i feel like everything's falling apart,

if i would be in movie, i'm lost and i do
n't know the parts.

the world doesn't make me feel alive anymore,

i can't even feel the beat of my own heart anymore.

i was thrown into a loop of feeling nothing and being nothing,

noise, disturbant noise, is all i could hear

black, pitch black, is all i could see yet i feel no fear,

numbness, is all i could feel, even though my limbs are ripping apart.

no light, no pain, nothing.

and all at once, i feel nothing with the beat of my own heart.

- i know that my heart beating, but i'm barely breathing.

in your eyes i see sadness,
i didn't see galaxy nor oceans
i didn't see speckles of brightness
nor a stardust of hope
your eyes is empty.
dull, black, empty.

but your eyes feels like home
i found out that,
staring into an orbs with stars and oceans,
is exhausting, but with your eyes that feels
like home, makes up everything.

but now it's nothing.

- i don't feel safe at home anymore.

i'd like to think that
you were just another
product of my dreams.

but the next day,
you broke my heart.

and i knew from
there that you were
real.


- and i suddenly want you to disappear from my dreams.