You’re my ray of sunshine on the good days
Like a dark cloud when things are going sideways
I look forward to seeing you when I’m struggling
Then I wish I hadn’t when your temper starts bubbling
I love your good qualities like how you take care of me
But I resent the times your personality changes when we don’t agree
You don’t deserve a poem, but I’m writing this anyway
One day, I hope to be free, look for an opportunity to fade-away.

Your words cut deep in my heart, barely any time to heal before the next even deeper cut enters. And now that it is torn, you ask me why and how it happened?
You’ve never laid a finger on me, you’ve never cheated on me, but you still broke me with your words. Physical pain heals within time, mental pain remains forever... this is me now, broken forever.

“She looks fine”
How many times have I heard this
Said with so much pride
They do say ignorance is bliss

“She looks fine”
My mind in constant battle
My heart aching
My personality ******* in shackles

“She looks fine”
No tears left to cry
No energy left to fight
Putting on fake smiles just to get by

“She looks fine”
Moving on, trying to forget
Taking control
No more regret

“She looks fine”
Reminiscing about the past
The pain came flooding back
Who knew that moment would be her last...

“She looked fine”

I’m strong but feel weak
I’m independent but feel suffocated
I’m calm but feel the aggression
Hello depression

I’m confident but have self doubt
I’m passionate but have nothing to give
I’m ambitious but unable to make progression
Hello depression

I’m a lover but feel broken  
I’m considerate but feel empty
I like to express but lost all communication
Hello depression

I’m a soul seeker but feel lost
I’m a free spirit but feel trapped
I’m a risk taker but lack motivation
Hello depression

You will never understand
The pain your words caused
It’s not alway physical
But mentally I’m distraught

Each word like a dagger
To my wounded heart
Wondering when it’ll end
As we’ve drifted so far apart

As I stand here alone
On the end of this bridge
Gathering my thoughts
Wondering what the future will bring?

This is the point of no return
I’ve done all that I can
No more suffering
Is this God’s plan?

I took a step back
Thought of the pain
I’ll be leaving behind
What will my loved ones gain?

My eyes are swollen
My throat dry
Yes, I’ve been crying
But do you know why?

I feel like I’m falling
I just want to fly
Yes, I’m confused
But do you know why?

I’m hurting on the inside
Smiles on the outside
Yes, I’m in pain
But do you know why?

Blood dripping down
Whilst I’m high
Yes, I’m self harming
But do you know why?

End all my suffering
Here I lie
Yes, I’m 6 feet under
But do you know why?

Don’t gift me flowers because they will one day die...
Don’t gift me perfume because the scent will fade...
Don’t gift me clothes because they will soon go out of fashion...
Gift me your precious time because that’s when memories that last forever are made.