Crash         my bed tonight
tears-swelling in my eyes
I should have known

I should have known
not           let my heart get the best of me

I lied to it
Now it       breaks

Shatters into a million.      little.      pieces.

Falling to my floor
I will leave them there(forever)

Last time
was the Last Time I will fix myself up again

My mind        deceiving
playing games
just like the man who assisted        my heart’s suicide

But he is not to  blame.
it is MY foolish mind
for he doesn’t know
how I feel

And he never will.

No one ever will.

What do you see in me that’s not good enough
What does she have that makes her right




And to think
this was the worst heartbreak of them all…

My mother is a shell
Fragile- it's not hard to tell
That her voice trembles in fear
When he yells for her to grab a beer

My own daughter
Thinks I'm fragile- weak
I'm not brave enough to tell her
His hands are too heavy to speak

You're nice,
Not just nice, but really caring,
Risky of me to say, but I'm daring,
Cause no boy,
Not just a boy,
No man wants to hear that he's nice.

You're giving,
Not just rarely, but always giving,
Even without thinking, just always willing,
To me,
Not just to me,
But everyone we know.

Your diplomatic,
Not just fair, but really clever,
Easily bringing people back together,
With reason,
Not just what you say,
But your whole attitude.

Your understanding,
Not just patient, but calming and gentle,
Even when everyones going a bit mental,
Okay,
Not just everyone,
But mainly me.

I'm selfish,
Spoilt and moody and causing trouble,
Been living in my own little bubble,
For long,
Not just long,
But forever before I met you.

But you're nice
So perfect, it makes me look at me,
And re-evaluate the way I want to be,
Better,
Not just better,
But more like you.

The difference between
knowing YOUR ****
and knowing YOU'RE ****.

I want to earn it
Like the knights did the queens
Your love, heart and soul