Relationships flourish when there is a connection,
And yet both sides are scared to show true affection.
To take a chance and put it all on the line,
And risk looking like you're asinine.
As the bond gets stronger, you begin to question,
The unknown soon becomes your obsession.
Black and white, defined lines in the sand,
Unsure of what to do, frozen where you stand.
Should you do this? What should you say?
To cross the line and turn the colors grey?
A leap of faith is all it seems to take,
It could end well or be another mistake.
The heart burns inside as you make a decision,
As both your fates seem to be heading for collision.
You either make it out alive or watch it unfold,
Unsure of what will be left to behold.
You fight with emotion, you fight with it all,
As you lose yourself in a bottle of alcohol.
The night is long, you say hello to every hour,
As you try to forget all that isn’t in your power.
Peace at last from the thoughts in your head.
Everything goes dark, silence, at least for a while,
But your phone; a text from her with a smile.
It gives you life, it gives you drive and yet also sadness,
As it sets you again on that deadly path to madness.
To find someone as innocent and pure,
So difficult to not succumb to the allure.
And yet you wait until the time is right,
But then she says she found someone the other night.
Crushed, hopes dashed, you never had a chance,
You try to stop yourself from going into a trance.
The struggle in your mind has finally ceased,
Your demons finally have been released.
The decisions been made, out of your control,
Fates have chosen for you, to them you extol.
As much as it pains you, you were blinded,
Made to believe something you minded.
Yes, you loved her, you have a history.
But now your feelings remain a mystery.
Thoughts of you holding her close, tightly embraced,
Sorrow sets in; realizing that you’ve been replaced...

Yearning for that connection,
Teased with it, for all these years,
Blinded by it, enveloped by it,
Finding it again, my only goal,
I miss it, I'm incomplete without it,
A part of me dies, each time,
That it's ripped away,
One day, maybe I'll succeed,
Find it and keep it close,
But odds are, it'll be torn away,
And leave me worse for ware,
Tis better to have loved and lost,
Then to have never loved at all,
They always seem to say,
But it is those that are in love,
Seem to say it most,
Built up and torn down,
Seems to be my curse,
Dangling the prize,
Just outside my reach,
Oh, you almost had it,
So close, yet so far,
An endless battle,
With no end in sight,
A broken soul is like a puzzle,
With missing pieces,
No matter how close you come,
No matter how many pieces you find,
It will never be whole,
It will never be complete...

I would always hold my head up high,
Trying to make you smile when things seem dark,
Never do I expect anything in return,
My voice would always speak those reassuring words,
Letting you know that everything is alright,
Wishing away all the harm from ever being near,
Protecting you from pain and putting myself in its path,
Giving everything I know up so that you are happy,
I hold you closer than you will ever know,
You'll never know how I feel when you're smiling at me,
My knees tremble, my palms grow cold,
I refuse to let these things show, bright as day,
Pulse races when you touch my skin,
Fighting the urge I hold my tongue,
Your heart is held by another, one I will never be,
Being who I am, I will never step in the way,
The happiness you have is more important,
Than the feelings I may have,
I want whats best for you, to never shed a tear,
Stifle those emotions I feel, not risking pushing you away,
I'd rather have you as a friend than not at all,
It pains me to see you with another, but no matter,
I'll be here, whenever it is you need me...