I can hear and see your lies from
miles away.

Maybe the distance is a gift but
That remains unknown.

I enjoy when you are happy,
But it never last long.

Soon enough, you scream-
you hit.

Which is followed with more lies.
Your actions have caused more hurt than imagined.

Nothing seems to ever stop you,
Not even the love of your life taking all you have known away.

What I remember most is when I had to scream back,
telling you to stop.

You Never Listened.

For I am absent mindlessly waiting for a beginning,
For an emancipation,
For an assisted dying statue,
For a cure,
For a salvation of the world,
For peace among the worlds indifference,
For some sort of distance.

And at the same time,
Waiting to stop running from myself.

For one moment of my life
I want someone to care.
I want someone to look at me asking
'are you okay?' and really
want to know the true answer.

But people don't always get what they want,
life isn't fair?
Is that the excuse so you don't have to deal
with me?

Everyday is getting worse,
My head is in a dark place.
And no one wants to enlighten it.

People are
Cruel.
I am just
Tired.

I can't get away,
you always seem to be there.
In times it feels like I need you to be gone,
you seem to always stick around.

Maybe its an unhealthy relationship- forced,
where as I try to get away,
while even court says I must stay.

You could do the world wrong,
but nothing is done for me;
my life has been surrounded by choices I was
forced to make because of you.

The choices that have made me sick and tired-
a never ending cycle that is.
And thanks to you it has been made
abundantly clear,
that I must not,
and will not
ever escape.

I can’t think for
Myself
Everyone around me
Is getting better and
I am just stuck.

Everyone around me
Is independent and
Successful,
Leaving me
Hanging fire.

No one listens,
No one is there,
No one cares,
But yet I am forced
Into believing things
That are wrong,
In my eyes.

Forced to believe you.