Sometimes
I hate everything about me
And I sit
In my room
In a house where I am clearly loved
And remember
The words that dripped from her tongue
Like venom
Like surgically sharp blades
Cutting out my innocence
Systemically
Piece by piece
Until she was gone
That little girl that she was supposed to love
Protect
Keep from harm
Those words!
You are nothing
No one will ever love you
You are disgusting
Don't tell anyone
Keep quiet
Nobody will believe you
And I think, once again, that she was right
I know what she was
A monster
An abusive stealer of souls
But still
I blame me
It's my fault
It's my fault
It's my fault
But then I hear footsteps on the stairs
Of our beautiful home
And you Take me in your arms
Wordlessly at first
And as I melt into you
You say the words I need to believe
I'm proud of you
I love you
It wasn't your fault
You matter
And I know I have finally found home.