Letting go is not
forgetting what happened it
is moving past it.

One year, two, three
All of it blurs together.
My whole childhood,
gone in the blink of an eye.
Washed away with the waves of Huron.
In this moment,
the last of an era,
I want to stay.
I want to gather it,
pieces and fragments of seventeen years,
Into a blanket, surrounding me.
Close to me, within reach,
So it can't escape me.
Like if I wade in this deep blue,
Further and further,
I won't grow up.

My thoughtful being wonders, ponders still
stuck, darkness. Questions, why do I exist?
I'm monstrous, worthless, one pathetic mist
of human. Truly undeserving, nil.
Alone, left crying, why would someone drill
through my shield, deeper. People know the tryst
invented by by me, for me. My own wrist
conveys the story. People say I'm ill.

Yet, hiding inside darkness, I find light.
There's people loving me, relentless, my
fate still engraved upon their hearts. The pain
held always in abandoned souls isn't right.
I fight for family, friends, for being high
off love, I can continue staying sane.

What do you see
when you look into my eyes?
Do you see what I see?
I see a beautiful light,
A spark,
that I want to reach out and grab.
I want to make it mine,
Make it ours.
Do you see it too?

My life
Is a mess right now.
And I'm doing my best
To sort it all out.
I'm sorry if I hurt you
Along the way.
I'm just trying
To take it day by day.
Whatever happens
I want you to know.
I love you
Even if I don't
Always let it show.

So much to think about,
My mind is spinning round and round.
Who am I, who will I be
If I release the real me.
Hidden away I am safe from the world,
But there will be a time when all of me is revealed.
I am scared to let myself be free,
No one would ever love the real me.

I want you gone.
Removed from my heart,
Erased from my brain,
Eradicated from my skin.
As if you were never there,
Your fingertips never traced my lips,
And your words never wound their way into my memory.

If only I had known our love wasn't made to last,
I need never be ruled by the ghosts of my past.

I miss you.
The urge to reach
across the void possesses me
I desperately want to
close the space I have created between us
pull you flush against my chest and
shake you until it sinks in
and you come to realize that
I MISS YOU

But a hypocrite I am not
So i retreat
back to my own side
and hope that my thoughts
will penetrate your doubt.

The way you make me feel
is remarkable.
Your smile,
Your laugh,
Your touch.
You don't even have to try
One little gesture,
Sends me off the edge.
Falling so fast
and I'm loving the rush.
It's all because of you.

The world is filled
With hate
With anger
With jealousy
that consumes the soul.
Evil
Creatures so hideous,
That we attempt to trap them inside.
But within,
There is a spark
of hope.
We must endure
And continue to feed the flame
Before it goes out
Forever.

When someone
comes into your life
And fills your dreary days
with joy
How do you let them go?

When they made you so happy
Every moment
Of every day.
You fell apart
And they pieced you back together
How do you forget that?

They gave your life meaning
You woke up every day
with a purpose
To love them.
You fell so hard,
and now they're gone.
How do you say that you miss them?
How?

I miss you
Every day
I try so hard to forget you
But my feelings won't go away.

Why is it so hard
To move on with my life?
I say I'm just fine
But every moment without you
Causes me strife.

Maybe I'm not good enough
To deserve your love
But it's all I truly want
We fit together perfectly
Hand into glove.

As I sit alone on this day
My thoughts remain with you
You can have them all
And my heart too.

special skills? well, i
write depressing poetry
late at night, sometimes.

What does it feel like
to be abandoned by hope?
A hole in your heart.

I regret the day
I looked into your eyes and
Said it was goodbye

There's always tomorrow
to think about actions
to worry about making
the right decision.

Today is for doing
Doing whatever gives you joy
and gets you through the day.
Today is about living.

I know
I'm not her.
I'm not your special girl
anymore.
I'm just some girl
who used to be your world.
But please
Try not to forget me.

You do not know me
The mask I wear when I'm with
you is an image.

The hole in my heart
That remained after he left
Can never be filled

A warm summer day
Me, in a blue denim dress
Counting your eyelashes
Soft touches
Lips grazing
A whispered declaration
One single moment,
expanded into our personal eternity
You
and Me.