i’m drowning in the ocean
with boulders on my chest

do you ever just feel like you can't decide whether to scream and tear all your hair out and stab yourself in the chest or just never say a word for the rest of your life and stare at a wall unmoving

i can't decide whether to rip myself apart or sew myself together so tight i can't breathe.

Comes a point
Where no one will listen
No one will care
At that point it's just you
And the inner self

This is when you are fully conscious
Fully aware of the inner
Your final partner
Your everlasting listener
To help you step into the new world

god made me to be forgotten
he made me to be unloved
to be left out

god made me lose faith in him
he made me to suffer
to be alone

if god made us
why did he make me like this

some of you don’t wake up
with a walnut lodged in your throat

and how can you know true love
when true love faded in the past

thank you for also being sad