I look at her
And I worry
I have always been a sorry replacement
I hope this time
Things are different

i remember
the first time you slid your thumbs
down the waistband of my pants
and pulled them off

most boys who do this
have a grin on their face

but not you

your lips were pursed
and your brows furrowed
but your eyes were filled with love

and suddenly i knew what we had was real

i love the way you laugh
even though we are apart
I know you admire the same stars
I am waiting for the day when
I can dye your hair soft pink
then it will match the color of our hearts

i am trying
to feel alive
but it is hard to get out of bed
my hair is getting greasy
and my stomach is growling

youneedtosleep

it whispers
I cannot help but agree

who is god
*God?

in chemistry
pure substances are not perfect
a silver coin is only .99999
but it still smiles with glossy shine
and there are no exceptions

in love
people are not perfect
but you are the only exception
your teeth are clean despite the cigarettes
and my heart is 1.0

my friends used to tell me
everything will be okay
things will get better
I promise

for the longest time
things got worse
my cuts got deeper
the drugs got harder

but today is a new day
it is my first day of college
and although I am scared
I know that everything will be okay