I'm drinking amongst the veterans
of this endless hellish war
I kind of almost envy those
ending problems knee deep in gore
My problems can't be ended
with falling axes or swinging swords
Because I've been in my share of fights
and won great many awards
But all of that is worthless when
my enemy is myself
So I just bottle up emotions,
leave them sitting on the shelf.

Blank grey walls and an empty heart
I am awake and waiting for the pain to start.
Blank grey sheets and an empty bed
I can't silence the voices inside my head.
Blank grey floors but I'm already gone
I feel emotionless, empty and I am withdrawn
Blank grey eyes, and a ****** knife
Is this seriously all I'm doing with my life?

Now no, my friend, your life's not fair
but there's no point sitting with a vacant stare
life doesn't get better, but at least it goes on
good times aren't coming but the worst times are gone.
so do not sit alone, with that vacant stare
I don't know your happiness, but I know it's not there

So I say hellopoetry
and goodbye to my sanity
another night writing of you
and you know, I don't want to

I understand why light bends, and why the skies are blue
But I can't possibly understand what it's like to be you
I understand how photons, are both particle and wave
but I have no idea, about the way females behave
Understanding science is as easy as three point one four
but the human brain is complicated and oh so much, much more.

Yet understanding you is so much more vital
than understanding DNA's full title
I understand the physics,
behind rudimentary time travel
But I don't understand why
when your around, my words they do unravel

But I feel you understand me,
and I can't return the favour.
Yet at least I understand poetry,
it's been a real life saver.

you said you'd be here forever.
you said you'd never let me go.
you said you will always love me.

well it's been a year and you're not here.
it's been a year and you have let me go.
it's been a year and you don't love me.

forever means however long I want to stay in your life.
I'll never let you go means I'll keep you until I find some one better.
always means temporarily
and I love you means nothing.

If you read these words and they are my last
please remember all the poems, that have come to pass
remember each smile, each tear and each word
and even remember the ones you heard
what a way to end it all
what a way for the mighty to fall.
Goodbye dear poetry, goodbye my life
and most importantly goodbye strife.