Every failed attempt

is a match

to the fire inside my chest,

blazing to my mind

and the smoke makes me cry.

Half-hidden like the moon behind shadows.

I want you to set me free,

To break every single hope and dream.

To drown me in my demons so I know how to breathe,

To have every little thing strangle me.

To open my eyes so I can see,

And then just maybe I can be set free

Baby you’re my anchor

You’re what makes me stay

But by staying I’m slowly sinking

Down, down with chains.

I am a thorn
among many roses,
wishing for the perfection
of a flower.
But only reaching out
to be snagged in envy
and ***** my skin with thoughts
of self-destruction.

My heart is at bay
and my mind is pulled onto the port.
The waves of feeling rock me
and the taste of salty tears burn my lips.