I'm not asking you to come back, but only because I'm not stupid enough to think you were ever here in the beginning.

You never owned my heart, but ******* you sure broke it like you did. like a lost soul I came back for more. Some say you are a *****, but to me you are so much more.
It is you that I will always adore.

I have spent $8480 drinking bourbon trying to forget you, it didn't work. I've spent 104 sleepless nights trying to forget you to no avail. I think about you every day, but I'm too scared to come get you. I say what we had was amazing, you say it was torture, I don't think you meant what you said. I have low self esteem and you don't understand that, you do too or you wouldn't be just like me. You cover your body with tattoos and I cover my heart with scars. I love you and the rest doesn't really matter.

My perfect mistake is you
but I like it, and it’s true
for I wasn’t supposed to trust anymore,
but whenever I try to runaway, I fall.  You are the enemy I love to fight everyday
I call you amazing, you call  me lover… and it sounds sweeter than the breeze of my morning day
It’s your eyes I’d love to kiss goodnight
It’s your ears I’d love to whisper sweet dreams
my perfect mistake is you and yes it’s true.

I
want to be her man.
I want to hold her in my hand.
I want her heart to lend itself to me.
I want her eyes to look past all the others and fix right on me.
I want her to want me.
I want to grow old with you girl.
I want to count the wrinkles on your face in thirty years.
I want you to be my last memory.

I
Spend so much time
Looking
Up
To you
That
I
Forget to keep an eye on my own path.

What can I say
I really have nothing for you
Not  a fond memory
No, not even one
At least not of you
I'd have to say the best thing you did for me
Was to leave.
Leave me to take care of my brothers
What's that you say?
Oh you thought my alcoholic father would
Take care of us.
That's funny, he was as interested in us as you
I guess he did at least stay.
I think he stayed because nobody else would have him.
But still he stayed.
I remember the ****** lips when he came home
We always hoped he'd have a good day.
Boy the bad days were sure rough on us.
Hell, we were little boys.
We weren't wise to the ways of the world
I never dreamed that a five year old child wasn't meant to stay home and raise his brothers while
His dad sat in the bar
Sat in the bar drinking away his sorrows.
I guess I should say I was a bit upset when I learned that you were found in a ditch
A ditch on the other side of the country.
Beaten, bruised, battered, naked oh mom who did this
Who did this to you?
I see, it was the man you left us for.
Mom, we would have never done that to you
So why, why did you leave?
It must have been for the adventure.
Boy, what an adventure it must have been.
You did pass your sense of adventure onto us
Yes all three of us.

What were the odds?
The odds of us meeting.
Meeting on that beautiful day
'Twas two weeks ago Sunday.
A day that I'll always hold dear and near to my heart.
I often wonder
I wonder why?
Why did we meet?
Was it destiny?
I'm not sure.
I'm thinking it was necessity.
Although, I never knew I needed you until the moment
The moment I met you.
You make me smile when I want to cry
You make me cry when I want to be angry
You make my eyes close when I think of you.
You make my desire grow strong.
What an unlikely couple
Unlikely couple we will be.

Sometimes when I think of us
I think this is the best it will ever be.
It makes me think that I should set you free
If I were to set you free now we would
Only have the best of memories.
There would never be any bad memories
To get in the way of my thoughts of you
The thoughts that make me smile
Oh boy do those thoughts make me smile
If I let you go now I can keep all the good
And
Avoid all the bad.
???

I think I may.
I think I might.
I think it's a possibility.
I think it's worth looking into.
I think the chance is very real.
That I love you.
First I must crawl into the darkest deepest corners.
Of your soul.
I have to ensure that you are the person.
The person that you
Have
Led me to believe you are.
If everything checks out
If everything is as it appears
Then
And only then
Will my love for you knock you off your feet.
You will be rendered defenseless.
There will be no hope for you.
You will not be able to escape.
Escape the grasp of my heart.
It will creep into your mind.
It will fill your thoughts.
I'm sorry.

She
Came into my life
As an
Innocent girl with seemingly good intentions
Then all of the sudden
She
Grabbed ahold of my heart with her teeth and
Ripped it from my chest.
A pain that I could never live without.

It
was the last time
she would make eye contact with her husband, until after her second ******, by which time her new friend was
thrusting
himself deep inside her.
That night will be the best night of their lives.

With those simple words she
Took
My
Desire to write
My passion for life
And
The smile from my face.

I gotta say this. When you asked me “how do you know you would always feel that way” with you I would never stop exploring new things, I’d never let myself get lazy and have you feel like you were taken for granted, I would do things with you that I didn’t like, just to see the excitement on your face, I would give you the freedom to be yourself under almost any circumstance, I would not let a day pass that you didn’t feel like the most special woman in the world. My question would be, how could you think I wouldn’t feel like that forever?

I've taken the chill pill,
twas hard to swallow,
but I've done it,
I've done it for you.
My hope is that your heart will always remain true,
true to you.
You're  a special kinda something.

I would be lying if I told you I hadn't had a great
Time with you.
I know he has won the battle, the battle of your
Heart
This fight was hardly fair  
The odds were stacked against me from the beginning
Not to mention the fact of me holding back
Holding back to protect you
I'm glad that this battle is over
This battle was starting to wear on me
I'm a pretty tough guy, tougher than most
But you dear
You are something I've never ran into before
I just hope your intentions were of the purest form
If I was just a way
A way to pass the day
Then I'd be hurt.
Truly hurt.
I hope you find what you need, what you need to be at peace, at peace with yourself.
I'll keep our conversations somewhere
Locked in the back of my head
For a day
A day when the world seems to be against me
I'll just sit and remember the talks
The talks that made my hart skip a beat
And my respirations quicken
I hope he is what you need
Because there will not be another chance
At least not with me.
I'm sorry
Sorry that I cannot be used as a toy.

So, I've got an IQ of one hundred thirty nine and I can't even figure out how to get you outta my head.
I'm thinking the algorithm for this predicament may become messy, but fun. Yes fun for sure.

That I saw you as dangerous and maybe a little
Scary
Well, those days have faded into my distant
Memory.
Now I can only bring myself to see you
As delightful and delectable.
This does without doubt strike fear into mind
I seem to have let down my guard
I've let down my impenetrable guard and the girl with the
Million dollar soul has came waltzing right
Into my heart.
I sure hope she has only the purest of intentions.

She
Has built a fire inside me.
This fire is burning like a wild fire.
It can't help but to spread.
It's spreading to places that were once thought
To be safe from the fire.

As it turns out
I'm a real life poet
And I didn't ever even know it.
You better watch out, here comes the passion
The passion you've been longing for all this time.

One splash of
Desire
And
The thought of you
In my arms
That's all I long for
As I'm a simple man
I don't need money or all the fancy things
I
Just need you
Really that's all I need.

His mind
Can't help
But to swell
With
Anticipation
Of the next conversation
That
Couldn't possibly
Happen soon enough
Or last long enough.