Don't try to hold back, the
laughter or the tears, for
all of us at times, have
irrational fears! We worry
about, what may never
take place, but still, there's
always a doubt. If it remains
too quiet, we'll find, something
to worry about. I guess, that's
the way, of human nature, we're
always afraid, of what lies ahead.
We're much better off, if we take
it one step at a time, instead! Go
along with your feelings, if you
want to laugh, shed a couple of
tears. Don't you think it's a much
simpler way, than bottling it up,
for years?

With each passing day, the love I have for you gets stronger.
I wish I had the patience to wait a little longer.
You are "attempting" to make a commitment,
But it seems like you're having some trouble,
You are starting to confuse me,
To the point that I'm seeing double.
I see the boy who wants more,
I also see the boy who doesn't know what he's looking for.
Am I supposed to wait?
Or am I supposed to forget?
The way I feel for you is making me fret.
When your lips touched mine, my heart was beating really fast.
From that moment on, I knew I wanted this to last.
When I look into your eyes, it's hard not to stare,
For the fear of that exact moment I look away,
You might stop being there.
You are just too amazing to let go,
Not even this pathetic poem can explain how so...

You say we're friends, with benefits on the side,
Yet seems we get together, then continue to hide...
You hide from my friendship until you feel like being found.
And I'm sure a fool for remaining around.

But I can't get away; I can't seem to move on,
Dreams of you cross my mind into early dawn.
We haven't spoken since that night my innocence was lost,
But then you turned your shoulder, which hit with an icy frost.

There is always a lesson to learn from the pain,
But it appears I still like you...I know it's insane.
I long for you to call me, yet you never do,
I'd be satisfied with a real conversation from you...

I give you clean air

You give me poisonous gas.

I give you mountains

You give me quarries.



I give you pure snow

You give me acid rain.

I give you spring fountains

You give me toxic canals.



I give you a butterfly

You gave me a plastic bottle.

I give you a blackbird

You gave me a stealth bomber.



I give you abundance

You give me waste.

I give you one last chance

You give me excuse after excuse.

The hand of bitterness icy cold
Its grip touches and sears my skin
In the decaying light of dawn
So prophetic our dreams and thoughts
That taste so sweet in the distance
Darkness burns the fire within
Would that we might taste of our dreams
Or breathe in the eyes of the night
The winds that speak in whispers
Are lifeless and tear at my vision
I should fall to the earth
Deep into rivers of sorrow
That flow about at my feet
They shall weep the tears of the ungrateful
Mourning their own deaths
Crawling woefully into their graves
Our words will fade in the air
The night shall embrace her children
Forever we shall weep for the day.

I was lost in the dark,
nothing to see,
I was blind by anger,
Wish I had received,
My heart was gone
with no feeling inside,
I used to not care
and I never had any pride,
I thought of myself as a nobody,
But now I see the light shining right through me,
I have more respect than I had before,
My heart is filled with plenty of joy,
I can feel my body coming out of its shell
and I truly know I have found myself.
I can feel the pressure lifting off of me,
I love myself and I'm happy to say God
showed me the way to freedom, and
when I look around I see a different
girl and know I finally found myself.

No one always tells the truth,
Everyone likes better to lie,
No one keeps their promises,
That they would keep me alive,
No one wants to see the tears,
But they're not afraid to make,
No one wants to watch me crumble,
Though honesty they'll fake

Why does everything I love get torn from me?
I'm sure you've heard a hundred times,
But sorrow please let me be,
Just a day I want to live that I don't think of home,
Because here I'm by myself a lot,
Once I was never alone,

You'd think by now these impressions would fade,
But they're set here to linger,
I have self inflicted scars from my elbow to my finger,
Nothing ever happens, no one even sees,
That behind this curtain is the broken, bloodied me,

It's true I write with anger and sadness,
For of all my emotions those are strongest,
This deep, deep, resentment towards the world,
For making me a woman when I want to be a girl,
I loved planting trees and watching scary tv,
Now I'm afraid to go outside, hate's like angry bees,

And no one seems to notice,
No one seems to care,
They've heard this story,
Too many times,
To give a single hair,
Well I know that this will fade,
After all it's just hormones, right?
I really hope my teacher wasn't lying that night,
That one day these cuts will leave,
On another way,
I hope someday I'll find my smile,
That seemed to run away.