The record skips at the same point each time,
Broken, it spins and no noi-
Noise, static from the speaker that is my heart,
My life seems to be in sha-
Shambles, when it plays, the sound, melodic,
Each note speaks to my very so-
Soul, announcing itself to the world for all to hear,
And yet my life seems incom-
Incomplete, without that sound of the treble,
The sound alongside the und-
Underlying bass, that is defined by emotion,
The mids make up the wo-
Words that harmonize the two together,
But while this record sk-
Skips, they will never play in sync,
The sound of the nee-
Needle jumping reminds me of the present,
And how things will ne-
Never be as good as they once were,
For the record will never re-
Reach its end, until then there is nothi-

We are always looked over without a second thought,
Taken for granted, no matter what we brought.
There for you when you needed someone to talk,
There for you when you asked for company on a walk.
We open doors for you, compliment you everyday,
But we are always looked over no matter what we say.
Take you out and surprise you with but a single rose,
You thank us for it as you hold it to your nose.
You take in the smell, as your heart jumps for joy.
A thought runs through you head, "oh, boy
Your just a friend nothing more nothing less."
You tell him this as you confess.
I'm sorry, he says with a heavy heart,
I was stupid for tearing this relationship apart.
He turns his back and takes a pace,
Your heart slowly begins to race.
Heart broken, looking down as he walks away,
As he does everything in his power to forget this day.
He was there when guys treated you bad,
When your boyfriends made you sad.
You complain that there are no nice guys, it's all a lie,
And yet you let your best friend pass you by.
There for you through thick and thin,
Willing to do anything to protect you from sin.
He turns as you give him a hug, he gently whispers,
*"It's all in your head,
Because princess, chivalry isn't dead..."

Times have been changing...
yet somethings have stayed the same...
I have become a better person...
made myself a new name...

Tried new things, quit others...
met new people, lost some old...
Truths were said to some...
to others lies were told...

No regrets was my motto...
since the beginning of the year...
I sit here today in sorrow...
mulling it over an ice cold beer...

I could of sworn I did it right...
maybe just this one time...
But scorned by her...
as if I had committed a crime...

Left to my own demons...
as I am slowly consumed...
Darkness surrounds me...
sooner than I presumed...

You were the light...
which guided me in the night...
The one who led me to believe...
that I was doing everything right...

You could have save me from it...
saved me from the brink...
In seconds my life shattered...
gone in less than a blink...

I had given you everything...
but you just let it go...
Forgtten I was to be, discarded...
who was I to know...

I take a swig from my beer...
my only friend in my time of need...
The true friend thats there for me...
no matter how much I bleed...

I laugh to think I thought it would work...
17th times the charm...
But now the mere thought of you...
just causes harm...

Numb the pain I tell myself...
just forget it took place...
And yet I can't stop thinking about it...
each time I see your face...

I know I'm not meant for this...
I'm meant for something more...
Something better...
and not to be stepped on like this here floor...

You pushed me away...
when I only wished you the best...
And told you that you were beautiful...
more so than the rest...

You smile and wave like nothings wrong...
yet its there...
You'll never know what could of been...
but where...

Deep down you'll find it...
but I'll be long gone...
Left alone at nights...
waiting for the dawn...

I was there when you needed me most...
when you were lonely...
But you pushed me away and never saw how i felt...
if only...

I look into your eyes and all doubt leaves my mind,
All my worries and fear are all left behind.
I don't know why you do this to me or how,
All I know this is where I want to be here and now.
Your smile brightens the darkness of any room,
And yet a single thought keeps me in gloom.
We speak about everything, laugh at every joke,
Letting our minds wander, our thoughts provoke.
If you only knew how much you mean to me,
Maybe then would you finally clearly see.
I would climb the highest mountain, swim the largest sea,
Cause when I'm with you, only then do I feel free.
Not a care in the world, but only to see your face,
Every chance I get; just in case.
Each day that goes by I want you to know,
That I'd do anything to be your beau.
There is always that risk that you may not feel the same,
Not knowing how you feel burns inside me like a flame.
And yet, I am just as content with where we are,
Even though the fire will eventually leave a scar.
To see you happy is all I've ever wanted,
And to leave this relationship undaunted.
As much as it hurts to see you by someone elses side,
I would stand by and swallow my pride.
To risk losing you, or hold you at arms length,
Left fighting this battle with all my strength.
Thoughts left in tatters, emotions left hostile,
But in the end, all I want to do is see you smile...

Yearning for that connection,
Teased with it, for all these years,
Blinded by it, enveloped by it,
Finding it again, my only goal,
I miss it, I'm incomplete without it,
A part of me dies, each time,
That it's ripped away,
One day, maybe I'll succeed,
Find it and keep it close,
But odds are, it'll be torn away,
And leave me worse for ware,
Tis better to have loved and lost,
Then to have never loved at all,
They always seem to say,
But it is those that are in love,
Seem to say it most,
Built up and torn down,
Seems to be my curse,
Dangling the prize,
Just outside my reach,
Oh, you almost had it,
So close, yet so far,
An endless battle,
With no end in sight,
A broken soul is like a puzzle,
With missing pieces,
No matter how close you come,
No matter how many pieces you find,
It will never be whole,
It will never be complete...

I am just a man, left to pick up the pieces.
The pieces of a once strong figure.
Hammered down and broken through time.
Experience eroded the once stable frame.
Time was a cruel test for it would not last.
Standing tall over the masses.
Only to be torn down in the end.
Each disappointment caused a crack.
Until the cracks became too much to bear.
The weight on its shoulders made it buckle.
Some only looked on, emotionless.
While others laughed as they saw it crumble.
As it all fell to the ground it shattered.
The dust cleared and the rubble settled.
I look to the skies and close my eyes.
As I stand there and wonder what I have done.
Walking through the rubble.
Left alone to contemplate it all.
I am just a man, left to pick up the pieces,
The pieces that remain of my soul...

I would always hold my head up high,
Trying to make you smile when things seem dark,
Never do I expect anything in return,
My voice would always speak those reassuring words,
Letting you know that everything is alright,
Wishing away all the harm from ever being near,
Protecting you from pain and putting myself in its path,
Giving everything I know up so that you are happy,
I hold you closer than you will ever know,
You'll never know how I feel when you're smiling at me,
My knees tremble, my palms grow cold,
I refuse to let these things show, bright as day,
Pulse races when you touch my skin,
Fighting the urge I hold my tongue,
Your heart is held by another, one I will never be,
Being who I am, I will never step in the way,
The happiness you have is more important,
Than the feelings I may have,
I want whats best for you, to never shed a tear,
Stifle those emotions I feel, not risking pushing you away,
I'd rather have you as a friend than not at all,
It pains me to see you with another, but no matter,
I'll be here, whenever it is you need me...

Our minds race, thoughts collide,
As our goals are left to divide.
People come and people go,
We wish to make it till we grow.
Some are taken in their prime,
Left struggling to make the climb.
While the world crumbles down,
The pain is as if you drown.
One day you're here, gone the next,
Leaving those around perplexed.
We always touch lives, no matter how small,
Never did we think of how it would affect us all.
The leaves fall leaving us bare and broken,
As we're left in silence or soft spoken.
Strength escapes us as the shock sets in,
Our shield can only be so thick; skin.
Life at times will try to tear us apart,
But each time, knowledge does impart.
Never take the things in life we have for granted,
We must learn to move like trees, as we're planted.
As we take each day, never lose sight of the light,
It's the only thing that'll help us through the fight.
Move with everything life throws in your direction,
For everything in life is full of inflection.
Live like there's no tomorrow, don't be led astray,
As the winds of life hit your branches;
               there is but one thing to do; sway...

Relationships flourish when there is a connection,
And yet both sides are scared to show true affection.
To take a chance and put it all on the line,
And risk looking like you're asinine.
As the bond gets stronger, you begin to question,
The unknown soon becomes your obsession.
Black and white, defined lines in the sand,
Unsure of what to do, frozen where you stand.
Should you do this? What should you say?
To cross the line and turn the colors grey?
A leap of faith is all it seems to take,
It could end well or be another mistake.
The heart burns inside as you make a decision,
As both your fates seem to be heading for collision.
You either make it out alive or watch it unfold,
Unsure of what will be left to behold.
You fight with emotion, you fight with it all,
As you lose yourself in a bottle of alcohol.
The night is long, you say hello to every hour,
As you try to forget all that isn’t in your power.
Peace at last from the thoughts in your head.
Everything goes dark, silence, at least for a while,
But your phone; a text from her with a smile.
It gives you life, it gives you drive and yet also sadness,
As it sets you again on that deadly path to madness.
To find someone as innocent and pure,
So difficult to not succumb to the allure.
And yet you wait until the time is right,
But then she says she found someone the other night.
Crushed, hopes dashed, you never had a chance,
You try to stop yourself from going into a trance.
The struggle in your mind has finally ceased,
Your demons finally have been released.
The decisions been made, out of your control,
Fates have chosen for you, to them you extol.
As much as it pains you, you were blinded,
Made to believe something you minded.
Yes, you loved her, you have a history.
But now your feelings remain a mystery.
Thoughts of you holding her close, tightly embraced,
Sorrow sets in; realizing that you’ve been replaced...

Never have I seen you smile,
But yet for you I'd walk a mile.
Never have I heard your voice,
And yet you are my only choice.
The thought of you at my side,
And trust in you I confide.
It's impossible to say what this may be,
Love? Lust? Emotions too cluttered to see.
I write this, to get my thoughts in order,
And yet all I'm left with is disorder.
Each thought of you makes my day bright,
I fail to escape the thoughts, try as i might.
Making you happy, is all I want to do,
To be there to get you through.
Anything, if thats what it takes,
To see you smile, no matter the stakes.