I can't take
The waight
Of a heavy heart
To escape

The feeling
Of ecstasy
Where you race
In place

I can't stand
The face
I have to make
These days

Just to get
A smile
From some fake
*** snake

Let's be honest
Like more
Masculine
*******

Like more
Treat like
****
Stereotype

Like more
Comfort in
The television
Screen

Fake phone numbers
Fake smiles
Fake stories
Fake truths

Like more
Of what's less
Stare into fake
See what's real

Like a wide open
Gaping wound
That I just
Pour salt in

But it makes me
Happy thinking
About the thought
Of you

Yet you'd watch me
Bleed
And I still
Miss your face

Even though
You'd watch me
Drown myself
I cry

I cried
Seeing your
Old pictures
Our old love

And I just
Want to see you
And tell you
That I ******* hate you

Keep learning lessons
That I've already learned

Keep getting burned
In places I've already burned

I've tried to change faces
But never could confirm

That the life in my eyes
Is worth being preserved

He makes my heart beat
Feels like I'm losing my feet
These days I'm too discreet
Lying to myself
And others around me

He makes me feel like me
Masculine enough
But the sweeter man
Blond t shirts
Backwards caps

He makes my knees weak
That look on his face
When he turns to the side
Did you know
That you're so **** fine

I just don't
Want to share
You with
Anyone

I need you
I want you
I think about you
Is that my fault?

Others treat you
Like you are nothing
And pass you around
Like it's a joke

That's why I stay
Inside
Don't let anyone
See me and you hide

Wasting my time
And wasting yours
Whats the point
Of insidious actions
Pure hate
Because you
Pretend to date
Something that isn't
Even you
I guess that's what makes
It easy to hide

I bring my heart
My soul
My music
You can play the fool
I'll be me until I can't

Ive talked too much ****
Thrown your name in the dirt
Like you did to me
We'll never be
What we used to be

Now I sit thinking
About who we used to be
What we could have been
Before you took a bat
To this glass house

I guess tears and anger
Only get you so far
When love unraveled
In front of us
We watched it die

The love of your
Life
Is just one swipe
Away

Swiper no swiping
Now
Your love's gone
Away

How often do you
Ask yourself how
Much you are
Worth

How can this or
That about me
Be used to
Sell myself professionally

Forget kindness
Forgiveness
Etc
For the sake of life

We sell ourselves
Over and over
Until we are
Dead or expired

You are a planet
Come crashin into me
Start feeeling like
This is hennessy

Everytime that you
Come rushin into me
I start to think about
Everything I really need

But it seems like
Seems like
You don't care about
My life

But at the same time
I'm ok with that

**** it I guess
I'm just trying to
Pay my mom's rent

What am I doing
Stay up too late
Don't get enough sleep

I'm just trying
To help change the world
For the better

I'll help you
You help me
I'm just trying
To help change the world
For the better

I'll help you
You help me
I'm just trying

Why we never talk
Only stare, smile and dance
Eat laugh
Talk ****
Repeat
One day
I hope you know
The real me

Trust, honesty
And mutual respect
Are these things
We forget
Or things
We neglect

For our friends
We attempt
A semblence
Of intent

For our lovers
We invent
Illusions of
What's best

Jealousy's a monster
A mother ****** beast
Take its *** down
Beat it up in the streets

Take a deep breath
And get yourself in check
Take a look in the mirror
Before you bounce back

We could lose it all
Right before we lose our minds
Let the cord stretch
And cut it off just in time

It's real easy
To **** **** up
It only takes
One
Thing
Blink
Sink
Rust
At the bottom

Little stupid
Little play around
Giving no *****
About anyone
Except yourself
Think you're hot
Till you're not

The blows kept coming
I didn't know this
Was a fight

My tears kept flowing
Wrapping my arms
Around my head tight

Blacked out
Hair pulled
Hands on throat

Kicked
Punched
Pushed

Choked
Hated
Forgotten

Waking up
Sliding back
Into bed

You said
You had no memories
In your head

There's no rebirth
Without pain
But tonight
I'm really feelin it
My heart is breaking
While I try and mend it
But my sister
Gives me strength
Miles away
Giving birth

Even when it's late
Out waiting for you
All day
And I'll wait all night
Just to see your face
See you smile
To spend even just
One hour
With you
Watching you glow
I squint but never
Look away
I'll stay out in Oakland
For you
Past midnight
No way home
Just to be with you

LA and SD
Are the body
What you see
On the outside

SF and the Bay
Are the heart
What beats
On the inside

She like them slow boys
Those easy to play with
Kind of toys
Those easy to maniuplate
Drowned out
Kind of noise

She likes to play kids
Still one herself
She doesn't see him
Isn't looking for herself
But for the game

Chasing those low points
When you just
Bounce around
Like a falling leaf
But making lots of sound

A cutie
A friend
Somebody
To do
Funny bunny
Cutty buddy
Things

She never
Answers
But it's just to
Remind her
That I still
Care
About her

Take the bus
Or take an uber
The choice is up
To you
To break picket lines
No fines
No lines
That can't be crossed
With a company
That breaks strikes
By breaking workers
Rights

You skate on by
I'm lucky to catch
A glimpse

I try and get near you
I doubt that
I'll win

So many nets in the air
But you float
With the wind

And that's what I love
A little thick
A little thin

One taste
One touch
One mic
I hit and come
Right back
I bleed
I leak
I need
Fiend

She say you love
To smoke **** with girls
Is that really my problem
All the Os and curls

All the smoke blown
Back into the air
Melts down my shoulders
And hardened glare

That some cutie
Is there with me
Splittin the pie
Is a plus in my eyes

If she wanna hate
On me blowin trees
Then please step aside
MJ only girl for me

Friends and
Family
Will betray you
Some day
But it may
Take Months
Years
To figure it out
How are we
To respond
With love
Compassion
Or hate
Forgive
Never
Forget

I knew when I came in
We looked each other in the eyes
At the same time you broke down crying

Somehow we made a mistake
Let things slip up
Now it's getting late

But we both knew where we wanted to go
You had your path
I had a path of my own

A mistake or reality
I'm not really sure these days
These are just things I never would say

Good friends
Bad friends
Not sure what it means
Those who are closest to you
End up being family

Strong ties
Weak ties
The list is running thin
The ones we want to keep
Are running from within

Are we meant
To break each others hearts
When SOs come and go
Friends stay around
Just to tear you down

Love is
Socially
Constructed

Sorry
Construction paper
Hearts

The sounds of the city
Put me at ease
Takes me back to my front step
Smoking butts but no trees
The light smell of rain
That would fall like leaves
While I talked to you on the phone
Wishing I was we

Weird **** happens
When I close my eyes
My body gets taken
Engulfed by night
Waking up in tears
Just after I tried
To get some sleep
And piece of mind
My chest is expanding
Anxiety running high
The world is upside down
Trying to hold on for the ride

Since the 80s
Any parties for working people
Have virtually disappeared
The most well known
"Democrats"
Took a hard right turn
Now pro-war, deregulation
Slashing social services
Criminalizing youth of color
While the Republicans
Went further and further right

Now we have two conservative parties
The center right big D Democrats
And the far right Republicans
A vote for Trump
Was a vote for facism
A vote for Hillary
Was a vote for neoliberalism
There were more than four candidates
Did you know?

This is also known
As the one party system
More dems voted repub
Than other way around
******* DNC
******* RNC
The snakes are all on the same plane

Certain American cities are said
To be on the rise
While others at the same time
Decay into their own demise
Those that prosper are being told
You must grow!
You must accommodate the influx of capital
Even if some must go
To those who are priced out
Evicted or displaced
The powers that be simply could not care
That you miss your grandma's face
The solution they say
Is to build to meet demand
No matter that this fills the pockets
Of those who rigged the scam
If supply is the problem
That is not meeting demand
Then why are the two densest cities in the States
The most expensive to live in

The City in the abstract
People are fearful
The night, the dice
The vice, the crime
Come here and see
We live and bleed
On the streets
For each other
For each of the others
Kept out of the burbs
During the time of GI's

Now that the bleached
From the burbs are moving
They try and run us out
Try to clean the streets
With words of hate
Eyes of division
Tastes too expensive for
Us others
They claim the remedy
To clean these streets
For their pleasing

But please I beg you
Don't you see
These streets were never meant
For you
They were never meant
To be clean

As I let love slide out my grasp
I see your hair twist and twirl again
To the sea of an ocean blown away
Again and again sand finds my toes
My fingers curl into yours
On the West Coast the air blows
Notes that are only meant for you

You are
A loser
With misery
Radiating around you
You turn everything
Around you
To misery
And your life
Is going
Nowhere

Soft tales
Of a life relaxed
Got your job
Pay your tax
Raise your kids
Buy your shack
Get a ring
Grow intact

Hard tales
Of a life off track
Started young
Saw the cracks
Fought for justice
Got pushed back
See the face of the homeless
Never forgot that

Under the watch of a
Democrat
We see water canons
Deportations
And drone attacks

Hand the ball back to
Republican
Corporate players
Take a tighter grip
Americans panic

The tryanny
Of false prophets
Bleeds the imperialist nation
Dry
A call to the people
Rise up or die

Shed your bias
Shed your fears
Go on ahead
Its ok
Shed some tears

Now get up
Pick your getup
Smile wide
Try a walk on the wild side

Put up your hair
Or let it down
Pick up the lipstick
Paint your frown

Get some blush
A little mascara
Do up your brows
Get it goin Leon Sierra

Put on your dress
With your favorite song
Don't be ashamed
That you're wearing a thong

You got older
Your face got less and less familiar
Who was the person painted
In your past
You are unsure as you start looking
For more
For girls in boys
And boys in girls
For men in women
And women in men
You look at yourself
Painted in the mirror
At 3AM
Feeling happiness in beauty
But shame in who you are
You want what you are not supposed
To have
You want
Something else

All youve seen is jokers your whole life
Until we happen to meet
You think you see honesty at your feet

Is it really my fault that everyone before
Only knew how to drop their drawers
In hopes of you droppin yours?

That I like to take my time to tap into you
Uncover your mind
To see whats inside

You think youve met someone real
And as real as it may be
Honestly I just want to **** for free

When I wake up in the night
I already regret you
Palms and arms sweating
Wanting to consume you
I get up in the morning
Seeing you sit there empty
Hating who I am
With and without you
But as day turns back to night
Something inside me burns
I reach out to you once again
Just so I can watch myself drown

Workers
Are pawns
In a CEO chess game
You live or you die
For someone else's gains

The company will sacrifice you
It will beat you
It will feed you crumbs
The worker begs

Your boss smiles
With a knife in your back
Twisting it
Until you smile too

What would happen
If my shoulders didnt support my head
If my feet let my body collapse
My knees didnt support my thighs

We need each other
The people need the people
The workers need the workers
The women need the women
People of color need people of color

Rise up before we fall

Its hard to love someone
You dont respect
Especially with relationships built
On alcohol, drugs and ***

Its hard to not fight
With something that you regret
When all that you think of
Are things you cant take back

These paths we create
Understood by some
To others
Fate

Lead us on roads we don't know
Forever guessing
Born
Glow

In the end I'll pick faith
In human kindness
Love
Grace

And forever turn my back
On the things
That bled
Me