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Me Aug 2018
Did it hurt when you knife hit my back
Or did it hurt when I found out
Dealing with this kind of pain
Is driving me insane

I'm not mad at you.
Disappointed though
Thought I could trust you
But you only showed me that by trusting you could only leave me hurt!

The words I LOVE YOU
Are only words used too often
There's no meaning behind it
You said it but I've discovered the ugly truth

Thought you were mine...
But the thing is you can't loose someone that was never yours
No pain no gain
I loved you
Past tense
Me Aug 2018
When you told me that you loved me it was like hearing it for the first time
I never get tired of hearing those words out of your mouth
It was like all of the butterflies came back alive
Nahh it was more like a zoo

But then you decided that we sould take things slow...
And I was taught to read between the lines
When you said that it was like all of the butterflies decided to die...

Saying I love you could make my day...
But that day was just not today!
Hope you have a nice life because im done trying..
I'm done fighting

I want to be there for you even if it hurts.
But hey you can't have a sunshine without any rain
Love can be hard man!
Me Aug 2018
Have you ever wondered what the after life is like....
Have it ever crossed your mind that earth could be hell and then when you die that, that would be when you are truly alive
Or that we live in someone else's dream and then someday we would wake and meet reality

I know that I'm afraid to sleep or to think or just to be alone
Because that is when I'm vulnerable....
When my demons would come out and play,
Like im their playground.

They know what to say
Lol
They don't need to say anything because I would do it anyway...
One cut here and there....
A note saying I'm sorry and I love them....
They are not the one to blame and if they seek the truth they wil never find it...
Because it's buried with me.

Maybe I have the wrong idea on life
Or maybe it's life that treat you like **** and expect you to treat it like a king
Or maybe I just don't know how to live life as if it would be my last day...

Nahh it's not that...
I know I'm tired...
My soul seeking death...
My mind trying to think of a way to **** myself
And my body just doing what my mind tells it to do..

I'm not scared of the dark, maybe that's part of the problem
Being tired can be extremely exhausting
Me Aug 2018
Suicide....
It sounds so harsh
Let's call it someone who is tired of living
This world are so cold and dark
But yet you try to find something or someone to live for....
Just to get a ******* at the end of the day

People that commit suicide or try to go through with it are so strong and weak at the same time
Things of the past that are hunting them
Or things of the future that are scaring them....
Afraid of love...
Afraid of failure...

I know that me for one are afraid to live...
Death is not scary for me....
Because I'm done living!
Mamma I'm sorry
Me Aug 2018
Lost....

I'm lost in your eyes...
Your soul
Your smile
You

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