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2.4k · Dec 2012
Hypocrisy, Thy Name Is
Toro Dec 2012
Hypocrisy, Thy Name Is
Time and time again, we experience things that we assume are great,
We soon find out that each thing would lead to our eventual fate.
It’s hard to trust someone that has lied to your face,
It’s hard to get over the past and move on to a new place.
Sick and tired of liars, cheaters and the weak minded,
Living life day by day oblivious to society; blinded.
Saying that things will get better and continue forth,
Believing what we hear daily and henceforth.
Taking in every little white lie and replaying each word,
Ignoring the atrocities that may have occurred.
You claim to be someone you’re not and neglect who you really are,
Actions contradict your words, how truly bizarre.
The words you speak turn to silent tears,
All you stood for is dead after all these years.
Time can’t change the past; it determines what may come,
Time can only heal the hearts and minds of some.
Even if we’re given all the time we may ever need,
Some still can’t hide their lust or greed.
Gluttons for attention, sloths throughout the day,
While pride, envy and wrath control all we ever say.
Those truths that you claim are real are far and few,
Lie to me again and prove to me that hypocrisy, thy name is you.
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1.4k · Feb 2014
Stand Alone
Toro Feb 2014
Stand Alone
Day in and day out,
We drive ourselves,
To be better, to be great,
And yet for what?
To satisfy others?
To make us happy?
Happiness seems so distant,
When it's in perspective.
It's perplexing,
Trying to comprehend,
Who are we to decide,
What makes us, us?
Society?
The opinions of others?
We aren't made,
By things around us.
Through actions we grow,
Words fall on deaf ears,
We can say one thing,
But mean something else,
We can't be led astray,
Down a path of darkness,
To a place where,
You lose yourself,
Forget who you really are,
No matter where you are,
It will come to an end,
When you look around,
No one will be there,
You will be forgotten,
Despite that grim outlook,
Stand tall, stand proud,
Oppose the slander,
Fight the opposition,
Stand alone...
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1.3k · Nov 2012
Ashes to Ashes
Toro Nov 2012
Ashes to Ashes
Walking down the path of righteousness,
I see the obstacles in my way.
Take each stride as the other precedes it,
As the chains rattle to my side.
Seen as the darkness that clouds the earth,
Being led to the side of light.
These thoughts run through my mind,
Memories of all those I’ve lost.
Those fallen to the same fate as mine,
Guiltless of the crime at hand.
Taken from us for no reason at all,
Torn from life, through fire.
The ropes clench around my body,
My breaths begin to slow.
Looking down I see sticks at my feet,
The crowd grows silent.
A masked man walks with a torch,
Slowly heading my way.
The seconds turn to minutes,
Minutes to hours.
The flame grows, as it gets closer,
My time is at an end.
Sparks fly as the sticks catch fire,
Smoke fills the air.
It begins getting hard to breathe,
Screams fail to escape.
Feeling the fire touching my skin,
Feel the agonizing pain.
The first feeling felt in years,
The end is finally near.
I shake my head and smile,
I’ll be free from it all.
Free from the trials of this life,
Looking up to the sky.
Take my final breath, close my eyes,
Soon consumed by the flame.
Flames begin to calm as nothing remains,
Ashes to ashes they say.
My body turned from dust to dust,
This is how it must be.
As the embers slowly begin to die out,
The memory of me fades…
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1.2k · Dec 2012
Chivalrous
Toro Dec 2012
Chivalrous
We are always looked over without a second thought,
Taken for granted, no matter what we brought.
There for you when you needed someone to talk,
There for you when you asked for company on a walk.
We open doors for you, compliment you everyday,
But we are always looked over no matter what we say.
Take you out and surprise you with but a single rose,
You thank us for it as you hold it to your nose.
You take in the smell, as your heart jumps for joy.
A thought runs through you head, "oh, boy
Your just a friend nothing more nothing less."
You tell him this as you confess.
I'm sorry, he says with a heavy heart,
I was stupid for tearing this relationship apart.
He turns his back and takes a pace,
Your heart slowly begins to race.
Heart broken, looking down as he walks away,
As he does everything in his power to forget this day.
He was there when guys treated you bad,
When your boyfriends made you sad.
You complain that there are no nice guys, it's all a lie,
And yet you let your best friend pass you by.
There for you through thick and thin,
Willing to do anything to protect you from sin.
He turns as you give him a hug, he gently whispers,
*"It's all in your head,
Because princess, chivalry isn't dead..."
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1.1k · Dec 2013
Memoir of a Nice Guy
Toro Dec 2013
Memoir of a Nice Guy
I would always hold my head up high,
Trying to make you smile when things seem dark,
Never do I expect anything in return,
My voice would always speak those reassuring words,
Letting you know that everything is alright,
Wishing away all the harm from ever being near,
Protecting you from pain and putting myself in its path,
Giving everything I know up so that you are happy,
I hold you closer than you will ever know,
You'll never know how I feel when you're smiling at me,
My knees tremble, my palms grow cold,
I refuse to let these things show, bright as day,
Pulse races when you touch my skin,
Fighting the urge I hold my tongue,
Your heart is held by another, one I will never be,
Being who I am, I will never step in the way,
The happiness you have is more important,
Than the feelings I may have,
I want whats best for you, to never shed a tear,
Stifle those emotions I feel, not risking pushing you away,
I'd rather have you as a friend than not at all,
It pains me to see you with another, but no matter,
I'll be here, whenever it is you need me...
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988 · Dec 2012
Phoenix
Toro Dec 2012
Phoenix
Raindrops hit the ground,
Everything hurts,
Can’t seem to move,
Thunder rumbles overhead,
Roll yourself over,
Rain begins to slow,
You try to remember,
Nothing comes to mind,
You touch your face,
Cuts across your brow,
Bruises on your cheek,
Memories flash in your head,
Blood covered shirt,
Slowly the past becomes clear,
Life knocked you down,
Love stabbed you in the heart,
Happiness abandoned you,
Left to slowly die,
Give up they told you,
No one wants you,
Not worth a ****,
Anger swells inside,
Revenge is your only thought,
Destroy that, which wronged you,
Pride reaches out its hand,
Helps you stand,
Pain grips your ribs,
You fall to your knees,
Doubled over in pain,
Breathing slows,
You begin to calm,
You feel alive,
You slowly get up,
A fire begins to burn inside,
Battered and beaten,
And yet you still stand,
Stumbling you walk into the light,
Back into reality,
Face all the evils of the world,
Take them all head on,
Rise from these ashes,
For you will never die…
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929 · Jul 2013
Deja Vu
Toro Jul 2013
Deja Vu
Held on to hope, sadly it was a mistake.
Left falling, spiraling out of control.
Pain grips the heart, sorrow fills the mind.
Failure would be what I describe.
There's a burning inside my soul.
Bringing me to my knees.
I can feel a weight being lifted.
Instinct drives me to reach out.
My hand grabs another.
I see myself looking back.
A younger me, a happier me.
At an age where happiness seemed endless.
When I had no care in the world.
His hand slips through my fingers.
He floats away and disappears.
I fall backwards into darkness.
No light, and yet I still see.
Deja vu sets in.
It's a familiar place, yet different.
I feel nothing.
Emotionless.
Memories escape me.
Thoughtless.
No words leave my lips.
Voiceless.
I am consumed by the world.
A world that we live in and share.
Consumed by the shadow that is doubt.
Broken in the darkness, I lay.
For I am nothing but an empty shell...
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892 · Dec 2012
Answers
Toro Dec 2012
Answers
In life questions arise,
Most answered in shadows of lies.
Leaving many dazed and confused,
There are those left abused.

Bedazzled by fathom of thought,
Disconnected from lessons we were taught.
Lost in woods of wonder,
As ideas, morals all torn asunder.

A question left unanswered, still remains a question,
As the search for truth becomes obsession.
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875 · Jan 2014
Darkness
Toro Jan 2014
Darkness
The cold wind blows, reaching though your very soul,
Making your body shiver, trying to keep warm,
Each step you take, echoes along each wall,
Moonlight shining through clouds in the sky,
Suddenly the light disappears, it all grows dark,
The echoes stop, you're breathing heavy,
Looking around each shadow seems to move,
Whispers come from all around, panic sets in,
Heart races; you lose track of time,
The whispers grow louder as they seem to close in,
Your hearts in your throat as you feel someone near,
Closing your eyes, the voices become deafening,
Laughter begins to fill your ears, fear is all that remains,
In an instant, it all stops just as fast as it began,
Nothing stood where you once were, just emptiness,
The winds blow away the dust that remains,
You're gone, consumed by the darkness,
Only leaving a memory of what was once there,
Moonlight shines through the clouds in the sky,
Showing that what you once were was gone...
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858 · Dec 2012
In Pieces
Toro Dec 2012
In Pieces
I am just a man, left to pick up the pieces.
The pieces of a once strong figure.
Hammered down and broken through time.
Experience eroded the once stable frame.
Time was a cruel test for it would not last.
Standing tall over the masses.
Only to be torn down in the end.
Each disappointment caused a crack.
Until the cracks became too much to bear.
The weight on its shoulders made it buckle.
Some only looked on, emotionless.
While others laughed as they saw it crumble.
As it all fell to the ground it shattered.
The dust cleared and the rubble settled.
I look to the skies and close my eyes.
As I stand there and wonder what I have done.
Walking through the rubble.
Left alone to contemplate it all.
I am just a man, left to pick up the pieces,
The pieces that remain of my soul...
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803 · Mar 2013
Shadows
Toro Mar 2013
Shadows
the clock changes to 6, the sun begins to rise,
you lay awake, thoughts brewing, red eyes.
disappointment and sadness fill the growing void,
as everything you once held dear is destroyed.
love, life, family, friends all disappear into the abyss,
only memories, standing alone, left to reminisce.
a time that once was great, that never needed change,
your heart heavy, a thought you deem strange.
love never had a part, not a moment that made you believe,
because everyone in your life decided to leave.
never again you said, not again, so it won't hurt,
holding a barrier using all the power you could exert.
nothing ever lasts, nothing ever works out,
the void you feel fills with sorrow and doubt.
succuming to the darkness, leaving nothing left,
as every part of your life becomes bereft.
the sun may be rising but the day seems as dark as night,
for the shadows will keep pulling you away from the light...
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740 · Dec 2012
Amame
Toro Dec 2012
Amame
Pienso en ti dia y noche
Not one day goes by
No puedo hacer nada
Can’t work or think
Hablar o estudiar
The thought of you
Me vuelves loco con amor
Your beautiful in every way
Pero tus palabras son mentiras
Why do you hurt me like this
Me duele el Corazon
The pain slowly kills me
Sin ti no puedo vivir
Just tell me one thing
¿Porque no me amas
como te amo a ti?
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723 · Sep 2013
Holding On
Toro Sep 2013
Holding On
Everytime I see you, time seems to slow,
A moment in time, wishing it would last forever,
You approach me, smiling, arms wide open,
Closer with each step, closer you come,
Your arms reach around me, an embrace,
My arms caress your body, as I hold you,
The perfume, tickles my nostrils, pure ecstasy,
It drives me into a frenzy, mind becomes a blur,
Looking down into your beautiful eyes,
All I can do is smile, and pull you closer,
Wishing that this moment would never end,
My heart beats along side yours,
And yet I don't know if yours does the same,
Scared, I stand, not wanting to find out,
I want to be there, with only you,
In a moment that carries on,
Where we are together, one being,
Just a moment in time that never ends,
Please, just let me hold on,
Let me hold on for one more second...
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691 · Dec 2012
Almost Human
Toro Dec 2012
Almost Human
Fighting each battle,
Day in and day out,
No expression,
No sound,
Battling inner demons,
Keeping them in darkness,
No salvation,
No light,
Body aches and joints crack,
Hands grow cold,
No survivors,
No remorse,
Unknown territory,
New sights, heart pounds,
No friends,
No family,
Battered and broken,
Cold and alone,
No life.
No one.
It's only then that we become
*almost human...
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673 · Jul 2013
Regret
Toro Jul 2013
Regret
It's been so long since I got to hear your voice,
Not a day goes by where I don't regret my choice.
The things we used to do for fun and joy,
But I let my ego loose to destroy.
I regret the decisions I've done or made,
My heart hangs heavy wishing you'd of stayed.
You would always be there by my side,
No matter how difficult the stride.
Helping me, lifting me to greater heights,
Guiding me, urging me to keep up the fights.
I threw it all away; my ego got in the way,
Nothing I can say will take me back to that day.
I can't change the past, but I have learned,
I don't know if I can repair the bridge I've burned.
There's an emptiness that I can't deny,
To myself I can no longer lie.
You were there for me when I needed you most,
And I for you, but now I'm only a ghost.
A memory of what I used to be in the past,
To repair what once was, a task too vast.
We may never be the same, it's too much to ask,
Allow me to hate myself and drink from this flask.
I for lack of a better word, failed you,
Doubt fills my mind; this is true.
It's been so long, and not a day goes by,
When you don't come to mind, as I ask myself why?
The cracks remain in what once was,
Wishing I could go back in time and press pause.
On that one moment, when we were happy and alive,
Cause now I'm left struggling to breathe and survive...
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665 · Jan 2013
Better Off Alone
Toro Jan 2013
Better Off Alone
I was always there despite how difficult things may have gotten,
By your side through the darkness and all things rotten.
Picked you up when you were down and battered,
Helped put you back together when you were shattered.
Never did I put myself first, selfless is every way,
Threw myself to the dogs to keep them at bay.
Not once did I ask for anything, for some type of compensation,
After throwing myself into the fires of eternal damnation.
I am alone now without someone to protect,
Without someone who gives me their respect.
I remain standing even as my supports slowly break,
As the weight grows and by bones begin to ache.
My soul fades more and more as each day ends,
Living this feckless life as I'm left to make amends.
Those close to me will soon leave as well,
But when that happens only time can really tell.
In the end it will only be me that will be left standing,
Regardless of what my life may be demanding.
Despite all the things in life that I have known,
It's a life in which I am better off alone...
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623 · Oct 2013
Leaves
Toro Oct 2013
Leaves
The nights grow long and cold,
Leaves begin to fall, as the winds bring change.
The world around me slowly dies,
Leaving everything barren and empty.
Walking the path, the leaves crumble at my feet,
Crunching, crackling, broken down into nothing.
I've walked this path for a years,
Watching the seasons come and go.
I grow tired, but still I press on,
Down the long winding path that is life.
Everything around me changes,
And yet I still remain the same.
Unchanged, unmoved, alone in this endeavour,
Carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders.
The burdens of so-called humanity,
The sins of a society doomed to crumble.
Crumble like the leaves underneath my feet.
Sweat covers my brow, muscles ache,
Breath becomes heavy, as pain grips my heart.
I am all that remains of a noble breed,
A man most would call a gentleman, a nice guy.
I would throw myself into the fire,
Just to save those I love, and yet, here I am.
As the world keeps changing, continuing to sin,
The weight growing with each passing season.
One day I will break, and I shall finally crumble,
Just like the leaves, leaving nothing behind.
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603 · Nov 2012
Unspoken Truth
Toro Nov 2012
Unspoken Truth
It's difficult to say if what we do day in and day out,
Makes us into who we are or what we're all about...
In the back of my mind this drives me insane,
When something goes wrong we live in pain...
Heartbroken, distraught, left in a complete funk,
Leaving your judgement in pieces and pride shrunk...
Every minute of every day, you're the only thing on my mind,
I am unfamiliar with myself, I am left here undefined...
When I think of you all my problems melt away,
The time we spend together remains on replay...
You haven't the slightest idea what you mean to me,
To you I don't exist, I'm a fly on the wall that you fail to see...
I can only imagine what you think about when I'm around,
But I don't want to risk running this friendship aground...
We talk about anything and everything, no restraint,
The truth I want to say, leaves my mind quaint...
Should I speak my mind, or keep it inside to keep you close,
Or take the risk and see what happens, I suppose...
The repercussions are severe, the rewards can be great,
All I want to do is lift off my shoulders, this weight...
Time moves on and I don't want to waste our youth,
But it only gets harder to keep this unspoken truth...
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569 · Sep 2013
Broken Record
Toro Sep 2013
Broken Record
The record skips at the same point each time,
Broken, it spins and no noi-
Noise, static from the speaker that is my heart,
My life seems to be in sha-
Shambles, when it plays, the sound, melodic,
Each note speaks to my very so-
Soul, announcing itself to the world for all to hear,
And yet my life seems incom-
Incomplete, without that sound of the treble,
The sound alongside the und-
Underlying bass, that is defined by emotion,
The mids make up the wo-
Words that harmonize the two together,
But while this record sk-
Skips, they will never play in sync,
The sound of the nee-
Needle jumping reminds me of the present,
And how things will ne-
Never be as good as they once were,
For the record will never re-
Reach its end, until then there is nothi-
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549 · Nov 2012
A Moment of Nothing
Toro Nov 2012
A Moment of Nothing
A moment shared that seemed to last forever,
When in truth it lasted only a second.
A spark never felt before, that gave hope,
Hope for something greater, something bigger.
Something that would come down the road,
And brighten the darkness surrounding.
A blanket of anger, of sadness,
Of fear, rejection and regret.
Uncertainty of the future that controls,
Actions determine the outcome.
Cut down like a tree,
Split and crushed, turned into mulch,
The remains only help others grow.
Never lived a day, until I met you,
Everything seemed right, perfect.
Just wanted to live my life,
Make things right with you.
Your actions speak clearly,
I’m just a pawn in your game.
With no words I realize,
Like that tree, I was only born to die.
Our moment seemed to last forever,
It turned out being a moment of nothing…
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533 · Nov 2012
Time Will Tell
Toro Nov 2012
Time Will Tell
I never thought it would come back in this way,
Kept it out of mind, did anything to keep it at bay.
The darkness disappears, she shines like the stars,
Shining light on the darkest of scars.
Her presence makes the world a happier place,
For I am a better person everyday I see her face.
At night, she's the last thing I think about, the first in the morn,
If I was to ever lose her I'd be left in complete ruin, torn.
She means so much but she'll never comprehend,
As each day that goes by my heart gets harder to mend.
She speaks of others that sweep her off her feet,
But I know they will never make her complete.
We laugh and joke when we're together,
I wish that those moments would last forever.
To be the knight that saves her from her tower,
Is all I think about, every minute of every hour.
There's no better feeling than knowing I made her smile,
That's what makes all my pain worthwhile.
A friend I shall stay as my feelings call out with a yell,
But who am I to say what fate will bring, for only time will tell...
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526 · May 2013
Light
Toro May 2013
Light
As each day passes the sun sets sooner in the sky,
Lifted above us each day, never going awry.
We long to share that light; we live to see,
Alone, standing waiting to feel free.

Away from the pain, the torture we endure,
While time leaves us to mature.
As the sun rises, we count down the days,
To feel something even if it's just it's rays.

The warmth keeps us going, until then we wait,
Wait until there is something else to set us straight.
Until then, we're here to live the life that remains,
Fighting through what gives us sadness and pains.

We struggle through the fires and trials of life,
But in the end everything always ends in strife.
One day the sun will no longer rise or shine,
The stars slowly dim; planets cease to align.

In the darkness we will find it; a guide, a light,
That will show us the way through the darkest night.
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513 · Nov 2012
A New Day
Toro Nov 2012
A New Day
after all the time i've wasted...after all the things i've done...
it was just another broken record...another tv rerun...
took me time to realize it was all a mistake...
until emotions caught up and began to break...
one day you'll think back at what could of been...
as sadness envelopes and you're left to begin...
down a road of regret where i cannot be found...
cause i'll be gone in the morning...without a sound...
i have nothing, i leave with only the shirt on my back...
to leave is my only option to get my life on track...
each day that goes by, it hurts less and less...
optimism and hope were the drivers, this i confess...
reality blindsided me leaving my pride in a tatter...
realizing that my dream had no longer started to matter...
i walk this road left to mend my broken bones...
as those without sin refuse to throw the stones...
for they know the pain, they had been there before...
towards the horizon i go left to wander this earth forevermore...
thinking back to how it was, seeing how you acted...
i don't know why i let myself get distracted...
it was right in front of me the entire time...
but i guess my ignorance had me sublime...
doesn't matter now, i have grown in light of it...
i'm only human as some may say, that i admit...
i leave you to your wares and wish you the best...
just so you know, i am unlike any of the rest...
my head is held high no matter what they may say...
when the sun rises tomorrow, today will go away...
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501 · Mar 2013
Worth The Risk
Toro Mar 2013
Worth The Risk
Never have I seen you smile,
But yet for you I'd walk a mile.
Never have I heard your voice,
And yet you are my only choice.
The thought of you at my side,
And trust in you I confide.
It's impossible to say what this may be,
Love? Lust? Emotions too cluttered to see.
I write this, to get my thoughts in order,
And yet all I'm left with is disorder.
Each thought of you makes my day bright,
I fail to escape the thoughts, try as i might.
Making you happy, is all I want to do,
To be there to get you through.
Anything, if thats what it takes,
To see you smile, no matter the stakes.
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479 · Dec 2012
S.S.D.D.
Toro Dec 2012
S.S.D.D.
We wake hoping for something new,
Waiting for what this day will construe.
Looking forward to better things,
As each second pulls at heartstrings.
Anticipation grips my inner soul,
I’m slowly losing control.
Spiraling down into black,
Struggling to keep it on track.
Not knowing what comes next,
Leaving me paralyzed and perplexed.
Déjà vu, my mind screams,
As she shatters all of my dreams.
This day started well, that’s for sure,
But now everything seems obscure.
Thoughts of her run through my mind,
My life now lies there undefined.
A broken man, by himself, alone,
Sins left for him to atone.
Telling myself, why this time?
Days like this should be a crime.
Feeling horrible, trying to forget,
As thoughts fills my head with regret.
It happened again, I was blind to it,
My life in this world seems so unfit.
Losing my mind, in every way shape and form,
I’m tired of these days becoming the norm.
To think I gave it my best, but it didn’t work,
All I can do is walk with a smirk.
This day went sour real quick,
Thanks to me falling for another trick.
The life I live seems to be on constant replay,
It’s always the same ****, different day.
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473 · Mar 2014
Fade
Toro Mar 2014
Fade
I stand in harms way,
Just to protect you,
I call you beautiful,
Just to make you smile,
I listen to you speak,
Just to hear your voice,
I try to spend time with you,
Just to see you be happy.

And yet despite it all,
No matter what I do,
No matter what I say,
I am merely a shadow,
Until it's something you need,
When no one else is there,
Only then do I matter,
Only then do you care.

I am an open book,
You know who I am,
And yet you choose others,
People that disrespect you,
Treat you in the worst way,
I see you in pain,
And yet despite it all,
I try my best to make it right.

It comes full circle,
I can't help but be who i am,
I want to see you smile,
I want to see you laugh,
I want to wipe away the tears,
And take away your sorrows,
No matter what I do,
No matter what I say...

I am nothing more to you,
But another shadow,
That will just fade with time,
Into the darkness...
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471 · Feb 2014
Incomplete
Toro Feb 2014
Incomplete
Yearning for that connection,
Teased with it, for all these years,
Blinded by it, enveloped by it,
Finding it again, my only goal,
I miss it, I'm incomplete without it,
A part of me dies, each time,
That it's ripped away,
One day, maybe I'll succeed,
Find it and keep it close,
But odds are, it'll be torn away,
And leave me worse for ware,
Tis better to have loved and lost,
Then to have never loved at all,
They always seem to say,
But it is those that are in love,
Seem to say it most,
Built up and torn down,
Seems to be my curse,
Dangling the prize,
Just outside my reach,
Oh, you almost had it,
So close, yet so far,
An endless battle,
With no end in sight,
A broken soul is like a puzzle,
With missing pieces,
No matter how close you come,
No matter how many pieces you find,
It will never be whole,
It will never be complete...
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465 · Dec 2013
Letting Go
Toro Dec 2013
Letting Go
Looking into her eyes,
I lose myself,
Hearing her voice,
The sound; calming,
Her touch,
Sends chills up my spine,
My eyes close,
I think to myself,
Of what could possibly be,
In a different world than this,
One where I am not who I am,
A place where I am another,
Where I am the one you want,
Where I am by your side,
If only this were that world,
Maybe life would be better,
In this world I walk alone,
As time passes by,
A road travelled by only me,
Only one set of footprints,
Walking the path of life,
In this world, she's taken,
By someone else,
And yet all I do is hope,
And pray at night,
That everyday she wakes,
She wakes with a smile...
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457 · Jul 2013
Sway
Toro Jul 2013
Sway
Our minds race, thoughts collide,
As our goals are left to divide.
People come and people go,
We wish to make it till we grow.
Some are taken in their prime,
Left struggling to make the climb.
While the world crumbles down,
The pain is as if you drown.
One day you're here, gone the next,
Leaving those around perplexed.
We always touch lives, no matter how small,
Never did we think of how it would affect us all.
The leaves fall leaving us bare and broken,
As we're left in silence or soft spoken.
Strength escapes us as the shock sets in,
Our shield can only be so thick; skin.
Life at times will try to tear us apart,
But each time, knowledge does impart.
Never take the things in life we have for granted,
We must learn to move like trees, as we're planted.
As we take each day, never lose sight of the light,
It's the only thing that'll help us through the fight.
Move with everything life throws in your direction,
For everything in life is full of inflection.
Live like there's no tomorrow, don't be led astray,
As the winds of life hit your branches;
               there is but one thing to do; sway...
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450 · Dec 2012
If Only...
Toro Dec 2012
If Only...
Times have been changing...
yet somethings have stayed the same...
I have become a better person...
made myself a new name...

Tried new things, quit others...
met new people, lost some old...
Truths were said to some...
to others lies were told...

No regrets was my motto...
since the beginning of the year...
I sit here today in sorrow...
mulling it over an ice cold beer...

I could of sworn I did it right...
maybe just this one time...
But scorned by her...
as if I had committed a crime...

Left to my own demons...
as I am slowly consumed...
Darkness surrounds me...
sooner than I presumed...

You were the light...
which guided me in the night...
The one who led me to believe...
that I was doing everything right...

You could have save me from it...
saved me from the brink...
In seconds my life shattered...
gone in less than a blink...

I had given you everything...
but you just let it go...
Forgtten I was to be, discarded...
who was I to know...

I take a swig from my beer...
my only friend in my time of need...
The true friend thats there for me...
no matter how much I bleed...

I laugh to think I thought it would work...
17th times the charm...
But now the mere thought of you...
just causes harm...

Numb the pain I tell myself...
just forget it took place...
And yet I can't stop thinking about it...
each time I see your face...

I know I'm not meant for this...
I'm meant for something more...
Something better...
and not to be stepped on like this here floor...

You pushed me away...
when I only wished you the best...
And told you that you were beautiful...
more so than the rest...

You smile and wave like nothings wrong...
yet its there...
You'll never know what could of been...
but where...

Deep down you'll find it...
but I'll be long gone...
Left alone at nights...
waiting for the dawn...

I was there when you needed me most...
when you were lonely...
But you pushed me away and never saw how i felt...
if only...
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431 · Dec 2013
Risk
Toro Dec 2013
Risk
It's difficult to find the words,
When you can't foresee the response;
Fear grips at your soul, the purest intentions,
Leaving you unknowing and scared...

The mind draws up every outcome,
No matter how good or bad they may be;
The uncertainty is unbearable, nerve racking,
All leading up to the point you finally break...

The weight of the world comes down,
Bringing you to your knees;
Unknown is the response that will come,
And yet, the unknown is strangely calming...

They may not know the pain I feel,
Every single time they see me;
Nor do they know how much they mean,
Maybe they too have this same fear...

One can only hope this to be the case,
The world is a strange place;
Crazier things have happened in life,
To sit in the shadows or welcome the light...

Dawn comes each day,
Bringing with it new chances;
New risks and challenges to test us,
We must best them while we still can...

I'll take the risk, once again,
Despite the many failures of my past;
I'm scared, I'll be the first to admit,
But life isn't life without taking those risks...
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428 · Nov 2012
If You Only Knew
Toro Nov 2012
If You Only Knew
I look into your eyes and all doubt leaves my mind,
All my worries and fear are all left behind.
I don't know why you do this to me or how,
All I know this is where I want to be here and now.
Your smile brightens the darkness of any room,
And yet a single thought keeps me in gloom.
We speak about everything, laugh at every joke,
Letting our minds wander, our thoughts provoke.
If you only knew how much you mean to me,
Maybe then would you finally clearly see.
I would climb the highest mountain, swim the largest sea,
Cause when I'm with you, only then do I feel free.
Not a care in the world, but only to see your face,
Every chance I get; just in case.
Each day that goes by I want you to know,
That I'd do anything to be your beau.
There is always that risk that you may not feel the same,
Not knowing how you feel burns inside me like a flame.
And yet, I am just as content with where we are,
Even though the fire will eventually leave a scar.
To see you happy is all I've ever wanted,
And to leave this relationship undaunted.
As much as it hurts to see you by someone elses side,
I would stand by and swallow my pride.
To risk losing you, or hold you at arms length,
Left fighting this battle with all my strength.
Thoughts left in tatters, emotions left hostile,
But in the end, all I want to do is see you smile...
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428 · Feb 2014
Moving As One
Toro Feb 2014
Moving As One
Darkness surrounds us,
Smoke clouds the room,
Bass shakes our core,
Music moves us,
As one solid form,
Your body against mine,
Ecstasy controls me,
Caressing your curves,
Feeling your touch,
Sweat drips to the floor,
You close your eyes,
Move to the beat,
Your body follows mine,
Movements flow smooth,
Your breath grows heavy,
You pull me closer,
Our movements slow,
Time slows to a crawl,
The crowd disappears,
We are in our own world,
An endless moment,
A moment without end,
Or so it would seem,
Alone we dance,
As the world stands still...
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417 · Dec 2012
Searching
Toro Dec 2012
Searching
I stay up late tossing and turning,
As each thought leaves my heart burning,
Longing for that person who would make me complete,
But as the sands of time travel, my life does deplete,
Alone I wander left to walk a lonely road,
Looking down I wish that time slowed,
Down to a crawl so I could find the one,
One that would heal this heart undone,
Traveling down this path called life,
As I see everyone else happy, fife,
The clouds of sorrow always seem to gather,
The second I begin to blather,
Losing myself in my words that keep me sane,
The words that keep at bay my pain,
There is no finish, no finish line,
Not even when the clouds give way to sunshine,
For that light never seems to last,
It always disappears much too fast.
Leaving me in darkness, in a stupor of thought,
Left searching for that which I've always sought...
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384 · May 2013
Hope
Toro May 2013
Hope
We may have lost track of time and everything that goes along with it,
In a world that no matter what we do each day, we will never fit.
No sense of direction in a world that has left us empty and broken,
Where happiness seems to be just out of reach, no matter what's spoken.

Alone in a world where we are different; unlike any other,
One where we will never be good enough for another.
The unspoken truth where we are alone and don't want to feel weak,
Even though we listen to what others say and listen to their critique.

Each word eats away at our core, each thought leads to more pain,
Never good enough, never happy; those thoughts that cross our brain.
Silent tears fall down to the ground, as we struggle to see the light,
Darkness and cold still envelop us, try as we might.

It is tough, for we walk the road of life alone at times,
Even if it feels as though we are paying for another's life crimes,
Hold on to that small glimmer of hope when it all seems to fail,
That glimmer is what will keep us on course, so we don't derail.

Things will get better and we will over come and we will cope,
As we face down our demons; for that thought is our only hope...
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383 · Oct 2016
The Unknown
Toro Oct 2016
The Unknown
Relationships flourish when there is a connection,
And yet both sides are scared to show true affection.
To take a chance and put it all on the line,
And risk looking like you're asinine.
As the bond gets stronger, you begin to question,
The unknown soon becomes your obsession.
Black and white, defined lines in the sand,
Unsure of what to do, frozen where you stand.
Should you do this? What should you say?
To cross the line and turn the colors grey?
A leap of faith is all it seems to take,
It could end well or be another mistake.
The heart burns inside as you make a decision,
As both your fates seem to be heading for collision.
You either make it out alive or watch it unfold,
Unsure of what will be left to behold.
You fight with emotion, you fight with it all,
As you lose yourself in a bottle of alcohol.
The night is long, you say hello to every hour,
As you try to forget all that isn’t in your power.
Peace at last from the thoughts in your head.
Everything goes dark, silence, at least for a while,
But your phone; a text from her with a smile.
It gives you life, it gives you drive and yet also sadness,
As it sets you again on that deadly path to madness.
To find someone as innocent and pure,
So difficult to not succumb to the allure.
And yet you wait until the time is right,
But then she says she found someone the other night.
Crushed, hopes dashed, you never had a chance,
You try to stop yourself from going into a trance.
The struggle in your mind has finally ceased,
Your demons finally have been released.
The decisions been made, out of your control,
Fates have chosen for you, to them you extol.
As much as it pains you, you were blinded,
Made to believe something you minded.
Yes, you loved her, you have a history.
But now your feelings remain a mystery.
Thoughts of you holding her close, tightly embraced,
Sorrow sets in; realizing that you’ve been replaced...
#love #poem #poetry #lost #toro
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360 · Apr 2013
Salvation
Toro Apr 2013
Salvation
It's always one thing or another,
Small things begin to smother.
Brick by brick, the pile grows,
As more of my soul does expose.
Broken, I lay as for answers I search,
Each attempt ends with nothing but lurch.
This feeling eats at my very soul,
Devouring the other emotions whole.
All thats left is despair,
That I fear I will never repair.
A long journey that ends before it begins,
Only to be left with a monument to my sins.
Each breath I take, pains me to the core,
Never again, I would say, I even swore.
The wall I built to keep others out,
Falls at the smallest sign of doubt.
The pain I feel brings me to my knees,
Left with all my demons to appease.
The darkness reaches out as I'm left to repent,
And pray for salvation that is heaven sent.
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