It surely is difficult to fathom
How the mere act of reaching out to someone in need
Can save the whole world
Shining light on a soul
Shines light on us all
By saving someone else
You save yourself

I cannot care for you
Dragonfly
If you can't care for yourself
Broken cloud
And all the love I gave
Silent tomb
Becomes wasted
Little one

I think
it is best
that I
lay this ghost
to rest

If I
Am truly
Meant to
Be haunted
Posessed

Her spirit knows where I am
I'll reach no more
Unless she's reaching
I'm not waiting
I'm ready

I keep spilling all my blood
Every little drop of me another word
My arteries are highways to your heart
My veins becoming empty
My heart is on display
And let the critics say as they want

I keep cutting into my skin
With proverbial knives sharpened quick
My organs regurgitating hymns
My stomach tied in nots
My brilliance burning bright
In an effort to become the dawn

I keep killing myself
Everyday speaks as my proof
My dreams are beautiful music
My goal an opened eastern wall
Don't worry if I'm hurting
My pain is all for glory

And its only when I can give of myself no more
When all my skin is spent
And my bursting head is split wide open
I'm giving my all
Even if it kills me
Don't worry I am dying but it makes me happy

A poet is an artist
Not a mimic
Copy.....
Paste
A word here or there
A feeling before
Said again
With less meaning
And no feeling
A poet is an artist
And artists create
A soul......
Soul
Soul is original
Displayed on a page
Like never before

No one else can say what you say
The way you say it

Hello poetry confirmed my belief
In cynacism
If a poet can't live for others
Death is better

Maybe something simple will suffice
I can see a lot of light
But I love even your darkness
My fingers spell your name
In dead languages
I can't read, but I can sing
Even louder than your demons scream

Maybe its not as simple as I would like
I can see a lot of life
But death in your hair I want to hold
My fingers draw your face
There's no color, but every line
Becomes the reason I will live
Even the pain you feel is my hope for tomorrow

Don't let the distance drag me down
It's only as always
One
   Step
        At
           A
             Time
And I know where I need to be

So if I'm dying to live,
It is a noble sacrifice
If I'm reaching for stars,
But grabbing only hateful clouds

If I bleed from my mouth
Again

It will mean everything
If my blood becomes a stain on your h
                                                               ­   ear
                                                          ­          t

My next foot step falls in your direction
And if I fall at all
Its only because I know you'll catch me
Even if I'm falling hard

Don't let the distance drag me down
Space is relative

It's only as always
One
   Step
        At
           A
             Time
And time is never ending
My feet lead me to you
My song
Your                               H
               E                       A                         R
                                                               ­                      T

As wrong as the clouds that gather on horizons but never bring rain
My heart beats your name in silence from fear you may hear it
I love you more than your skin, your eyes, your smile, your warmth
I love you as you heal me, and I heal you
That you grow flowers or thorny vines around my mind
                                          I'll feel pain or joy
                                         I want you to grow
So grow in me as darkness or life
                                  Whatever you choose to be
                                                              ­     Whatever you are
                                                             ­                      Whatever becoming me
Grow on me as wings

Just listen......
Because the song I sing
Is for you alone
And my notes are all the tender lights I had to fight demons to keep
I'll shine, I'll burn, I'll work, I'll die
My love,
                                             I'll grow wings
And my feathers harbor with each barb a piece of your soul
I never could fly
Without you

My shotgun smile
Laugh away the edge
You know I love you
And you love the way we're intertwining
I love the way way the blood spills

My shotgun smile
A sun dial and music
Always time that's true
And your time is all that is me
I'm happy as can be

My shotgun smile
Loaded with dreams
Sweetest schatzi
I'm aiming for your heart
The place we start

My shotgun smile
You intruder
You know I love you
The way you break and enter
I know your face

The world wasn't made for lovers
It was made for those
Who smile in your face
And then stab you in the back
I don't see the satisfaction you get
From watching me bleed
You smile in my face
As my blood drips from your knife
Do you live to watch me die?
Is your hand so wicked
That you offer it to me
with hateful intentions?

You smile in my face
While you're killing me
You look into my eyes
Just to make sure the life is leaving them

He posits a question
I sit
I postulate
Morning suns are sparks on cinder
In my eyes
Evening suns are dying embers
In my eyes
The sun that lives over me
And the hidden face of the moon
That lives in me
And all manner of day and night
That becomes me
A living ghost
A dying host
A warrior
A coward
An old soul
A young man
He asks a simple question
But there is no simple answer

All your love becomes your soul
Your soul becomes your day
Your power in heart
Your power in man
Your power in nature
Your power in peace
The truth must light the way
Your eyes looking for joy
Knowledge is a goddess who won't rest
A beautiful fruit called heaven
A courage to grow
A courage to need
A courage to matter
Your courage to believe
The spirit of a flower lives within
Blooming eternally as it must

My soul is litter on a highway
I hold my eyes closed with my hands because I don't want you to see
Oh, how it was useful before
Now merely disgarded debris
Garbage that is still in love with you

My words that sound so sweet
I whisper delicate meaning because I lack the strength to scream
Oh, how I used to sing before
Now I'm only crying into clouds
Raindrops that burn and blow sideways

My heart is a broken sun
Rising still in my body and crossing the sky in your mind
Oh, how it used to give you warmth
Now the winters coming
And the sun is a cruel reminder

My love is a pile of ashes
Fragmented and distorted as a garden with no flowers
Oh, how it used to hold such scent
It used to live inside you
And as a phoenix it will live again

Ë

I fell once
Straight through the ground
I cratered the world with my impact
Past caves of darkness littered with gemstones
My hands could never hold
I was falling
Falling so hard that my body was breaking
And my mind was finding only new pits of despair
Down forever into the realms where demons claim to own
My home a firey tomb
And so I fell
What I thought to be eternal descent
My inertia to lead me to the depths of hell
And I thought I would stay there
Maybe forever
But still I fell
And kept falling onwards
My plummet of such immense proportion
That I fell straight through the world
To come out on the other side

And I was alright

The barefoot southerner walks the land
He revels in charming Appalachia
A smile of his home

How to make our way out west?

The skies are eternal loving arms
Wrapped around the mountains
A feeling of home

How to make our way out west?

The sunset of the Cumberland ridge
The sky becomes blood in your veins
A heartbeat of home

How to make our way out west

I see a dove
Wistful feathers and broken wing
I see a dove
A token in my heart of love
Only the white-wedded joy to bring
My eyes that tear as mind does sing
I see a dove

I place nothing above you
Songbirds sing sweetly in my ears
But you fly higher
Clouds grow and form shapes
But the form that shapes in my mind is your face
The moon is out of reach
But you are a light that shines brighter in my night
The sun can rise and set over me a million times
And the stars beyond
I place nothing above you
Because I love you

I place nothing above you
Not hope or joy or love or life
I would eat your pain
Let your cancer spread through me
And destroy me completely
Let your sorrow become tears I must shed
Let your darkness swallow me whole
I take a misstep and lose my way a thousand times
But I'm found again if you find me
I place nothing above you
Because I love you

What if I have nothing to say?
What if my muse has gone away,
Taking her sweet breath that gave wind to my wings?
Her being the only reason I'll ever fly

What if I have nothing to say?
Nothing to explain?
No pleasure or plan
Only numbness growing as a shadow on my soul

What if?

These words are my tools
And I have complete control
Mastery
My game is playing with sound
My perfection is seen upon a page
What if?
Even with these tools
These nails that scratch your skin
My mallet the thunderous hammer of Thor
My ***** driving into your thoughts
My wrenching of your emotions
I could not build a thing
Only destroy

What if?

It could turn quite ugly

Luckily
We won't have to worry about that today
Because my muse stays
She loves me
Even if she can't show me plainly
She does
Its just


Its just complicated
That's all

The sun with its blazing light
Its furious fight to bring life back to the night
The sun is going to shine
And I
Am going to love you

The ocean with its forever water
Its currents intrinsic as something we feel
The tides are going to rise
And I
Am going to love you

The moon with its mystery
It pocked-marked surface reflecting our eyes
The moon is going to wax
And I
Am going to love you

The spring with its new life
Its warm rain and blossoms and flowers
The spring is going to arrive
And I
Am going to love you

My wish on the stars becomes my home
Wings and legs and hands driven
Home is the place where my heart is
A taste of honey on my tongue I won't too soon forget
My wish on the stars happens only in darkness
When the sun that gives me life hides behind horizons
Darkness of the type when moons are waning
I fall into her
Into her night

My hopes are a season changing to spring
Growth and love and peace becoming
Spring when the flowers blooming
Become the sweetest nectar on my lips
To taste the salt of her skin is my sole ambition
My hopes grow stronger through my pain
When these bitter days and suns that set
Steal away the pristine light of life at dusk
I fall into her
Into her night

Haiku's are failed art
While trying to match a scheme
You forget your heart

I have a life alright
I have my eyes to give me sight
I have my muscles all my might
I have the sunset and the night
I only want to be
To be me
But reality
Its a bitter game I play

They're jumping
From the golden gate bridge
And in my mind
So am I

How much can I really take?
Can I be good for goodness sake?
Or will San Andreas earthquakes
Make even Harlem shake?
I wanted to love
I want to talk with god above
Wings of a dove
Can't fly into my heart

Still they're jumping
From the golden gate bridge
And in my mind
So
Am
I

Four lines cannot constitute poetry
No imagery, no metaphor
And despite the immense feeling behind it
This is not a poem

And I may upset you
You writer
When I say
The words you spill upon a page
Awaken nothing in me
Nothing I haven't known before
Nothing at all
That I couldn't say
In a manner of the moon hanging above a nightime bay
As the ships roll in
And then roll away

I may upset you
You rider
When I say
Your horses lack the power
To carry me away
To a place I haven't been before
No place to find
Cornered in the eddies of my mind
And as unreachable by amateur hands
As the farthest star I can only dream

I may upset you
Fellow poet
Because my prose is cosmos speaking through me
And you know it as you fear it
As some indescribable tongue
Making sounds
You never even knew existed
And even after hearing
You can't imagine

I may upset you
But I know its only because
You lack the ability
To see beauty and embrace it
As something to learn from

You are the weather of my soul
My fingers are trembling ships racing
Trying to reach an island
Where the seabirds play
In the light of a never ending sunset
Why now,
Are the storms raging silent?!
That I can see the tumultuous lightning
And feel the rain as it pounds onto my skin
But the gutteral growl of thunder
The instinct imparted from the crackling sky does die
And my ears listen to the sound of the beginning
My greatest fear
Silence
When there was nothing at all
And nothing again
In the end

You are the weather of my soul
The way a humid ninety-degree day invites the rain
And my fingers are song birds flying
Trying to reach the nest
A place to call home
My songbird fingers
Your skin
I can feel your pain
Still
I can't hear your voice
Silence is my greatest fear

Oh, my jaded love
My sunshine day
My storm
Encompassing me
My flood
Silence is my greatest fear
So talk to me!
Even if what is said
Is nothing I want to hear
You are nothing more than everything
The weather of my soul
My love
And even if its raining stinging drops of violent pain
Where you are
I want to hear it

Oh, the flow
The rising tide
And deep below

The magic was penniless
A family man
A ride on course
A seahorse

Oh, the ebb
Receding sea
And ocean floor

The love was palpable
Singing mermaids
With no remorse
A seahorse

Oh, the waves
The way they crash
And batter at my shore

The cruel nautical nightmare
Of sharks and sinking ships
Still held a dream inside
A seahorse

Fire! Fire!
Of longing and desire
That which burns the strongest man
To ash

Jaws! Jaws!
The gnashing hellish teeth
That which destroys the strongest soul
To bits

When I see the smoke,
I must breathe it in
Even if it suffocates
And blackens my lungs

Fire! Fire!
I cannot fear the flame
My only choice is to hold it in my hands
Or die.....

Her love is April,
April thunder storms,
So in May the flowers bloom,
And everyday grows a little bit warmer

Her tempermental,
Her tempestuous,
As the spring melts the snow and ice;
Her smile a sun

Her heart, her words
Are singing birds,
Greeting the end of winter,
And welcoming me back to life

Her love is april

She
Told
Me
She
Loves
The
Smell
Of
My
Sweat

She
Loves
Everything
About
Me

I wish I could say the same for her

I see you walking through gardens
Every footfall a flower growing
Hyacinths and crocuses
Roses blood red in color
I see you in the garden
That began all humanity
All the love
Inside of me

I see you traipsing in the night
Your hands creating stars
Dust becoming light
Which shines onto my soul
I see you flying in the darkness
Your hope becomes my dream
Love divine
On angel wings

I see you dancing in the rain
Your hair wet with emotion
Your heart beating into me
So that I may feel
That my battered hands may touch
Your skin a broken cloud
Creating life
Inside of me

I taught you the skin of the wolf                                                 I                                        
My skin                                                             ­                                 saw                           ­ 
These fangs as a pretty smile                                                    you   ­                                         
My smile                                                            ­                        in                                    
                                                                ­                                           the                                      
These fangs.....                                                       ­                              rain                              
dripping blood from the last ****                                 You
But hungry still                                                            ­         promised                                  
Always hungry                                                          ­                     me                            
Always on the prowl                                                            ­                 your
These sharpened razor teeth                                                            ­         blood                
This lust and flesh for meat                                                             ­                              I  
                                                                ­                                                          promised
I taught you the heart of a wolf                                                         you
It's only beating                                                          ­                     a
To hunt                                                             ­                    flood

**I want you to die
Into me

You play with the light of the universe
You place the stars within my sight

its only a distant world I'm trying to reach
My ever eternal home

You paint color onto the dark
You place the blue iris in my eyes

And the empty space between the stars
Can only be filled by your love

You dance with the dying suns
And move within me as my heart beat

And even the blood I bleed
Spills to spell your name

Your mind is a shining cosmos
Containing every part of me

You were born as a supernova
You are my beginning and my end

Your love is the first star
And the last one

I was always content to fall into darkness
To fade into nothingness
My light could only could only shine so bright
That it was blinding
If no one can see
What's the use in showing?
but you can see me
At times it only would seem that the hands that touch me
Are nothing I can feel
I was only looking at endings
Final chapters in a novel about ghosts and wishing wells
A finished story
And even the meaning behind it is lost
but you can reach me
I was
But how can I be now
Now that I've found you!
I was always becoming
But you showed me how to be
What I want to be
A rock on a shoreline
Pounded and pounded by the cruelest waves
But still standing strong
Still standing
I was always content with nothing
But you showed me something
Something about you is everything
Everything I ever dreamed
And if I was content to die before
At this point I want nothing more
That to show you love
And I'll burn as the brightest star
With all my might
I'll be a light
To guide you home at night
I was always content before
Now
I look for something more
I look to you

Don't worry my love
Not when clouds crowd the broken horizon
It is not a threat of rain
But rather the promise of gifts life-giving

Fall on me from the greatest heights
Fall on me heavy like a stone

Do not worry my love
Because an unseen hand guides me
Tempers the flames of the fires of hell
And controls it in a wood stove
Only so we may be warm

Dare not worry my love
Because if these dark thoughts grow
They grow in life and not death
And I am still alive
Still striving to reach you
To hold you
To paint your naked body
With the color of my kiss
Every part of you
All your skin

Don't worry my love
I am learning how to walk
On water

If not for my eyes
Grown accustomed to being lost in the woods
Entrenched in the subtle darkness that is always collapsing
Without color I see gray figures in the night
But I can't imagine their faces
If not for my eyes
I would have never seen you
If not for my ears
The noise of bitter cries and longing screams
The disarranged voice of love not speaking louder than the din
Without music I can still hear melodies
But the key would keep on changing
If not for my ears
You could not speak to me
If not for my nose
The stench of life and its rotting carcass
The odeous wind of putrid odor that finds me even in fields
within the stink I still smell your perfume
But the aroma is gone to soon
If not for my nose
I could not have smelt you
If not for my tongue
Often times abrubt and razor wire
The bitter flavor of the most sour and hateful food
Only wanting of sugar and honey
But going without
If not for my tongue
I go my life without your taste
If not for my skin
These hands which hold broken glass
These frayed out nerve endings too many times feeling pain
But desirious of pleasure
Carnal knowledge
And stimulation
If not for my skin
I never would have felt you

I want nothing more
Sea floors where we find the remnants of ancient merchants
Sunken while simply searching for profit
Soul entwined in sand and phosphorus
Body becoming whole with the glimpse of tomorrow
The marrow of my bones dwindling as light becomes food for my soul
I want nothing more that this
That I set my youthful mind on a distant star
And even time that ends will not keep me from reaching
Wine corks opened by delicate hands
Fingers that touch softly making me feel more
The warmth of my skin
The sound of my love in your beating heart
I want nothing more!
Nothing at all
Not a fistful of money and a palace to sleep in
Private jets and private islands
Where the air sings my name as I glide through her
And the sand on the beach wants me to lay beside her
I want nothing more
Than to be as beautiful as I am to you now
In my prime years of life, young, and eager hearted
Your visceral experience that taught me to dream
My dreams that spoke through the fog standing heavy in your soul
Your soul as a place my beauty alone reaches
I want
As simply said as the forgotten memories
The dead languages and foreign customs
The consumed today as garbage tomorrow
The son of the sun only rising knowing he will set
And be a glorious evening before all manner of darkness falls
I want only
That the beauty displayed by my face
In it's fresh form and grace
Is not
Could not
Would never be!
As beautiful to you
As my soul grown old
I want
That you will think me
As beautiful in my twilight
As I was
When I was young
That with each passing day
You love me more

I want

Its your name
And her favorite color
You only want to play guitar
She only wants to hear
I wonder where you are
She wonders where you are
Because you've never had a home
Without her

The time hurts
The day ones
The words say
Love
The end knows
The heart feels
The mind chose
Love

Its your night
And her hope for tomorrow
You only want to sing and dance
She longs to dance with you
I wonder how you've been
She wonders how you've been
Because you never seem to smile
Without her

The rain points
The tears pile
The mind screams
Love

But all your seeing now
When you look into the sky
You've never seen color
Without her

We never spoke the language of soil
These poison loving tears
These seeds are growing nightmares
This cruel green cause
Its only a pain within a writhing mind
Sharpened knives and sharded glass
Even if its my blood that's hoping to fall
I'll bleed forward
The angry road the watching street
The stranger beneath the lamp post
This killing highway
She dies into the future
Its always a war of sleeping stones
And breathing hidden storms
The fires of hell
And a bottle of honey

Must I explain myself?
All for nothing
I'll explain that you won't understand
Because my heart beats the same as anyone's
And hey
I can bleed as well as anyone
else

Must I explain myself?

Most people are living to die
I'm only dying to live

Somewhere near the globe
Where the ghost of Elizabethan actors
Still roam the streets

London Bridge Is Falling Down

I think about Buckingham Palace
Where the guards protect the queen
Who cries all the time

London Bridge is falling down

Somewhere close to Big Ben
Where the Westminster Chimes
Still haunt the ears

London Bridge is falling down

The prison cells in the Tower Of London
Where sacred life becomes apparition
And weeps at the thought

London Bridge is falling down

I just want to be numb
I want to be dumb

All day
           is
             all day
It's a long day
To make me feel this
                                    way
Always
            in
              all ways
There's no wrong way
To drink my
                                      poison

A reminder that if I've lost
I still have options

Your eyes as I have always seen them                              l
More beautiful in reality than the way I dream them              y
Your eyes are oceans of endless beauty              a                  
Your eyes; ocean            i                                               ­           r    
Your skin; beach                                    y                       o                  L
Your hair; stars                         M
Your smile; moon                                             i
Your love a night watching the tide roll in            g                              
                   ­                                          D                                                                ­      
And I'm a lonely sailor             a
Storms are raging brought in by your horizons                l                        
Brutal thunderous squalls                                  n
Walls of water fall as rain                      L                      y
Tears to drown us all
                                                         f
Your eyes as I believe them                              A
More astounding than any scene from imagination
Your eyes are oceans of endless feeling
Your eyes; ocean
Your words; wind
Your heart; seagulls
Your soul; capsizing ships              
Your love a night watching the tide roll out

                       ---OCEAN AIR SUBDUE---

Your eyes are my demise              
My death is your ocean floor
Your seas are angry currents
Painful waves thrashing into rocks
And crushing my very soul

You love me
By loving my words
These words that I write
Are a part of me
My love
My soul
Every better dream I hold
You love me
By reading my words
Your the reason I write
Your a part of me
My truth
My hope
Every light I'll ever show

Still my doubt
For every sunrise
A sunset
For every love found
A love lost
What if my words never reach you?
What if this sunset is the last
And the world sinks into darkness?
Eternal night without the song the moon sings

You love me
By loving my words
A physical extension of my soul
A part of me
My love for you
Every reason I have to be strong

And my fear
These words I write
Are never seen by your garden eyes
A pain I can't bear
If you don't read the words I write
I see no more reason to fight
And the kiss of my thoughts
Never reaches your mind

You love me
I'll write a summer for you
Even if you feel winter in your soul
I love you
And my words are all the proof
You'll ever need to see the truth

I saw your name growing in the trees
Light peaking through the canopy
Roots digging deeply into me
Flowers that were once merely seeds

I feel the grief
Of a falling leaf
A forest floor
and forgotten love

I heard my yearning spoken by ferns
Poetical lines grasping like vines
Enthralling as the pollen
Flowers that were once merely seeds

I see the end
In a broken limb
I feel the grief
Of a falling leaf

Your more beautiful than nature to me
Its only natural
That when this concrete jungle grows around me
I'll miss you