I drift
In a swirling world
Finding that my feet
No longer touch the ground
How am I to exist
Without the grounding
The necessary attachment
To the world
And I go elsewhere
Where feet don’t matter
And love guides the way
And my heart swells
And joins in the chorus
Of everlasting
Nothingness

Sometimes, Love is all there is

Something is happening
A shift
In my understanding
Of where I am
And where
I need to be
A change
In my placement in the world
And my bodies willingness
To accept
Change
I let go of so much
And empty myself
Of past inforgiveness
I thought I had to
And now I know
It was just my mind
Guiding me
In the wrong direction
And today
I don’t know who I am
Or where I’m going
And I have hope
That
Someone does

Kale my lovely friend
I hold you in my hands
Feeling the strength of your commitment to life
Knowing that your life energy
Will heal
My ailments
I place you in my blender
With the flax of health
And the water
That sustains life
And I allow the blades
To create the pulp
That sustains
My be ing
Kale, my beautiful green friend
Only those who have tried
Will understand how you
Have touched my ailing heart
And given it life
Only those who are conscious
Understand
The true meaning
Of
Health

It’s over
They took me away
Ever to be never
Longing to return
To the pain
Pain is better
Than
Nothing

What does death feel like
Is there consciousness in death
Can we feel
Like we do
In life
What is the difference
One day I am here
And the next
I am gone
And
Who cares
Who cares
Whether I’m here
Or not
I walk a fine line
Unable to comprehend
Feelings tearing at me
Drawing me down
Into the abyss
Of life
How am I
To choose

I am drowning
In sadness
Unable to understand
Where this pain
Is coming from
It is real
Authentic
Limitless
Perhaps
Just perhaps
It comes from a longing
For my self
Is this what angst feels like
I reach out
And feel the emptiness
Of life
Nothing has any meaning
Emptiness
Loss
Uncertainty
Of what is to
Become
Of
Me

I am bereft
Torn apart inside
Unsure
Of what this sadness
Has to do
With me
I feel it
Authentic
Reality
Pain