have you ever wanted to be
no where?

you don't want to be
here
you don't want to go
there
you don't want to be
out
but you don't want to go
home
you don't want to be
anywhere
you don't want to feel
anything
you wish time would
stop
and you could remain
frozen
non-existent
numb

for just a little while

The more I try to swim
The more I learn to drown

It's nice here after all
This bumfuck town
Think I'll miss it
When I finally move
Back to the city
This summer
There's space here
Like there used to be
In my home town
Up north
Summers are pure and green
I think I'll miss it
Maybe I was never a city girl after all.