Mammoth butterfly
on red, spring rose
drinking nectar, ah,
more and more.

Spring breeze sweeps in
playing with the rose
makes it dance
till butterfly can sit no more.

Butterfly, butterfly
don't go,
wan't more kisses
cried the rose.

Windows open, no curtains or blinds
midnight ,
a half moon wanes
darkness seeping through the glass panes
nudges me, I behold
a beauty: this Night,
she looks at me
starlit eyes, gowned within Milky Way
Venus sparkling on her crown,
infinite sky
echoing its flute
serenades her,
but she chooses me
takes me in her arms
kisses my eyes,
we fall asleep
together in peace.

We don't want Dawn to come.
Let us be, Night and me.

Love, at times finds no expressions
just not enough to say
how much, really how deep
you love.

As you ***** for words
in between the times
love gets lost,
for not finding the right words
at the right moment.
you curse yourself,
"****, I couldn't say it."

Heart said everything
that lips did not,
eyes did too
but she saw not,
now ears listen
to banging doors
as love leaves
on clicking heels.

Hey
when I was sobbing
with tears running
endlessly, like rivers
waters falling into seas,
all I wanted was,
for you to pick me up,
hold me
hug me
and stop the tears' flow
with a deep kiss.

But,
I listened
to echoes of your footsteps
heard the door banging shut,
knowing you will return
on your time
with roses to console
tears that have gone dry.

Now,
how can I tell, how
that moment's emptiness
will never be filled
for important to you was
NOT  ME
but something else.

Guilty:
I burn inside
and outside,
I hurt you, I know
watched while
you cried and raved.

Few days ago
I felt like a winner,
but now
something bothers
and pulls me down
and I feel defeated
don't know why
though.

Guiltless:
I will awake to victory
perhaps
if I let you feel
that you got your way
by tearing me
inside out.
But no
I forgive you
to the last drop
of all tears shed.
Somewhere within

while you bleed
I will find peace
through your misdeed.

My eyes stare at the brown branches
at those stubborn snow,
reluctantly the body takes in
those icy wind across the meadows,
there is a wish crying, shouting,
another banging its head
on the doors of spring,
while futile wishes ring bells
asking again and again
"Oh,  snow when will you melt
and sweet spring breeze,
when will you be blowing ?"

I wish and wish
that my impatient heart
could strike a note
on the strings of spring
to make it sing
all the tunes it is hiding.

'Excuse me?' I asked
'Nothing, wasn't meant
to be loud'
You reply
'But I heard' I whisper
'Oh, shall I wait ?'
comes softly from you
'Ears heard but heart did not '
I reply,
and watched you walk away.

It's me, the real me you know
that I wish you would see
the psyche that stands before you
beyond attires of worldly need,
it's there only when you can see
really see you know.

Would the world a lesser chaos be
if we saw, really saw you know
what prevails beyond
all that allure us so?

What all that means really simple
you know
it's acknowledging the truth
for what is
beyond the colors of greed.


The soil gives life
to seeds that seek light
from deep within
likewise,
I have found peace
in the eternity of my being
hold my hand, will you please?

I am inside
flight feathers gone,
my cage is closed
big lock hangs on the door
guards stand at front entrance
the castle gate is shut
heavy, iron bolts.

What are my wings for?
What do I do?

Can anyone hear
the dying beats
of this heart?
I wonder
how long it will go?

Tell me,
just in few words
sing one song
a line of poetry
or prose
tell me,
what to do
when one falls in love
knowing too well
it's not reciprocal?

Wait,
if that be true love,
he or she will give
with all that passion can
and expect nothing
in return.

But the foolish heart
does it listen to reason?

Tell me please
what to do.

Icy March
fading winter wind
cutting to the bones,
drilling into ears
stinging eyes to tears,
but I like it
just like spring breeze,
after all, love is
taking in all
your rage or embrace
perfection
and imperfection.

As you take me
right or wrong
in fact
in better ways,
no complains
only
silent acceptance.

Where I am going
what am I leaving
I know not,
but I've faith
you will be there
in my life
fast or slow.

31st with friends,
fireworks, wine
countdown and hugs
ended then and there.

Deep within
didn't feel a thing
about time, I mean
knowing it will flow,
fast nor slow
with kisses or blows,
however marked
doesn't really change
a thing.

Back home:
opened the Chinese calendar
and Arabic one too,
while my lost hopes
found life
in new years yet to come.

When darkness descends
lights go off,
small, big, white and red,
till its a blinding blackness
to hide me
from the world.

Yet another light dawns,
immediately so,
flooding me all around
like thousand  stadiums lit
for century games.

Then my heart and mind
caught in the glare
unwillingly play
games of reason and passion
in the beam less light
that you shine.

I wonder, just wonder
how can darkness
and my unseeing eyes
be so full of light?

Question unanswered:
what does life hold,
on this fraction of a second,
one that is part of a minute,
a minute part of an hour,
an hour that's part of a day,
a day that's part of a year,
a year part of a century,
a century part of a decade
for eons beyond
AND, and, and, hmmmm..
Does it hold anything all ?

Run,
faster, faster,
have to catch
and hold the magic
in our hands,
then we'll never
be apart again.

We pant and puff,
were did it go?
That shooting star,
it fell a second ago!

Your stare
and I too:
from here
where do we go?

Such a long time it seems
haven't heard your voice
nor seen your face.

Heart running dry,
no sharing
hopes and dreams
tears or laughter.

Years passing?
I sit to count,
and remember,
you went away
a day ago
yesterday.

At times I can't go on
not anymore,
my steps falter
heavy is the head,
body weighs down
and
inner organs gone,
light like a feather
am become.

And yet, something
I can't put finger on
is too heavy
just over me
and I can't go on.

Do you see
anything on my back?
A mountain like thing?
It's a weird one,
so big, yet invisible
and trust me
the weight is unbearable.

I may be breaking soon.

Love is never complete or perfect,
be it a mother
or a lover,
the more you love
the more you wish to say
or hold each other,
and yet
the heart and body
craves for more
never seems enough.

Wretched love
your victim
I'll never be.

My love
like sunlight is
illuminaiting all,
it's for you to catch
big or small.

Remember days
when
in your embrace
I forgot
rest of the world?

Listening to your heart,
feeling the skin
spread divine warmth
to mine,
I felt so secure
without a single door
or a gun,

You hold me still,
but it's not the same
the pureness is gone
I wish I knew
where YOU roam.

I drift on
like a block of ice
on the pounding sea
no destination,
knowing well that
soon will come
the end of me.

This is not a poem you know
Its just words of my hearts
Words that I just could not say aloud
And yet had to say.

Where do I begin?
What do I say poetically I mean?
These are feelings you know
Feelings that tears bring
Feelings that make me laugh
Yet leave me feeling foolish again.

You speak all poetry
How beautifully you tell
All that make your heaven and hell
In your eyes, words do I find?

My words are not poetry you know
When you read them
Perhaps you will find a poem
If you love me.

Deep in my eyes
I hold the truth.
Its not a poem, you see
Its waiting to be,
A poem in your world.

I cannot define this emptiness
that roams around,
in happiness
it casts a shadow,
in bad times,
me,  it swallows,
when senses go numb
it makes me go
round and round
seeking its whereabouts
and my full  life
makes no sense.

I cannot define this emptiness
can you?

Wait, I am holding breath
there's a thought
that keeps me
if that breath comes
I will lose
lose it all.

Wait, wait,
I cannot breathe
no, not now.

Tonight it's Bach, Handel , Chopin
and more
just music please,
tried many songs
lyrics of kinds,
melodies high and low
yet, none reflect
my numb thoughts.

I wonder though
why so,
am I too dead or
words lack strength?

Just hold me tight
until I wake up
and really hear
words of your song,
till then
let it be only music
tonight.

I don't wear rings anymore
they hook memories
like invisible magnets
and bring them to the shore.

Like washed away things
lying on the sand
they wink at me
as if to say,
what a folly
we are really.

I don't want  
a ring
from anyone
ever again.

Help me God
hold my empty hand.

why disappoint me?
I don't know why
dear Dreams,
in day or night
you're hopeless, impossible,
at times insane too,
don't play cruel jokes
do you?
I wonder though
if that is because,
possibles are impossibles
in my real life,
so you adjusted
in coming with dreams
of impossible things?

Wishes run, hopes soar
and I just don't know
where to stop
when my being
wants to be held,
just someone
to be there
outside flesh and blood
blended into one being.

Hold me, hold me
please, sh...sh...
not a word at all.

Eyes welled up with water
two drops came out,
started rolling down.

You saw them?
My dear,
they were not only two
but endless streams,
not small in size
but oceans of tears,
it was a life crying
for a love lost
in a gun tragedy.

It was teardrops
speaking for humanity.

I found life
life didn't want me,
this is how it is
was meant to be.
Tears, don't come
I can't wipe you
no,
not any more.

I found life
life didn't want me,
this is how it is
was meant to be.
Tears, don't come
I can't wipe you
no,
not any more.

You are stupid, foolish, crazy
pointless, senseless
in some thoughts,
at other times
good, wrapped in love
sheer joy from above
silent or aloud.

Life O' Life
tell me for once,
to you
what am I?

" Breathe!"
I heard.

Was searching,
countless words
I needed  
to write a letter
before I go.

But,
dropped the pen
shut the laptop.

One word
echoed on mind,
" Breathe!"

I'm missing touches of wind
following a heavy rain,
sudden gusts of coolness
soothing to the skin,
like an embrace
of compassion
a silent message
from somewhere beyond
a whisper, " I care,
just hang on."

Rain has gone,
Wind,
when will you
come again?