Back and forth
the constant back and forth
happy and then shouting
calm and then sobbing

It's like a swing
if it had no chains
flying
and then falling

There is no real answer
no set, no stop
only the constant
back and forth

Hungry but don't want to eat
full but I don't want to stop
breaking something
only to feel the blood on my arms

I'm angry but not at you
I'm sad but not because of you
I'm happy again
but then it's numb and broken next

I might **** myself
or maybe just get high
maybe it could just be
one more cut

Maybe I could just
go back to how
it used to be
but I can't even remember four hours ago