Did it hurt when you knife hit my back
Or did it hurt when I found out
Dealing with this kind of pain
Is driving me insane

I'm not mad at you.
Disappointed though
Thought I could trust you
But you only showed me that by trusting you could only leave me hurt!

The words I LOVE YOU
Are only words used too often
There's no meaning behind it
You said it but I've discovered the ugly truth

Thought you were mine...
But the thing is you can't loose someone that was never yours

Have you ever wondered what the after life is like....
Have it ever crossed your mind that earth could be hell and then when you die that, that would be when you are truly alive
Or that we live in someone else's dream and then someday we would wake and meet reality

I know that I'm afraid to sleep or to think or just to be alone
Because that is when I'm vulnerable....
When my demons would come out and play,
Like im their playground.

They know what to say
Lol
They don't need to say anything because I would do it anyway...
One cut here and there....
A note saying I'm sorry and I love them....
They are not the one to blame and if they seek the truth they wil never find it...
Because it's buried with me.

Maybe I have the wrong idea on life
Or maybe it's life that treat you like **** and expect you to treat it like a king
Or maybe I just don't know how to live life as if it would be my last day...

Nahh it's not that...
I know I'm tired...
My soul seeking death...
My mind trying to think of a way to **** myself
And my body just doing what my mind tells it to do..

I'm not scared of the dark, maybe that's part of the problem

Suicide....
It sounds so harsh
Let's call it someone who is tired of living
This world are so cold and dark
But yet you try to find something or someone to live for....
Just to get a ******* at the end of the day

People that commit suicide or try to go through with it are so strong and weak at the same time
Things of the past that are hunting them
Or things of the future that are scaring them....
Afraid of love...
Afraid of failure...

I know that me for one are afraid to live...
Death is not scary for me....
Because I'm done living!

Lost....

I'm lost in your eyes...
Your soul
Your smile
You