if I killed myself tonight
what would you do
would you feel regretful
that you never said you loved me
or that you never felt the same way
and you were sorry for everything
but you never got the chance to say it
would you come to my funeral
would you cry for me
because if you died
I'd die too
and I wouldn't be able to go to your funeral
because i'd be lying in a grave next to you
and even though you'll never talk to me
i am still in love with you
and everything I do is for **you

the relationship was fake
you didn't feel her embrace
I was the last one you touched
so why is it that you have crushed
my heart all over again
I wanted to be more than a friend
you promised to message me
please don't disappear and flee
you're the only one I desire
a relationship built on fire
come over tonight and make me smile
even if it's only for a little while

You scared me away with your lust and your longing
Your trust too easily earned, with your sense of belonging
Long term commitment, a future, your love
I'm sorry but I can't match that when push comes to shove

Pure lust hidden behind a crumbling facade
White lies and all the torment they have made
Against the shadow of our past
Before our future was cast
We struggled with ourselves
We struggled by ourselves
We struggled so we might last

I've decided that it pays to be a pessimist
We love deeply, while not ignoring the feeling of our hearts begining to crack
This doesn't mean our hearts end up in any fewer shards
Or are any less impossible to reassemble
But at least we're not surprised when they shatter

What if a shooting star
Granted all the wishes I've made so far
What if you could see
All that you really mean to me
And what you were to die
I'd die too and I don't know why
But what if all of my wishes came true
All I ever wished for was you