Today, I actually felt a little happy.
Wanted.
Loved.
But you noticed and couldn't let me have my happiness could you?
"Freak with all those cuts and scars"
Do you really think that made me feel better?
You took my happy day and turned it to ****.
I hope you're happy now.
Because Im not.

Whenever you should cry
I will be your window to the sky
to remind you each time
that every rain pour is followed by the sun's shine.

I know you'll never do the same for me
because you know I already see
but it doesn't hurt any less
when you pretend not to notice my distress.

You tell me a joke and you make me smile
but this tactic of yours can only last for a while
it may help in the moment but does not make it better
and I realise that I am forever alone in this stormy weather.

My voice is locked up
The Key is gone
All that is left is my thoughts
If only I could break free
Excape this trap
But its got ahold of me
Dragging me back
Picking at me piece by piece
Taking every cell away that is me
Without these cells I am nothing
My thoughts flow away in wisps
I have no voice
I have no mind
I am nothing
I do not exist

You come across as confident.
I thought you had it all together.
With your huge infectious smile
You can charm a person whether

They are just some stranger or
Someone you've never met before.

But being with you for so long
Has shown to me another side,
One that second guesses every
Action, one you try to hide

Because in truth you're insecure,
Self-conscious, timid, and unsure.

Oh, darling, how I long to tell you
Your agonies are so unfounded.
You are amazing, really truly,
All you are leaves me astounded!

And, for the record, it is your
Flaws that make me love you more.