Everybody seems to love poetry about love and lovers
Is it because there is too much love in us
or it is because there is too less love in us ?

I have done nothing
Nor have I achieved anything
Worthy of being praised

I feel empty
Like I have lost myself
My body no longer belongs to me

All I ever do is breathe
What if I stopped breathing

These thoughts fill my head
They have taken control over me

Give me something to do
Something to hold onto
Something to live for
A reason to breathe

Never saw me cry they say
Never saw me feel pain they say

I do cry, I do feel  pain, yet
Iam unseen and unknown

I dont wish to pe praised
I dont wish to be loved

All i wish is to be known
All i wish is to be acknowledged

Friends and family surround me , yet
Fear of faliure taunts me

I rather not fall
I rather not feel fragile

If I do, Iam not supported
If i do, Iam not encouraged

Love for present , Hope for future
Lots I need , but dont have any

Lend me a hand
Lend me a heart

Because my hands are full
Broken is my heart

He carried away her body,
Knowing that she isn't going to return
I wonder where he took her to

Those red eyes of his looked tired
Alone he carried her in his arms
like he always did but this time
she was no longer smiling at him

Her pale face refused to display
emotions and her big deary eyes
looked helplessly lifeless

All that was left was the memories
that they once shared and
her lifeless body that he carried

But he never regretted taking her life
She no longer wanted him
but he couldn't let her go

If not his then she shouldn't be anyone's
Hugging her dead body close to his chest
he repeated, mine and mine only

I miss her
More than I should
More than I usually do

No she isn't dead
Just far away from me
We never had the best relationship

But we were close
When we started becoming closer
Its time to seperate

Yes we have stayed seperated
But i always knew
She would come back to me

But this time i feel lost and lonley
I talk to her daily
I tell her about my day  

But its not even close
To how it feels
When she sits there

On a chair in front to me  
Ready to listen
To all my blabbering

And yes this time
I really miss her
And wish if she was near.

I will never want you to go through what i went through my dear child, trust me my dear I won't let you suffer alone like they did to me.
If you ever need to cry trust me I will be there beside you to hold your hand and sing you to sleep, trust me my dear i won't let you suffer alone like they did to me
I will never make you choose whom you like more between me and him ,no i won't let you suffer my child like they did to me
trust me my baby just trust me please

Oh dear world, hear me preach!
You asked me what are we, Let me tell you
There isn't a word that can summarize us
We are best friends,
We fight together, dance together, party together, play together
We steal glances, the world becomes air when we are together ,we hug, we steal kisses too,
Friends don't do that,
But we aren't just friends,
You aren't just a boyfriend too
We aren't just a gay couple like the world calls us,
We are each other's best partner, each other's home and comfort,
Each other's everything
Now tell me a word that explains it all
I couldn't find one in the dictionary
So we would rather remain in a no definition-relation
Than one which doesn't do justice to it

A love like yours,
Platoinc yet peculiar,
Withered and yellow,
Soft and mellow,
Fallen with time,
During its prime.

Using words I sew up that hole I found in me.
The hole that has been wrecking havoc and turing things upside down.
Will that be enough this time?
I have always done this and I know no other way
To pour out the pain, the grief, the guilt, the regret.
But nowadays even the words don't come out of me.
It's so hard to even pen things down.
It's so hard to say what I am feeling.
What will I do when the only way I could throw a fit has died within me?

Simply put
Its just you being you

Can i write only when my soul is hurt?
Why does words come to me only when I am tierd?
My anger, my pain, my distress,
Its easier to pen down these feelings
But my happiness never makes it out to the world
Why is it hard to find a synonym for happiness?
Someday, Please make me capable
to write down my joy
which I can look back at
years later and feel glad again.

Iam sick but you can't see it
Iam tired but you can't see it
I can tell you but I can't show you
I hate life
I hate myself
Hence i hate everybody else

Iam angry, Iam upset
Iam frustrated beyond my limits
All of this takes control over my body
Shutting me out from everyone else

Iam trapped in a shell
That I built for myself
A shell that has unbreakable walls

I lay there in peace
Waiting for someone
Who can break the walls
And pull me out
From my own delusional world
Filled with pain and distress.

She searched for answers
When all she could hear
Was questions

Questions that move around
Questions that kept her awake
All night she sat

To find answers
That never exsisted
All she could find was

More questions to ask
Herself and others
But again she was not answered

Doubts accumlated
Trusy broke
Hatered grew

But the little girl lived on
Only to find more questions
Which are still not answered

From 17 to 27
She jumped to find
Emptiness and nothing else

Expectations not met
No comfort
No love

Emptiness grew
To be a big hole
That consumed her whole

Not knowing
Not acknowledging
The little girl lived on and on

Those thorns
They poke right into my bleeding heart
The red rose that once showed our love
Now shows our pain
Again and again they pierce my heart
Shattering it into a mess
But it was already a mess
Since the time you left me
My brain no longer functions as it should
It told me not to depend on that heart
It told me heart can get hurt easily
But I didn't listen and now I know

If you can't respect my happiness
Please walk out
Iam happy to see you leave
I hold no grude
I take no offense
Please just leave
I have nothing more to tell
Nothing more to show
Yes you were important
But sorry I am more important
So please just walk out
For all I care.

The nation called itself secular
But I was born with a religion
tattooed on my forehead

Being a female they said I have rights
But because I was a female
I was abandoned

As a human I have the right to live
But I don't remember
The last time I felt alive

Does my hunger and agony
Pain the one who made the rights?
Would the abuse thrown at me

Make me a victim
Who can atleast claim
For her basic human rights?

No rights ever written down
Showed men to be the one
With crown and honor

Yet, I was put below his feet
To be violated and humiliated
Where was my rights


When I was locked up
Away from the light of knowledge
Away from the world of wisdom


In a little cage with bars
That do not bend
Rights always existed
But they were never right themselves

Road to death was dark
The road starved for light
No stars ever shined upon it
Moon hid behind the clouds
I waited for years
For a sign of life on this road
And finally I heard
Light footsteps along the path
That none dared to cross

She bled not through the holes in her,
but through the lines she wrote
She let it all out
emptying herself of pain,
devoid of emotions
The paper took it all from her,
her true companion
listened to her all day long,
comforted her,
and finally was burned in the fire
along with her own blood.

She smiled to hide the sorrow behind her eyes
The tears that never got to roll down her pale chubby cheeks, if they ever did she said they were tears of joy
The truth behind them, hidden
Like a predator in camouflage

It was easy to find
That her smile was just a cover
That hid all her wounds
But none dared to look more into it
None cared for they all fell for her silly act
The smile that hid her pain

The smile that hid her agony
Behind it she hid herself
Now when all the pain is gone
Her face no more twitches to smile
Unable to share her joy and happiness
Unable to hear the sound of her laughter

She goes back to being sad all over again.

I feel like crying,
but the tears no loner fall
They no longer wanna roll
down my pale chubby cheeks
Maybe they knew about the ups and downs
they need to face along the way
till they reach the end
before they fall onto the floor

In those sparkly eyes
I saw glittery stars rise

Those eyes that held wonder
Smiled louder than thunder

It caught my eye
It caught my heart

Harder my heart thumped
Looking at those eyes

I saw the world in those eyes
And now you are my world

There are days when she calls
And I just don't wanna talk
There are days when I wanna talk
but she doesn't
I just realized maybe she gets tired too

Tired of being a mom

I badly need a break
but I feel I don't deserve it
I haven't done anything
to feel this tired
physically and mentally
Maybe its all in my head
May be I am over reacting
But i crave for a break
which I think I don't deserve.

My anger is killing me
Its destroying me day by day
Not only me
But also the ones around me

Words go out of control
Tongues go beyound words
I step down into the deep valley of depression

So unique is my anger
That it lasts only for seconds
or minutes
never beyound an hour or day

My life is changing day by day
I never know
When this anger of mine
Will push me down into the darkness

From where I can never come back again.

Running away doesn't seem like an option, I hope it was, on days that weigh me down and tear my soul apart, I hope I could run away.

Days when breathing itself is too hard, how can I even think of walking around acting as if nothing is wrong?

Escaping has always been my thing.
Feeling sick? Work
Feeling tired?  Work more
Feeling violated? Just continue working.

"Keep doing what you have always been doing or else you may break down, in a way that you won't be able to come back up" says my stupid mind and I keep believing that it's true but knowing deep within that it's not.

i miss you my poetic soul

Its too loud outside
yet why do I still hear the ticking of a clock?
Why are the sounds in my head so loud?
Even though i can hear them clear,
I still don't understand anything they say

I was collapsing,
The wall I build around me
started to break down

But before I fell,
your hands always held me up,
your smile kept me safe

Your words made me calm
In you I found strength
to live my hardest days

When stress ate me up,
you covered me
with a blanket of warmth

Distance can never keep us apart
Even if I could change the past,
I would still choose to be with you

Trust me, I wouldn't want to change a thing
Lets just stay this way,
even when our hairs start to grey

Miss your hugs
Miss your touches
Miss your consolations
Weren't you ever tierd
hearing me complain,
Cause thinking back
I realize that's all I ever did
Iam sorry I never asked
How you are doing
Iam sorry I never complimented
When you shared your success
Iam sorry I never cared
When you cried for support.
Iam sorry mom
That I never said I love you
Even though I have never loved anyone as much as I love you.

It hurts when I breathe,
Like my lungs no longer wanna take air in
It's painful, it hurts, even when I lie down
Dark circles won't go away,
Pimples and acne just doesn't leave,
Legs ache, they gave up on me
Tummy growls, in hunger or anger I am yet to discover,
I am loosing hair, I am loosing my mind
Skin too dry, yet not dead
Most of all my heart feels too heavy,
Like my entire weight is balanced on that tiny little flesh smaller than the palm of my hand.

They fought
I don't know for what
Its been years
I saw them love
Hatered was all I saw

I  never knew
How to stop
I dont know it still
Its too late now
To do what I never did

They gave me
Right to choose
But did not let me know
What to choose
And from where to choose

I don't feel
True is their love
Compromise is life
For them, I think
But I don't know the truth

Tell me not
To return
Something I never got
Love is not what I want
Some care would do

When I was asked
What values I learned
At home, I stood still
Without an answer
To yell back

Is it my fault
I never thought
It could be
Richness seems needless before
Families with peace

Can I ever
Regain the unity
We once upon a time had
In what  I call
My home

Nostalgic I feel
When I turn back
To see the  days when
We never had
Internet in our house

Those were the days
I loved , what a peace
What a love we had
But now all we have is
Horrible silence

They love to see you cry,
They would sing praises for you
and jump around with joy.
But only until their thirst is quenched
and belly is filled.

They all pretend to love your tears,
Until the moment they realize
you aren't gonna stop soon.
Why are you crying, They would ask,
Don't you know your tears bring us pain?

When your tears overflow,
They would curse you out for your existence.
Some would beg the heavens above to make you stop,
Some would cry along with you,
Clever ones find a way to sell the pain you caused.

And if you suddenly decide to stop crying forever,
When you realize its not worth wasting your tears,
You will still be cursed.
You will be condemned for the attitude you put up,
You will be criticized for the lives that you destroyed.

Still there will be some,
Who would try to please the Gods to see your tears,
Who would make news out of your unshed tears.
Lives are lost either way,
You will be blamed either way.

You can choose a middle ground,
Cry until when you are needed to
and then stop when they ask you to.
But the tears are yours alone,
So should be right to decide.

They knew it was hard
But they still kept pushing
When will they realize
That I can't even breathe anymore
I have nightmares
I no longer live
Will they stop if I go away
Far away from them
Will others be saved?
Is that the only way?
Please show me other roads
I don't wanna leave yet

You have no right to hide
When I have no right to know

You have no right to shout
When I have no right to talk

You have no right to command
When I have no right to plead

You have no right to hate
When I have no right to love

Its unfair
But when was life ever fair