in your eyes i see sadness,
i didn't see galaxy nor oceans
i didn't see speckles of brightness
nor a stardust of hope
your eyes is empty.
dull, black, empty.

but your eyes feels like home
i found out that,
staring into an orbs with stars and oceans,
is exhausting, but with your eyes that feels
like home, makes up everything.

but now it's nothing.

- i don't feel safe at home anymore.

i feel like everything's falling apart,

if i would be in movie, i'm lost and i do
n't know the parts.

the world doesn't make me feel alive anymore,

i can't even feel the beat of my own heart anymore.

i was thrown into a loop of feeling nothing and being nothing,

noise, disturbant noise, is all i could hear

black, pitch black, is all i could see yet i feel no fear,

numbness, is all i could feel, even though my limbs are ripping apart.

no light, no pain, nothing.

and all at once, i feel nothing with the beat of my own heart.

- i know that my heart beating, but i'm barely breathing.

i'd like to think that
you were just another
product of my dreams.

but the next day,
you broke my heart.

and i knew from
there that you were
real.


- and i suddenly want you to disappear from my dreams.