i'm getting closer
to being OK
with keeping our love
in my pocket

today i feel you
this magic love
resonates like bass
deep in my chest
presses gently on my heart
a reminder
we are here
we are alive
we are love

my legs are kicking wildly
pushing me away
trying to get out from under
your oppression
your wringing of my soul

i know i went willingly
in the beginning
but now i have to stop it
before it's too late

O divine lover
heart liberator
with magic in your eyes
and the purest of hearts

i don't deserve you

but i love you

you don't want to say it
but i do

an expression of me, of us
words that carry feeling
depth
importance

words that sing
from my heart to yours

my collection
gems
i have them hidden
i hold them dear

precious time

a kiss
your face
our laughs

overflowing
like
me

you are divine
my savior
i cherish you

love
love
LOVE
you

kissing you was easy
bliss
a firework
the realization

"this is just the beginning"
nothing will ever be the same

lingering, savoring
"what happens now?"

--------everything
----------anything

the way you look at me
keeps changing

your eyes tell
     how deep
     how much
     how precious

we embrace now
like cradling this gem-of-a-thing
like savoring a rare,
                           fleeting,
                           wonderful,
                           incredible
                           experience

we know

you thought i was going to work
but i went north instead

driving fast around the curves
until the road's end

i have to get to the top
to the highest point

it's the farthest i can get from you
and the closest to the sky

maybe the wind will just
******* away

today
my peaceful river
reached a waterfall
i tumbled down
deep, deep
to the bottom

my sorrow
like the roaring noise
water's strength
water's howl

tomorrow
my river flows
wraps my mending heart
puts back in me
some hope

i see you cherish
i feel you loving

these things give me hope

for my tiny rebel heart

i'm a secret
hiding in plain sight

you probably feel me
or hear me sneaking at night

i can give you a hint
if you really want to know

but most of the time
it's better to let me go

you can't be my craving
you have to be my constant
not something i am always
grasping for
reaching for more

you have to be
always inside
peacefully flowing

here
not here

with you
without you

joy
sorrow

can we be two things
at once?

dot
dot
dot

did i make it awkward
or did you?

-me
--always me