i'm sick of this crush culture
where everyone wants to be in love with looks
and no one wants to be in love with personality

i see you
and feel nothing
i see you
and want to feel something

i always approach new people
everyone thinks i'm just that social
but i'm actually just scared of boredom

i can never think of something to write
when i feel like writing
but when i force myself
to look at my keyboard
thoughts stumble around
sentences are put together
and yet i do not understand all of them
but i write them down
for you
and for me
i hope that i will one day understand it all

my head feels so full
and so empty
at the same time
it feels like nothing
and everything
at the same time

he changed
and not for the better
i may have become
bitter
but it's only because i mourn
the person he once
was

And I saw beauty
Beyond imagination
When I closed my eyes