I see the twinkle in your eyes and I am jealous
Jealous of the excitement that lies behind them
So enthusiastic and full of  life
I am old and grey in comparison
Tired and weary
But there's fight left in me yet
I'm going nowhere.

Dear future love,
     Will you one day write poems for me? Would you write beautiful words with me as your inspiration? Could you capture me in between college-ruled lines? Paint a picture of me without picking up a paint brush? Write to me, about me , for me - like I see him do for her. Please tell me have we met, or will we ever? Am I just a face you see now, an image , a thought , a word. Can you let me know? Send a sign to your love. Or have the signs been sent and I , looking too hard for them. Am I overlooking the obvious, the perfect, the person, the you? Please tell me that you are out there wondering who the girl is that is writing about you!
Love
Always

My eyes burn
My mind's a mess
I'm tired
I'm cold
I feel alone
All alone ...
Hello!
Hello?
Why is my only answer the rain ?
As it flows down my window pain.
What are you offering Rain?
A setting for my sorrow?
Or a solvent to dissolve my problems?
Answer me give me more please !
Rain drop
Dropping
Drops...
Let me know I'm not alone .

You taught me how to love.
Not like mom and dad did.
But how the real word does.

This love has to be learned.
It's not the innate love.
This is the love that takes time.

When I was four you started with my lesson.
First was to find you out of a sea of so many.
I feel in love with your black button eyes.
This was the test of impulse love.

Then I had to keep you safe.
I couldn't lose you like those other kids did.
I had to protect you and your stitching.
This was the test of protecting love.

Now I can't forget you.
It looks like I don't need you anymore like my friends don't need theirs.
I look like I shouldn't be with you anymore now that I am older.
This is the test of distancing love

Soon i'll have to leave.
I won't be able to keep you with me you wont fit in my luggage.
I will be so cold without you and your soft warmth in my arms.
This will be the test of letting go of love.

Then one day I'll look back at my childhood.
I will not forget our adventures.
I will not forget what you taught me.
This will be the final test of remembering love.

We have chemistry together. From the start of the school year we have sat next to each other and exchange casual conversation. We are lab partners. We make faces at each other when the teacher isn't looking. We talk about class outside of class. We share notes. We share a class together
        We have chemistry together. From the start of the school year we have revolved around each other and exchanged phone numbers. We are lab partners. We watch each other's every move so we don't mess up the experiment. We talk to each other outside of class.We share notes. We share chemistry.

I can't anymore
It's worth the time
The effort of making you smile
But how long do I have to love you
Just for you to realize
I'm not always going to be there
I'll leave your side eventually
Even if I don't want to
You've plagued my mind
With frowns and scars
Still leaking a velvet substance
Remember I told you I love you?
I'm sorry but my heart is dead
Murdered by the tyranny of my mind
Telling me I'm useless
That the love I have for you is meaningless
I can't fight wars that I'm too weak to battle
I can't go to war
Without the thought that I'm fighting for nothing
No chance is given
To love you for all eternity
I don't want to be the foundation
Of a vacant house
I want to be the utilities
Required to keep it alive
I want to be the fire in the chimney
The water used for your showers
The electricity for you to read my poems
The ones I wrote about you
But I guess loving you
Became so much of an obsession
I forgot why I loved you in the first place
Yet I'd rather just love you
Than know the reasons
My love shouldn't have a limit
But I'm limited every time
You don't pick up the phone
Or every time you don't pay the bill
I can't love somebody
Who doesn't want to give living another try
I've died twice because of you
I've lived a century for you
I can't do it any more
The beams in this supporting this housed flesh
Is growing weak
Though my fire still burns
Trying to keep you warm
I'll smolder in the past
As you walk away from this house
And find something better
Something of modern innocence
Remember I told you I love you?
I just seem to weak to that anymore

Another night of pain
Jogging leaves the body sore
Immune to the training the rage
The better the body feels
The mind wants change
Demands the wrong be set right
All the faces turned their back
Now your moving forward
they lack on to hold you back
Tired of being promised lies
Trusting in others has lead to failure
Forgive those who treat you bad
That's not going to happen
Believe in others they do nothing
Others find love but reject it
Many have what I want wasting it away
Tired of being denied for someone worse off
Done good everything is bad