I wash the trace of you out of me
It’s the same
I try and play it cool when you play this game
Standing in the rain I feel the pain
I’m slowly falling apart
I can taste you on my lips the sweetness of your curves
I look around my mind calls
I did not expect to feel this way
I hate its beyond my control
Closing my eyes I see you
I miss you when your not here
You’re the sun and I’m the rise
I want to be your surprise
I would bottle you up and drink you down
You taste better than a fine wine
Why can’t I see clearly
You fog my head
Tantalize my body
Make me weak and make me cry
I need you please
Perhaps for the night
We can lay upon the ground
Not take anymore more time
To let you know
That I’m lost yet I know I need you
I can’t shake you I bleed
Why do you swim in my head ?
One day I was fine then you came along
One taste of you and I was gone
Lips affecting my heart
I want to deplete all the color so  I can’t see
Go further from myself
Keep from yearning you all of the time  
You pull me closer to life
Then I have ever felt
I find myself looking in the dead of the night
If you don’t want me let me be free
It's your choice not mine

There is a storm in my heart
That is destroying the foundation  
Its freezing and callous
Causing all kinds of unrecognizable distortions
Can’t seem to regain the truth
My life is uninspired
Some say I have lost my way
I can’t seem to keep track of the day
Or dry my eyes of this hate
Why do I do this to myself ?
Don’t I care about my life ?
Another sleepless night that I’ll regret
It will play games with my sanity yet
Can I distribute my pain ?
Spread it to others like a disease
I call out your name to find reality
All alone not free
Don’t cry for me
Or wish me safety
Just wish me death
At ease I’ll be

Laying here alone
upon a bed
of unread poetry...

inkstained fingers
smudge my eyes
and
taint my lips.

I scream in exclamation marks!

If only one line
one word
could describe my need
of you
would I even know it...

want...no

desire...not even close

Forever...forever tastes right upon my tongue

if only
if only

If only that one word could be ours

would I write no more.

A cold wind blows into my soul
like a ghost dances
to the beat of a heart that's been broken
by the promise of words.  
Until, there is no more time left to ache
for what has not fallen
from the air you breathe
to be seen or heard.

Your silence speaks inside of me,
calling out to be tears
selfishly chaining this cold wind
inside of my soul,
to remain.  
All that I love has been painted
by the promise.................
of your words,
and the sweetest sound I know
is your voice
caressing my name.

As if anger is never enough when it comes to me fleetingly, sparingly,
sweetly if you'd believe it,
I'd taste it and spew it back out into rainbows that land in thorns surrounding you
I want to hurt you, I want to be alone

My whole life I've been trying to help people
I've been trying to help and draining myself
I'm used to the kind of air that leeches off of me,
the kind of folks that leech off of me,
the state of being of shame, for the ways I can't keep myself alive

And I try and stop trying, live and keep dying
moving and stopping
If I open my eyes near you I become too repulsed to keep rhythm
If I listen to you I sink faster into the places where I can't feel

But with you before I've felt the sky in a million flavors
And I've cried in a million colors
And now, I have a million ways to say that I'm confused.
But I'm done.

We are the tribes of midnight
that walk the hour glass sand,
with eyes forever open
as we seek the promised land.

We wear bed sheets of mourning
and pillows on ours heads,
as we ride lost together
upon worn out feather beds.

If you should see us coming
be sure to close your eyes,
or else be forced to join us
where nobody ever lies.