I want to tell you
The words that's come to mind
When you smile the way you do.
But I'm not the kind
Of guy.
That makes the first move.
So I guess this is goodbye,

Nothing says
"I love you"
More than
An
Anxiety attack.

I can't seem to articulate what I feel, how I think,
And how I perceive this world.
I've given up on shaking
This feeling of being
Misunderstood.

I remember the warm nights
The silent drives
The laughs
But not the cries
I wasn't there
You wouldn't let me
Too scared
You had to protect me
So let me,
Take your hand again.
We'll drive somewhere new
You can tell me of.
Let's not focus on the date,
And time ticking away.
Until the storms return,
We'll pray during our infamous
Hydroplane.
That our breaks don't fail us.
If they do, I'll crash with you.

I have this dream of a,
blood orange sky rippling
Down through the cracked window pane,
Of this crumbling house.
The faint sigh of faded beauty
Resonates among these chipped walls.
We walk there down
the boulevard from when we were happy.
Yet all I can feel is the fleeting feeling, I felt when
your lipstick stained
my cheek for the
final time.

Silently lie in the grass,
On the hill above the lights.
Steal a kiss,
In between ,
Each drag on this cigarette.
And
Let's
Take bets on which is more
Dangerous.

Do you ever think of us?
Or are we a lost cause
That I'm still fighting for?