if you were to meet god
what would be your first question?
akin to when i was just a boy
i only cared to ask
what's your favorite color?

these writings are nothing more
than the polite ramblings of an educated mad man
one not to be listened to

tonight i feel like celebrating
i feel like letting down my guard
if only for a little while
...
that was fast

for this moment
this precious amount of time that we allow ourselves
let us reminisce and reconnect
forget about the years we've spent apart

that was yesterday
and will be again tomorrow
days, months, years after that
the same old routine

but for now
we're here
present
cheers

id much rather drown you out with silence
than engage in a yelling battle i would surely lose

in my dreams
i'm walking this abandoned railway
deep between towns
not a man made sound to be heard

listen

the wild is just as wild as the wilderness provides
out here, beauty and horror
balanced
this railway my only guidance

i step away
leave the railway behind
join the wild
how romantic it seems

i wouldn't last a week

ill wake up now
and wonder what would be
coffee
i'm late for work

how romantic

kaleidoscopic patterns do nothing for me
you see complex patterns of color
a marvel to stare at from every corner
i see anxiety

i see its time to leave

what is my truth?
i have no true colors
i'm a shapeshifter
i'm everyone

i'm standing right beside you
smiling
i mean it
but i don't really

i'm anyone i need to be

go ahead
pick up your rocks
aim for my head
pray you have luck

go ahead
cast me aside
convince yourself
you have nothing to hide

i wish that i could be like you
i wish that i could see behind their eyes inside their minds
and label them with what i think i would find

i hate that i can hate like you do
i hate that i can label without any thing to prove
i hate that i've become like one of you

never have i been more ashamed
of how i treaded you that day
i spoke before my mind could stop my though from ever being recognized
i'm a complete wreck for you
i'm a complete mess for you