’m twichy and itching
From the day’s build up
What shall I do
How can this go on
Especially if it’s to the food
That I am drawn
Late night snacks
Stick to my hips
Oh well guess it’s time
To finish those chips
I know I should
I think I shall
Gather up all my thoughts
In one corral
And try to be still
And try to be right
Gather my covers
Wrapped around me tight
Good night to my door
Good night to my sheep
It’s time to bed down
It’s time to sleep