she put a piece of meat in her mouth
i heard her chewing noise
god, i hate when people do that
it was sunny and people around me were
talking
about things that shouldn't be talked about
then i saw the purée-like meat in her mouth
she swallowed
the sunny side-up egg was next
she repeated the horrifying process


disgusting.

here lays my soul
rotten, beaten
sadness filled its body
it had one
it was full of life, colour,
happiness
sleep
just sleep

trash*
i threw it away
i threw myself away
i had a worth
i was important
i was loved
i was in perfect condition

now*
i'm worthless
i don't deserve a second glance
i'm unloved
i'm broken

the word fills my vision
mixed with frustration and sadness
lethal combinations
shaky hands and
heart is beating
fastfastfast
i didn't make it

~~♥~~

I used to think men
should be more like books
Both you cannot
judge by looks...

If I didn't want to finish reading
I put it down... no heart was bleeding

A book will never fuss or fight
It will stay with you
through the night...

It doesn't smoke. It doesn't drink.
It won't leave toothpaste
in the sink!

It doesn't binge... it don't eat...
It won't leave up the toilet seat!

It don't forget. It doesn't mope.
It won't hog the TV remote!

It doesn't have to have
The last say...
It doesn't have legs

to walk away.

But it's not soft. It isn't warm.
It doesn't keep you
safe from harm.

Even though it makes no fuss
It can't think. It can't discuss.

Even though it has its charms
it can't hold you in its arms.

It doesn't pine. It doesn't miss.
It can't hug and it can't kiss.

So now I think on it again...
... I think BOOKS should be
             more like MEN!!!


SoulSurvivor
2/20/2015

how do people know?
how does she know that he doesn't want her anymore?
how does he know that she was with another man?
all i saw was my reflection.
all i saw was my grotesque face.
i saw my frown.
i didn't see any of his emotions.
his eyes were like a clear glass.

bored to death
cloaked man was bored
he wasn't waiting
he lit up a cigarette
puffed
the smoke filled his vision
this is heaven
and so he puffed once more