paralyzed
inside my own head
what value is prized?

trapped
underneath my skin
has my sanity snapped?

confined
within my own heart
has my future made me blind?

day by day i look for moments to hold
they seem to run faster each time
each one is a story to be told
maybe in the form of a rhyme?

where are the moments
when my heart is certain
the clock is my component
these moments hold just one person

i will learn to run faster
till i can catch up with that arrow
turning and rushing past her
that window is so so narrow

hold it close and near
love without limits
but when time seems to disappear
whisper, "5 more minutes."

dear thoughts,
please leave me alone
for awhile
don't get me wrong,
it was nice having you
but i think it's about time you get going.
we had a good time for awhile,
discussing all the ways
we could shape the future into
something new.
but you said more than you should've.
you moved your piece too soon and the board tipped.
the game is over.
your'e words pierced my heart and never said sorry.
so, i'm afraid we must move on.
we just don't get along.
here is the door, drive safe on the way home.
farewell, thoughts, please don't return.

cloudy cloudy brain
where are the directions
to the beginnings
the map is written
in a foggy room
and i can't see where the
arrow is pointing

holding you close
as the sun disappears
leaving behind a rainbow ocean
for me and you

your warmth
is one i have never felt
cordial feelings
wrap around my heart

how did i get so lucky?
i can only try not to explode
from the pure and utter jubilation
that you bring to existing

endless circles
are the shape of my mind

feeling hollow is tradition
not one i'd like to keep

where are the reasons
that my heart keeps beating?

i can't seem to find them today.
lost in the void

uncertainty took me captive
and frankly, it was rude

attachment is an addiction
i can't seem to depart from
how do I break through
when i'm already broken?

why do i feel the incapability
to believe what is true
transported emotions
cloud my way of thinking

who gave them the right?
to journey through my mind
they aren't mine
so why do they haunt me at night?

this addiction is a mystery
to myself and others
why do i
c o n n e c t

why do i
d i s c o n n e c t