Everyone hopes that they are broken,
Because if you're broken
That means that there is a cure,
A treatment,
A medication,
A program that can fix you.
If you're broken,
Then someone can make it stop.
The real fear is that you're fine,
And it can't get better.
The real fear is that this is normal.
It really hurts this much to lose a friend,
To move,
To not get the job,
Or to get the job.
Just to feel so sad and scared and disorientated.
It is all completely normal,
And you can't fix it.
No one fears being broken,
You can make that stop.
It's the real ability to feel pain that you can't change,
And that is terrifying.

Take a look at my hands
Today at work
I saw a man fall in the hall
I rushed of to see what was wrong
He was not breathing so I went to CPR
Now I feel like a accident, nothing there, nothing at all
DE FIB would not go off
Sorry to say he was dead before hitting the floor himself.