i find it quite peculiar
the extent in which people
including myself
protect their pain

there are so many reasons
and when we are quick to stick with the first explanation
our mind can formulate
it is then when we eliminate
right relationality with one another
when we remove their mystery
and rely on assumptions that lay covered in the illusion of our truth

some protect their pain
because they fear the potential of it potentiating

some protect their pain
because they believe that they deserve it
that peace and joy are not synonymous to their name or life
they keep it as a means of justification for who they are
and what they have become

some protect their pain
because they do not know of a life that is any different
healing is a far away concept that they believe
does not pertain to them

some protect they pain
because they associate it with comfort
due to generational trauma stemmed from childhood

some protect their pain
because the uncertainty that comes with vulnerability
is too high of a price to endure
so they choose to not venture out

do you protect your pain
explore the why

you wonder why
you have to create metaphors
in order to understand
his love

oh honey...
that’s because it’s not real

to the ones who raised me
to the ones who made this "monster" that is I
you are not God
you cannot punish your creation

“Be careful now”
I softly chuckle beneath my breath
“Why”
You curiously ask with amusement painting the corner of your lips
“Because you sound like someone who’s falling for me”
I say boldly with humor dancing in my eyes
“It’s too late for that”
You whisper as you raise your hand to stroke my lower lip with your thumb