I want to be as vulnerable as I can around you.
I’m trying my hardest.
I really am.
I cry because I’m scared.
Scared that you will hurt me.
Scared that you are just using me even after you told me you are not.
I love you I really do.
But it is so scary trying to be vulnerable when you have been vulnerable with others and they just use it against you.
They hurt you.
You promised that you would never hurt me but I don’t know what to believe anymore.
I want to believe you.
Trust you.
Love you.
I want to be vulnerable with you but I am scared not only of you but of myself.
Scared that you will leave me because I push you away.
Scared that you will use this vulnerability against me.
Scared that I’m gonna hurt you.
I don’t know what I’m doing in this confusing relationship.
But I’m trying my hardest to be vulnerable with you.
I want you to see the parts of me no one else sees.
I want to trust you.
Love you.
Believe you.
I want to be vulnerable with you and I want you to be able to be vulnerable with me.
But please promise me you won’t use it against me.
That you won’t hurt me.
I love you and I trust you.
So please don’t break my heart and use my vulnerability against me.